Hey all! Hope you all are having good days! Like the title says, I’m looking for a long-term friend or a relationship with someone around my age.
A bit about me: I am from Michigan (the best state). I work in the automotive industry and just started my first full-time job! My interests include cars (duh), video games (casually), tv/movies, Formula 1, American football, history, politics, finding new music, taking long drives and walks, and a lot more that I either can’t think of or are more random. I’d also love to hear what your interests are, and even if we don’t have anything in common, I’m sure there’s lots to talk about. I’m pretty open-minded!
I'm a slight bit introverted, especially early on, but I open up to people pretty easily after getting to know them a little. I like to think that I’m pretty kind, but nobody is perfect. I'm also a pretty good listener and a bit of a hopeless romantic, and would consider myself at least somewhat funny.
I have several different socials we can talk on as well if you’d prefer IG, snap, or discord instead of here.
If any of this interests you, hit me up!
P.S. Don't worry if you're super far away from me. Some of the best people I've ever met have been on the other side of the country (or world) and I've met some of them in person regardless of distance!

Hello! A friend of mine is getting married in southern France this coming August and was thinking about spending some time in Spain before/after the wedding. Any suggestions on an area near the border that would be good to visit? Please tell me why. Gracias!!

This is a bit wordy but I’m venting and on the fence on what to do next. I had LO 4 months ago and returned to work full time 2 months ago. I make very good money and I’m in a niche field at the top of my game so I know my value. A couple weeks ago a friend approached me about needing some basic tech/social media help for their work. It’s a seasonal business for vacationing families and they have very little online presence. Said friend is the operations manager so the only person above him is the owner, who jet sets all over the world most of the time for other business ventures. Given the minimal effort it would take and the understanding that I’d work on my schedule around my current job, I figured it was just a great opportunity to help a friend out and make some extra cash. I agreed to an informal sit down dinner to discuss and drafted a one page sales pitch. The owner even agreed to let me bring LO.
Last night the owner, myself with baby, and my friend met at a local restaurant where the owner is close with the restaurant owner, who I’ll refer to as RO to avoid confusion. Owner began talking about app designs and the business goals right away. After 15 minutes of this, I politely interrupted and explained that I was not pitching app design or management but social media marketing and support only. He chuckled and said he understood but was just trying to “help me understand how business works.” My friend looked shocked but when I didn’t say anything, he opted not to interrupt and sat back and observed. The meeting continued with the owner mansplaining things to me and me politely correcting him here and there. Initially I thought this was some insane old school tactic to test my skills but it grew tiresome. Then RO sat down…
The owner and RO began talking about their home countries and how stupid Americans are about politics. It’s important to note that I work in government so my friend was very uncomfortable at this point. RO then turned and asked how I was enjoying staying home with baby. I explained that I work full time and was there for a second gig but that my husband stays home during the day. His eyes finally left my chest and looked at me in total shock. RO asked what I did for work which I summarized and he proceeded to completely ignore me from then on. I finished my meal, mentioned the food was always a little bland there and told owner we could meet this week to discuss further.
It’s easy money and I’d only have to meet with the owner rarely. Do I just continue or end it now? I feel I could manage the misogyny as long as we never do business at RO’s place again. Thoughts?

Apr 1, 2023
ATLANTA – Georgia Power announced today that the generator at the Vogtle Unit 3 nuclear expansion project near Waynesboro, Ga. has generated electricity for the first time, and the unit has successfully synchronized and connected to the electric grid. This milestone is part of ongoing startup testing for Vogtle Unit 3, and operators will continue to raise reactor power for electricity generation while performing tests at various power levels.....
https://youtu.be/67TxNXZISVs

Ok so I care deeply about my girlfriend. Love her. She is a great person, but there are so many little things that have been bothering me since I have moved in, and they somewhat disgust me as well.

1. She stopped taking care of herself. She eats and eats and has constantly put on weight. She used to be really hot! Now, she's doubled in size. Not an exaggeration. 200+ pounds. However, some of it is genetics. Her mom and sisters are really big. I thought that maybe she was the exception, but no, she gained so much weight, so fast, and she's getting bigger every week. I have made comments like WE should eat better, or work out more, but it never seems to happen. I could make a better effort to make sure it happens, but I think that it is a little difficult for me because I don't have weight issues and I always take care of my personal appearance. She also works a lot! So she doesn't necessarily have the time and it's not a job that she can just ditch. It's a great job, but requires many hours.
2. She has these cats, and they are nice cats, but 2 cats, possibly 4 if she brings the others from her moms house like she has been discussing for a while now. It is a tiny apartment and honestly, anymore than 1 cat seems excessive. But they are her cats and I don't want to tell her no. I am not that type of person. She had them before I met her and it would be wrong to try and influence her to keep them at her moms. However, I'd like to point out that she added 2 cats since her and I have been together. It was originally 2 and now it's 4. But the way she interacts with them absolutely disgusts me! A) She leaves the litter box in the second bedroom and you can smell it throughout the house. B) She lets them do whatever they want. She lets them jump on the kitchen counter and the dining room table. They start putting their faces in the glasses and on the plates smelling or licking them. She asks them to come on the bed and go underneath the covers, and that absolutely disgusts me! These cats are walking around the litter box in their shi* and pee and then coming on the bed licking their paws after being in the litter box and then going underneath the covers so we can bask in their fecal matter from their mouth and a**hole. I find it absolutely disgusting and so I then get out of the bed to go sleep on the couch and she ends up getting upset with me.
   I really care about her and would never want to hurt her. I also should point out that she can get extremely emotional and I would never want to hurt her or put her through any type of depression.
   

Any advice would be much appreciated.

So I never ask for help, ever, but this stressing me out a bit. Rent was due march 31, as in yesterday. Now, I work 2 jobs and then Instacart on my free time, job 1 in the morning, Instacart, then job 2, depends on how I feel, I'll instacart again after job 2 till I'm tired. I got paid today, cool, was a few hundred short. I got off work and decided to grind the rest of the night doing instacart, I got 5 hours left in the night, I can do it. Drove 40 minutes to the store, started doing the order, then realized my keys weren't in my pocket. Ran out the store to find it locked in the car lol. Cancelled the Instacart order, lost a bit a cash there, Call the locksmith, charged 168 out of pocket, set me back more, and now it's 12:23 and no more Instacart orders.. if anyone can help me, I'd very much appreciate it!

2018 interview with Marisa Tam
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T. A. Wardrope (TCG): What brought you to The Blacklist? What about the show appealed to you?
Marisa Tam: I did a program called NBC’s Writers on the Verge, which is an initiative from the network to train writers who are almost ready to be on a writing staff as well as an effort to increase diversity among writers for NBC and Universal shows. At the end of the program, the NBC folks sent the script I wrote in WOTV to the shows that were looking for new writers. It caught the eye of someone at The Blacklist, and they brought me in to meet with Jon Bokenkamp, the creator and executive producer, who liked me well enough to hire me.
I wasn’t a viewer of the show before someone at NBC gave me a heads-up that I was in the running for a job, so I had to watch three seasons over the span of a few weeks. But that race-against-the-clock marathon to get up to date with the show showed me the sheer breadth of James Spader’s abilities as an actor and the wide, ambitious variety of crimes and action sequences the show tackles on a regular basis. It was both daunting and an exciting prospect for a baby writer staring down her first paid writing gig.
TCG: Did you do any background reading or research into other shows or films or did you approach this as a “blank page”?
Marisa: My research tends to be more in the vein of weird news: articles about unusual jobs or brain disorders or missing nuclear weapons, of which there are more than you’d like there to be. We’re always looking for new sandboxes to play in that would give us either a weird backdrop for an episode or a persona for the Blacklister or even someone who provides a service to the criminal world—a venture capitalist for criminal endeavors, for example.
But sometimes the bosses like something from another show or from ’80s or ’90s movies that will be the framework on which we build a Blacklist episode. We were even once asked to try structuring an episode like an hour-long When Harry Met Sally.
TCG: Can you talk about the process in the writers’ room? The show can be fairly intricate, and I’m curious how that works itself out with the writing team.
Marisa: This show works differently from a lot of other shows, where the writers will be together in a room for most or all of the day. The showrunners, Jon Bokenkamp and John Eisendrath, generally figure out a story arc for a section of the season and pitch it to the room, which consists of 12 writers right now—though last year, we had 15! Then the writers pitch episodes that fit into that arc, and Jon and John run a “mini room” with a couple other upper-level writers, bringing individual writers in to break stories as they fit episodes into that arc. What that means for the rest of the writers is that we tend to work in smaller groups to flesh out ideas before the showrunners hear them.
The structure of the show can be pretty complex, but there is a loose formula, which helps when we’re coming up with stories. Generally, James Spader’s character, Red, brings a case to the FBI that presents as something like a kidnapping, but by the episode’s midpoint, the FBI team discovers that it wasn’t a kidnapping but a jailbreak, because the kidnap victim arranged her own abduction.
So sometimes we’re essentially coming up with two different ideas and trying to find a fun way to connect them through an interesting twist. Plus, we also have to fit a couple of action sequences in there somewhere, along with any smaller character storylines that need to be serviced. It can be a really difficult thing to do, but that’s why it’s great to have other writers to talk through the plot snarls—if I were trying to write this show without help, I probably would have put my head through a wall by now!
TCG: The show sits at an intersection of crime drama, tech thriller, and superhero science fiction. How do you feel about that? Are you inclined to any specific genre elements?
Marisa: I grew up on a lot of crime shows, but we were also loyal viewers of Star Trek: The Next Generation and Voyager, and stuff like Xena, so I hold a lot of different genres near and dear to my heart. The Blacklist is pretty grounded in comparison, though we definitely bend the rules on science that isn’t quite real yet and characters who do things like take off their noses at the end of the day.
But I like that the show is wide ranging, because it gives us the opportunity to explore different worlds and the criminal possibilities that come from each of them. It also gives me a chance to use a lot of the disparate, random knowledge that I’ve accumulated, even if it’s just to write a monologue for Spader about a tidal causeway.

This happened a few years back so imma try to remember all the details.
We were getting ready for a Christmas event in Mystara. The city was holding a festival with various competitions and depending on what place you got your group was awarded tickets you could exchange for common and uncommon magic items (some were exclusive to this event and couldn't get elsewhere).
Day 1 was gonna be a massive snowball fight. We wanted to check out the field so we could plan out where we were gonna be and how we move forward, but we were told we weren't allowed on the field itself but we could get a look from a distance (it was a large field). It was to prevent cheating.
So we make the trip to the field when all of a sudden a figure in the distance (on the field itself) cast Ice Storm on us. This would have outright killed one of the NPC buddies we had with us but one of the party member's Countered it (none of us remembered the 60ft rule at the time). This initiated combat.
We couldn't see who was attacking us because they were attacking from high up and would just pop out to attack and then go back to cover, but it was definitely multiple people attacking us. So we lobbed AOE spells up there and the combat ended pretty quickly.
Well when we managed to climb up there to see who it was we found out it was a group of kids. Apparently they had gone up there to cheat during the event by doing some prep. The group had decided to keep everything quiet because there were no witnesses and people tend to freak out when you admit to killing a bunch of kids, even if it was self defense.
The next day apparently people were all talking about the "massacre" that a group of adventurers had committed and there was "video evidence" of the the thing taking place via magic crystal ball. Except the "video" conveniently left out the first part where they attacked first. And some of the parents were super rich so they were able to pay to have their kids revived and of course they were telling everyone they didn't do anything wrong. So now we were wanted for murder.
I wanted to clear out name by turning ourselves in in exchange for a fair trial where everyone involved was testifying under a Zone of Truth. Pretty straight forward. Me and one other disguised ourselves magically and pretended to be the "lawyers" of our characters so we could make out a deal in writing. We walked up and explained the situation.
Well apparently the cops had a friendly beholder working for them which took away our magic disguises and we were locked up. I said thats fine, we can still make this work. We just gonna spend some downtime waiting for the trial.
Well while we're in prison the DM has another NPC we knew break us out of the prison by killing some of the guards and starting a riot. At this point there was nothing we could do because they were gonna blame us just for being involved so we ran, met up with the rest of the group, and planeshifted out of there.
The DM later told us we weren't going to get a trial and that prison was meant to keep us there forever because the higher ups only cared about the rich people's word over ours. Myself and the other guy that was imprisoned also had all our magic items and gold taken and there was no way of getting them back (honestly we should have left that with the party before we attempted to disguise ourselves so I'll admit fault on that part).
My question for yall is, is this the absolute WORST case of railroading and DM bulls*** yall gave ever seen or am I the asshole here for complaining? I mean this just completely ruined the game for everyone involved and the entire group left the discord server after that and started our own group. A buddy and I still refuse to go to Mystara in other campaigns because of our immense wanting to blow the place up. Is there anything we did wrong here???

Recently it has been the case that many times I hit the enemy on head, my bullets appear to be going near their heads/bodies. And they just don't take any damage at all. Immediately I check in the packet loss graph, nothing only the 1-2% bump that appears when you die.
On many occasions I have shot enemy first but still I lost the gun fight because they started shooting the same weapon after me and still connect 4 bullets. I can't understand what's wrong!! I hit them first and all my bullets appeared to go towards them but still they managed to hit 4 bullets by flicking towards me. I die and then the damage report.shows 1 or 0 body shot registered.
I need a proper reason behind this.

I'm grateful my best friend has been with me nearly my whole life.
I'm thankful our bond is unbreakable, even under the test of time, the test of our lives becoming more separate as we continue to become young adults, yet our bond is stronger than ever.
I wonder if he saved me from a suicide attempt by calling a school counselor to intervene which changed the path of my life towards much greater. Regardless, he saved me.
Thank you for letting me see the light on the other side, the abundance that is out there. My depression obscured it for a little while, but the light shone itself through the darkness because of you. I will love you forever.

I (F24) dated and lived with a man who had BPD for almost 4 years. He abused me mentally, emotionally and physically. I broke off the relationship and threw him out of my apartment about a year ago. Since then I have focused on healing.
I am in a new relationship. It's long distance. My boyfriend (M23) is coming to visit me for the first time next week (we live in different countries). I am in love with him, and I hope it will translate into reality aswell. He is not perfect, he doesn't put up a perfect front. He struggles with concentration due to ADHD, but he takes his meds and does his therapy, works part time, studies full time, has a healthy group of friends (of both genders)around him, is independent and driven, has a strong character and hobbies that he cares about a lot, he is religious and practices regularly, he works out and takes care of himself. He is a good man, an introvert like me. We want the same things out of life. We have the same goals. But at the same time he is different than me in many ways. He isn't mirroring me. He isn't trying to pretend we are the same person. He isn't afraid to disagree with me. He hears me out and apologises if he hurts my feelings. He is just a good guy. He makes me feel safe and seen.
I am just so scared. I was treated so horribly in my last relationship, I am scared of leaning into this one. I am scared that I am stupid and somehow being tricked. Can I trust my own judgement again? I am scared of being burned again. But I want love. I am in love. I am so happy, but I am just so scared. Can someone who is healthy actually want me? Can a man be nice and caring and compliment me without it being love bombing? Why would anyone be nice to me if it isn't to manipulate me? I am doubting so highly that I am lovable, and that someone actually likes me for me, and not because I am someone they can abuse. How can I truly ever trust a man again? I want to trust my boyfriend, he has done nothing to make me doubt his intentions. But how can I trust? Do I just need to accept that it will take time to fully trust someone in a romantic relationship again?

So up until quite recently, my child wasn’t an angel, but was lovely in many many ways. Nowadays I often end up crying or at least upset daily because of her behaviour. I know it isn’t personal, but it upsets me nonetheless.
At 1 year old, we made it so dummies/pacifiers were an “in bed only” thing. She dealt with this incredibly and had no problems at all. Now, her dummy is almost surgically attached to her, and trying to get her to hand it over until bedtime is proving to be near impossible.
She has begun experiencing what seem to be night terrors, and my child who has slept through, in her own bed, since 8 weeks old is now up several times a night, wanting to come into my bed to watch tv at 1am, asking for water constantly but only taking one tiny sip, screaming and kicking off if something doesn’t go her way. Basically, her dad and I are exhausted.
She has also started potty training, does incredibly at nursery and whilst out of the house, but the minute we are home, screams and cries wanting a nappy on.
She also seemingly despises me. Only wants her dad. I went to comfort her in the night last night and the moment I reached her bedroom door, she was hysterical because it was me and not her dad.
She’s also being horrifically mean to her younger sister (22 months), in ways that I can only describe as a WWE reenactment.
Please please please help me. I feel guilty for saying it, but I currently hate my 3 year old. I can’t stand her. I can’t stand to be around her. I wake up dreading the day and put her to bed dreading the night. And I feel so so guilty and upset myself more for feeling this way. Please help me. I’m desperate for any and every piece of advice you can offer me. But please don’t take this as an opportunity to drag me down further. I’m at a loss

Hi all. This will be long sorry for the long vent.
I have been battling depression since a very young age for a lot of traumatic reasons.
When Covid hit I started to feel very unwell and depression for the first time took full control of me and made me not being able to take care of myself. I don’t know how I managed to do it since I was all alone in this journey, I was alone and did not have money to seek therapy, and it took me two years to be able to get back to my feet again and finally go out to live and start living. I remember there was days I cried over my muscles hurt for not moving from the bed but I did yoga in bed and cried during the sessions but I kept moving until I stood up again.
I started to bath more often, cook proper food, workout regularly and did many things in those two years until I started being able to work again.
Six month ago I did the first step and got myself into a job, it was extremely hard to go, having depression makes everything difficult. talking take energy, moving takes energy, seeing takes energy, and hearing takes energy, but I kept fighting and pushing myself to go so I can finally go seek the help I need and be able to pay for therapy.
But life does not give me a break, and one day right before my first day at work my dad had a suspected stroke and that changed everything. I needed to pose my healing and focus with my dad. Our family is not big and we don’t make much money, so I started to save some money for the therapy and kept the majority to my father for his recovery process.
Everything was going great and I was helping him along of trying to keep myself steady, and not go into another relapse, it was hard but manageable.
Until last December, after three month of his suspected stroke he got a real stroke which lead him to making his left side half paralysed temporarily and the doctor told us it will take a long time for him be able to walk and move this left hands again maybe never.
After that, for the past three month I am a caregiver to my dad, not the primary because we have a home nurse for 12 hours who help my dad with going to physiotherapy, and bath and cleaning. But after the nurse I am the second. I take care of almost everything every single day. cleaning the house, prepare food, cooking, grocery, check medical appointments, prepare medication, laundry, dishes, and basically anything that my dad needs + work and sleep deprived.
My sister take care of some other stuff as well and sometimes she help me with my part but since I have depression and I already need help, anything I do that may seem easy take 10 times effort for me.
This leaded to another self neglect loop. With depression I always say to everyone you need to sacrifice something to be able/have energy to do something else. For example I something sacrifice making food for myself to have energy to make my dad his favourite food and so on. I can’t do both since it takes a lot of energy to do anything.
Right now I am mess, I go to work with messy hair, not focused, I barely move and I can’t take proper care of myself. Doing so means I will not take care of my dad.
I also feel very guilty that I don’t spend my weekend with him anymore or talk to him much. I used to wait for the weekend or after work to stay and talk with him and be with him, but now and for three weeks all I do is making sure he have his favourite show on, ate dinner, talk to him for few hours and then go to bed and scroll my phone till going to sleep. And on my weekend all I do is stay in bed not being able to move just prepare the house for the next week and prepare his stuff and that’s it, I go to my room and don’t spend anytime with him due to being exhausted to talk or communicate in anyway and he started to tell me you don’t want to spend time with me. This is why it took me two years to work again, depression was so strong to the point I couldn’t get out of bed to shower so imagine how it feels now. I am burning myself but I find it not enough because he need more better care. He deserves attention 24 hours. Which I can’t give.
Right now I don’t watch my food, or sleep, or workout, or do anything that is needed to fight depression. And after three month I started to break. My dad need emotional, physical, and financial care. Which I gave it all for 6 month now. But I broke down today when I saw that I have almost zero dollar on my saving account and that means all of my savings for therapy is gone. I am 26 and still didn’t start living my life properly due to depression and having a very traumatic life, but when I did an attempt the one person I care about fell down and this is killing me slowly.
I don’t know what I should do but I know I can’t keep going like that. I need help myself.
I need to mention, I saved my dad on September when he had the suspected stroke, he was going to very dangerous area that may have harmed him, my dad is overweight and I am very small and fatigued most of the time, but that day I was in a depressive episode which made my body extremely weak, but I managed to grab him and pull him into the nearest room and look ourself in it and called the emergency. This experience made my depression worse but I had to numb myself for my dad, to be able to help him. The second time it was also me who was there, I was also alone with him and not feeling well again, I didn’t feel that he is well something was off but this time I called my sister and we managed to let him inside the car and then it was a stroke. Another trauma.
I feel that my life is just trauma. I don’t remember anytime I was doing well without pain no never.
I feel that by the time I am forty I will be more sick due to neglecting myself so badly and that will lead to a circle of being sick or taking care of someone who is sick. My dad is 72, I am 26, but it feels I am way older. Trauma aged me and not in a good way. I always felt like I am the parent for my dad and now it is even more with the stroke.
I feel bad for my dad and my life and selfish for thinking about myself and for having depression that makes me not being able to give more to my dad.
He needs me emotionally. And for someone who is drained this is impossible and I hate that.

I’m sure this is asked a hundred times an hour hear but I’ll just ask into the void anyway. I’m 21, nearing a respectable degree in school, told I’m well above average in looks, fit, regimental. But at the end of the day I still usually feel like I wont let myself live past 30 before I end it all. I’ve been single my whole life with a smaller but close group of friends from High-school that I never branched out from. What I’m getting at is there are things still missing that I think will help me but I have no drive to seek them since I always just assume its wasted effort. This probably doesn’t tell enough does it?

So currently riding around 15+ hours a week and doing 2-3 gym sessions which focus mainly on legs and big compound movements (squats, deadlifts, him thrusts etc). researching and speaking to my brother who hits up the gym a lot more than me i’m starting to think i may be neglecting my upper body a bit.
My real question: is it worth doing 2 or 3 gym sessions a week on top of my 2 focusing on legs to work onmy upper body. i figure i’ve got the time and there is a lot of benefit to strengthening core, chest, back and arms in terms of holding positions on the bike and general health. Is this going to be too much and if you’ve got any tips on gym work with cycling let me know.
Context basically unemployed/ part time 18 year between highschool and university.

The Lineup:

• Chapter 1 (2013-2017):
• The Batman
• Superman: Man Of Steel
• The Batman 2: Heart Of Ice
• Batman Vs Superman: World's Finest
• Wonder Woman
• Green Lantern Corps
• The Flash
• Aquaman
• Suicide Squad
• Justice League

HBO Television Series:

• The Batman: The Early Years
• Catwoman: The Jewel Thief
• Doctor Fate
• Hawkman and Hawkgirl
• Blackhawk

OUTLINE OF THE MOVIES
A detailed outline of plot-lines, changes and in-universe connections.

The Batman:

The Plot: This events of this movie would stay exactly the same.
My Major Changes: Batman is in his fourth year in my version of the film, he's not an experienced veteran like Ben Affleck's interpretation, he still has a lot to learn, but he isn't totally inexperienced like in the film we got. This would be done in a similar way to The New 52. I believe that Pattinson can play a Batman who has sidekicks before, but after Jason's death, he becomes more emo, like in the movie we got.
Batman, in my DCEU, already had adopted Dick Grayson, Barbara Gordon, Jason Todd and Helena Bertinelli. Bruce hasn't adopted or even met Tim Drake, Stephanie Brown, Cassandra Cain, or Damian Wayne yet.
Dick Grayson left on extremely bad terms with Batman in a similar way to in the animated series episode "Old Wounds"
Jason Todd gets lured into a circus, similar to Titans, and is killed on live television by The Joker, similar to Earth-27.
Huntress left Bruce, due to the trauma of Jason Todd's death, since they were dating at the time, similar to Earth 27.
Barbara Gordon got shot in the spine and raped by The Joker, like in The Killing Joke storyline, it happened shortly before Jason got killed. Barbara doesn't become Oracle until a few months after the events of the first movie.
Batwoman is a cousin of Batman, and Bruce is aware of her activities.
This would be subtly mentioned in my version, and Dick leaving and Jason's death are a few additional reasons why Bruce acts like an edgelord and doesn't have that playboy persona anymore (at least until the sequels)
Batman, before the events of this film, has already fought The Joker, Killer Croc, Harley Quinn, Killer Moth, Deadshot, Poison Ivy and Ra's Al Ghul. There would be newspaper clippings that mention these off-screen encounters.
The Joker deleted scene is added in my version, to establish that he exists in this universe, if the post-credit scenes didn't do it already.
Metropolis and Queen Industries are mentioned during Bruce's meeting with Falcone. Setting up the larger DC Universe, in the future.
I would place emphasis that Batman is struggling to make change in Gotham on his own, without his sidekicks to assist him, he only has Alfred, Catwoman and Gordon to rely on, since Dick, Barbara, and Helena, have left on bad terms or to do their own thing in neighboring cities, and Jason is deceased (for now).
That also explains why Batman calls himself "Vengeance". He's on his own with barely anyone to help him, just like how he was when his parents died. (Aside from Alfred)
Bruce's utility belt gets blown up during the final battle. Which sets up him getting a more comic accurate one, in the future.
However, he still uses the adrenaline injection, and I'd later tie that to Bane and his venom formula, in a future movie as a prototype.

Superman: The Man Of Steel

The Plot Act-1: I’d heavily change the opening, develop Zod more, and make a cleaner Krypton that actually has crystals covering the planet, just like in the comics and in Superman (1978)
(I'd replace General Zod with Metallo as the antagonist, because Zod has already appeared in Superman ll and Smallville, by 2013, so I'd use a new villain that never appeared on the big screen in Metallo, who only appeared on Smallville with a small budget and we never fully saw his robotic form. I'd save General Zod for the third movie)
We see a small meteor found in the ocean, near Metropolis, by Lex Luthor, with a glowing green substance.
We flashback to many years ago, Kal-El is born, they name him. We cut to General Zod who is sitting in his home alone, having violent flashbacks of robotic creatures with symbols on their foreheads attacking krypton, killing people, even Zod’s family, the flashbacks are brief, but just enough to see the Kryptonian council surrender to their attacker, a dome encloses over Kandor and make it disappear, but a pod flies away as Kandor disappears.
(That will set up Supergirl in Chapter 2, and Brainiac fighting Superman eventually)
Dru-Zod is haunted and angry about this traumatic event that happened ago. Jor-El is studying problems in the planet’s core, but their computers say everything is fine. Jor-El asks Zod to come with him to check a fault line, as a scientist needs to be accompanied by a soldier when going to the outer lands, to access military equipment or whatever, just as a soldier needs authorization by a scientist to access scientific equipment.
They talk, it’s clear they’re friends, Jor-El tells Zod about his son, happy for him. Suddenly a violent earthquake erupts, causing Jor-El to quickly check his readings. They’re off the charts. Jor-El and Zod quickly rushes back to his lab to check his main computers, which are all reading things as fine, he digs deeper into the programming and finds the same symbol that was on the robotic creatures head embedded into the computers programming, corrupting it.
Jor-El is horrified, Zod is furious, yelling about how that thing destroyed their families, their brightest city, and now it’s destroyed them, Zod blames the council for bowing to the thing and proclaims them weak. Jor-El warns the council, as Zod rallies any soldiers loyal to him to save their world while they still can, he does so easily, they attack the council headquarters and take them out, Zod finds Jor-El, and asks him to help him save their world through allowing access to The Codex.
The Codex is a computer chip, essentially it’s the brain, it has info on everything, from the genetic code from which all kryptonian children are created, to the entire history of Krypton and all its knowledge, and the how to build and operate a terraforming device called the World Engine, as such a thing has been illegal for a long time due to it requiring a planet with an already habitable environment and thus life.
(Brainiac would get the information about how to build and use The World Engine in a sequel)
Jor-El refuses Zod, saying he will not allow Zod to destroy an entire race. Jor-El escapes, accesses the codex, steals it and goes to Lara, telling her they have to leave. Jor-El has set a warning for the planet to give them time to escape, but doubts they’ll be able to as a military security system destroys any ship entering or leaving krypton, but Jor-El has a plan:
A space probe, small enough to sneak past the security systems, but big enough to carry maybe one person, or one person and a baby. The probe was designed to send robotic drones to other planets and test the planet’s atmosphere and environment. He sends Lara and Kal-El to the probe, and she goes, begrudgingly, as Jor-El gives her the codex and a special command key for the probe that will guide them when they get to earth, telling her he has to distract Zod’s men to keep them from the probe.
Lara is wounded fatally, from a plasma shot by one of Brainiac's drones, but she gets into the probe with Kal-El and takes off. She hides the codex in the main engine of the probe just before this happens.
Zod captures Jor-El, and sees the probe doing that teleporting thing, he puts two and two together and takes Jor-El prisoner, gets on a large ship with his army, and shuts down the security systems, so he can track the ion trail or whatever science mumbo jumbo before it dissipates.
Jor-El, though, has thought ahead, and damaged the teleportation device thing, making it so it would trap them in the “phantom zone” between the teleportation destinations, giving the trail time to dissipate so they can’t track it.
General Zod, Faora and Nam-Ek are all caught in the vortex, and sent to The Phantom Zone, by the teleportation device.
(General Zod and Faora will return in a future sequel)
Jor-El closes his eyes as he is caught in the planet destroying explosion, as we see Krypton blown to smithereens, as a green remnant goes through a radiation storm and crashes in The Atlantic Ocean. As we cut to Earth, where the probe crashes in Kansas at night, near a farm in winter, Jonathan and Martha come out. Lara, barely alive, opens the probe, by pulling the command key out, and they find her, Jonathan tries to save her, but she dies, her last words before passing away are asking them to protect her son.
Jonathan and Martha lie to a friend of theirs in the hospital by telling them that the baby had been left on their doorstep and asking him to write down that Martha had given birth to the baby over the winter, during a recent snowstorm.
Meanwhile, Clark Kent hitchhikes across Metropolis and starts working odd jobs, researching extraterrestrial sightings, and secretly using his powers to help people in need, which results in him having to hit the road again. Clark Kent starts developing journalistic skills as he talks to people and gathers information in his quest to figure out where he came from.
We flashback to Clark Kent's backstory, with Clark's parents trying to raise him right and help him control his powers. In the scene where Clark Kent asks his father in the original movie, which is "Should I have just let those kids on the bus die?".
Jonathan Kent tells Clark, no, and that he did the right thing, but he shouldn't expose his powers too much. During the scene, these flashbacks show that Jonathan Kent wants to keep his son Clark safe, but what kind of father would he be if he didn't encourage his son to do the right thing, even when it is hard?
Jonathan Kent is inspired by his son's selflessness and rushes in to help a lady that is about to be run over, and he succeeds, but the excitement and fear cause him to have a heart attack. Jonathan Kent gets rushed to the hospital by Martha Kent and Clark, but he dies. Years later, Martha says goodbye to Clark as he's moving to Metropolis.
Back in the present, Clark Kent goes to a bar to eat some food, but when he eats, Clark notices a drunk and rude Truck Driver harassing a female waitress.
Clark Kent hesitates a bit, but he notices no one else is stopping it, so he decides to do something about the situation. As the drunk and rude trucker is about to grab the woman inappropriately again, Clark Kent grabs his arm and he angrily tells him to leave the girl alone, which surprises the truck driver and makes him a bit scared.
However, Clark notices that his strength is hurting the man's arm, and in order to not expose his powers in front of people watching, he lets his hand go to show A bit of restraint, but Clark pushes his own to the floor, so he doesn't attack him. The truck driver gets back up from the floor and attempts to punch Clark, but Clark dodges the punch before he can be hit.
A few police officers notice the fight happen, and they decide to arrest the drunk trucker for intoxication and attempted assault against Clark Kent. Clark Kent gets thanked by the waitress for standing up for her, but Clark decides to head out to avoid any suspicions.
(The waitress will later be revealed as Lucy Lane, the younger sister of Lois Lane)
Clark decides to go downtown in Metropolis to apply for a better job. He drives there and we get shots of Metropolis. The design of Metropolis, in my rewrite, strongly resembles the version from Superman Returns.
Act 2: Later, after seeing The Daily Planet building, Clark decides to apply for a job there, and he succeeds, and this is where he first meets Lois Lane, Jimmy Olsen, Chloe Sullivan and Perry White.
Jimmy Olsen is the new kid in The Daily Planet, fresh out of college, and he becomes fast friends with Lois and Clark.
Perry White is the very stern Editor-in-Chief of the Metropolis newspaper the Daily Planet. He is Clark's boss. (I would still cast Lawrence Fishbourne)
Chloe Sullivan is witty, feisty, and cheeky reporter of The Daily Planet. She is Lois's close friend and she vaguely was acquaintances with Clark, back in his Smallville days.
Clark and Lois hit it off, despite their bickering at first, and they even agree on a date, a few weeks later. Clark and Lois interview Lex Luthor, about LEXCORP's new achievements in cybernetics. During the interview, Lex makes some unwanted advances towards Lois, which irritates Clark but he keeps his cool and stays professional.
(That is a creepy politician metaphor, kinda like a certain president from 2016, who has sexual assault allegations from at least 5 women)
Clark decides to help people publicly as Superman, as he pulls out the old black suit that Martha had made for him. After work, Clark hears an explosion, he walks as Clark rips his shirt to reveal his (Silver) Superman symbol.
After that, then John Willlams score starts as we see a montage of Clark helping people from life threatening situations and stopping robberies, as the reports of a guy flying in a gray cape stopping crime is flooding in. However, it's not entirely confirmed by the public, so some cynical people in Metropolis say it was an urban legend of some "Superman".
It's during one of these robbery encounters that Clark fought a former marine, John Corben, though his own machine gun's bullets bounced off Superman, and they ricocheted back at Corben and he's paralyzed and his body was mutilated beyond repair. A regretful Superman jumps him to a hospital, near The LEXCORP Building, (We'll get back to that later)
Later, Lois is involved in a helicopter mishap. Clark publicly uses his powers for the first time to jump high enough to catch Lois Lane falling off the damaged helicopter, as it explodes, near 'The LEXCORP tower, astonishing the crowd gathered below. Very similar to the 1978 film.
Superman is now publicly recognized, but not everyone is welcoming of this, some seeing him as dangerous for having this much power. Lex Luthor was quick to become an enemy of Superman when he accused the hero of being an alien threat to humanity. Lex also did research on the meteor that crashed, and he found out that it is deadly to Superman, Lex dubbed the green radioactive substance, "Kryptonite".
The Daily Planet was the only newspaper in existence to portray him in a positive light, with his first recorded photograph being taken by Jimmy Olsen.
Lex, along with Mercy Graves, plans to kill Superman, before he can interfere with LEXCORP and he sees Superman as a threat, due to his alien origin. It's basically Batman's motive for being against Superman in Batman Vs Superman, but pasted onto Lex Luthor, instead. Eve Teschmacher doesn't see what is wrong with Superman. She's very reminiscent of her counterpart in the 1978 film. Meanwhile, Lex Luthor goes to pay a visit to John Corben, in the hospital, after he heard the new story of his encounter with Superman.
John, by this point, is a man that was screwed over by Superman (inadvertently) and Lex made a deal with Corben that if he killed Superman, he'd get millions after the U.S. Government screwed him out of getting benefits after years of being in the marines. Feeling that he had nothing to lose, Corben agreed to the cybernetic enhancements.
LEXCORP scientists transfer his mind into an indestructible android body made of titanium alloys and powered by a Kryptonite heart. Upon the completion, Corben's android body was covered with a layer of artificial skin, which, aside from a rectangular seam which could expose his Kryptonite heart, allowed him to pass himself off as his original body.
Lex Luthor orders Metallo to cause destruction and collateral damage around Metropolis, to catch the attention of Superman. Reluctantly, Metallo rips off his human skin, revealing his robotic body from underneath.
Act-3: We see Metallo decimate Metropolis with his kryptonite powered weapons. The Military is sent in to neutralize Metallo. However, none of the machine gun rounds from the soldiers can pierce Corben's android body. Meanwhile, Clark hears a psychic call and he discovers a glowing blue crystal from the remains of his spacecraft that he keeps around. It compels Superman to fly to the Arctic where he uses the blue crystal to find The Fortress of Solitude, which strongly resembles the architecture and design of Krypton.
Inside, a hologram of Jor-El explains Clark's true origins, and after educating him on his reason for being sent to Earth and his powers, and he says to Clark,
"The people of Earth are different from us, it's true, but ultimately, I believe that is a good thing. They won't necessarily make the same mistakes we did, but if you guide them, Kal, if you give them hope. That's what this symbol means. The symbol of the House of El means "Hope". Embodied within that hope is the fundamental belief in the potential of every person to be a force for good. That's what you can bring them. They will race behind you. They will stumble. They will fall. But in time, they will join you in the Sun, Kal. In time, you will help them accomplish wonders."
Clark leaves the Fortress wearing a blue and red suit with a red cape and the House of El family crest emblazoned on his chest. It's basically the classic Superman outfit.
After seeing news coverage of Metropolis getting decimated, Clark decides to learn how to fly to save everyone, and it's the same exact scene from Man Of Steel, except when Clark does fly, The John Williams Superman Theme plays in the background instead. When Superman arrives in Metropolis, he evacuates civilians out of the city. (Because that's what Superman is supposed to be written as)
Meanwhile, Lois is about to get shot and killed by Metallo's plasma cannon, especially since she was too close to Lex's operations, as a reporter, but Superman swoops in and punches Metallo, sending the cyborg crashing into a Wayne Enterprises Building. (That's hinting at a Batman crossover)
After Superman saves her life, Lois grabs a nearby AK 47, on the pavement and evacuates Jimmy, Chloe, and Perry out of the city to be safe from all the chaos and collateral damage that Metallo is causing. Superman and Metallo have a brawl across Metropolis.
Metallo activates his kryptonite blaster and Superman is shot in the chest with it, weakening him and sending Clark crashing into a car, destroying it on impact.
Metallo absolutely bodies Clark in his weakened state. Corben is a master martial artist during his time with The Marines, and Superman is reliant on his abilities. Metallo beats down on Superman.
Metallo fires a missile at Superman, but using his reaction time, Clark turns the missile right back at Metallo, and the explosion blows a huge chunk in the torso of Metallo's cybernetic body.
Superman flies away from Metallo, momentarily for extra sunlight, to nullify the effects of the kryptonite, but Metallo has thrusters that allow him to fly at supersonic speeds.
The two engage in an aerial fight, but Superman grabs Metallo by his robotic skull and throws him into The LEXCORP Tower, tearing a hole through the skyscraper.
Superman and Metallo continue fighting in the LEXCORP Tower. When they are in close quarters, Superman freezes one of Metallo's arms and blows it up with his heat vision, knocking Metallo backwards, losing his right arm in the process.
When Metallo rushes towards Superman, Clark, in slow motion, sees an exposed chunk of wiring on the side of Metallo's torso, fires his heat vision and Metallo explodes and he is left a fiery mess, and Metallo shuts down.
Lois does find and confront Lex, thanks to Eve Teschmacher, the intern, next to Lex screams "She's got a gun!!" as Lois shoots Lex in the left arm.
When Superman arrives, Lex explains that they cannot arrest him, since he already covered the Metallo incident up, so Superman leaves with Lois, and flies away, vowing to put Luthor away in prison, one day.
Superman reveals his identity to Lois, and they still stay together as the two kiss, as the camera pans out to see the ravaged Metropolis. News Coverage, the papers and social media posts around the globe publish that Superman saves Metropolis from Metallo's terrorist attack and is a beacon of hope, just when it looked like Metropolis was about to be wiped off the map. Meanwhile, Metallo is sent back to LEXCORP and Lex repairs Corben and keeps him in a room, for something darker and nefarious…
(That is set up for The Legion Of Doom for a future Justice League sequel, especially since Steppenwolf is the villain for my rewrite of the first Justice League film)
The film ends with Superman and Lois being on their date that they promised each other, and after the date is over, Clark hears a crime, Lois kisses him and Clark suits up as Superman and flies off, with the John Willlams theme playing in the background, as the credits roll.
Post Credit Scenes: In the Batcave, Batman is watching a live video of Superman's fight with Metallo, setting up their meeting in World's Finest.
A giant skull-ship with tentacles orbits Saturn, and inside, the computer coldly states, "Kryptonian detected" and a green humanoid alien in silver armor, with his eyes glowing pink, states "Target Acquired" and smiles sinisterly.
This will set up Brainiac as a villain for a future Superman sequel, right after The Justice League.

The Batman 2: Heart Of Ice:

The Plot Act 1: The Batman 2 takes place during Christmas, and a year after the first movie. The opening scene is a flashback montage of Victor Fries and Nora falling in love and would end with the doctor saying she has cancer.
After this revelation, Victor developed a special cryogenic cell and planned to cryogenically hold Nora in there, to keep her alive, until a cure was found. However, Fries had been misappropriating GothCorp's money, which left the company in debt and the experiment unauthorized.
Fries was interrupted by GothCorp's CEO Ferris Boyle and a fight ensued and Fries grabbed a handgun, pointing it at Boyle and the security guards. Fries was then calmly ordered by Boyle to drop the gun, reasoning that it was not his nature to resort to violence and that a possibility may have existed to legitimately bankroll Nora's experiment.
Boyle's smooth talk got to Victor as he relaxed and let down his guard, allowing the deceitful CEO to kick the scientist into a lab table full of beakers which exploded. The explosion smashed him into his cryogenic freezing tanks and the accident soaked his entire body with the freezing solution and rendered him unable to survive outside of a sub-zero environment.
In the present day, Bruce Wayne has been trying to help and go out in public more and has his playboy personality, to help Gotham City recover from the flood that The Riddler caused in the previous movie. Ferris Boyle would be one of the head leaders for Gotham's rebuilding, even after the flood being frozen solid. However, it's another lie and secretly, Boyle is secretly taking money supposed to rebuild Gotham into his own bank account.
We have an opening action sequence of Batman fighting Killer-Croc, in the flooded waters of Gotham City, in the sewers. It's very similar to Bruce's fight with Killer Croc in Arkham Origins video game, where Batman uses his electrical gauntlets to wail on Croc, knocking him out and Bruce leaves Killer Croc for the cops.
After that, we see Batman as Bruce Wayne attending a charity event for Gotham's reconstruction, after the flood. It's led by Ferris Boyle. However, the door is busted down, thugs begin aiming their guns and an armored figure with glowing red eyes slowly walks towards Boyle, as Mister Freeze is introduced and he attacks The Charity Event, and tries to get the diamonds in the area and kidnap Boyle. He begins freezing people with his Freeze-Gun.
Taking advantage of the chaos, Bruce disappears into the panicked crowd and suits up as Batman, and he jumps out and kicks Mister Freeze, directly in his glass dome, cracking it. Due to his limited mobility in his armor, Freeze struggles against Batman, as Bruce continues landing several blows on him. However, Freeze gets Batman off of him and freezes Batman's feet to the floor with his Freeze-Rifle.
Mister Freeze steals the diamond and kidnaps Boyle. Victor takes Boyle to his hideout where he freezes his body. Boyle had caused his body to turn a bluish blue and for him to feel like he's constantly burning and his only comfort is his suit which cools him down. We now cut to Gordon and Batman investigating the crime scene.
Mister Freeze is using the diamonds to power his armor to find a cure for Nora who is permanently frozen. We have a similar scene to the animated series to show Freeze's lack of empathy and cold demeanor towards his goons.
Freeze has also been targeting executives of Ferris Boyle. Which leads to an action sequence in the frozen waters in Gotham City, where Freeze is surrounded by the executives, who all carry assault rifles. Mister Freeze kills them all by smashing the ice and freezing them underneath the frozen water, causing them to drown.
Finally, Batman figures out who Victor Fries is, through some research on The Batcomputer and which bank he's gonna rob next and chases after him with The Batmobile. However, Mister Freeze freezes the vehicle causing Batman to lose him.
Act-2: After his loss to Mister Freeze, Batman goes to The Iceberg Lounge to get some answers and information on Freeze but instead of getting met by The Penguin, it's two super strong thugs who are Tweedledee and Tweedledum.
Batman fights the duo, but he gets overpowered and just when Batman is cornered and about to be beaten to death, Catwoman jumps behind Tweedledum and kicks him in the head and says playfully to Batman,
"I figured you'd be here".
Together, Bruce and Selena knock out both Tweedledee and Tweedledum in a bloody fist fight. After dealing with those two, Bruce and Selina get to Penguin, who does actually have information this time as he is doing a weapons deal with Freeze where he'll trade for this new freeze tech.
Batman attacks The Freeze Thugs, alongside Catwoman. These thugs have less advanced versions of Freeze's gun and interrogate one and figuring out Freeze's hideout and his motivation for his crimes. After they are subdued, Batman and Catwoman go to Mister Freeze's hideout taking out his goons stealthily and finding Freeze looking at his wife in the tube.
Batman sympathizes with Freeze and tries to convince him that he'll help Freeze with his wife and that he doesn't need to steal diamonds and shatter Boyle, who has been frozen all this time. Freeze doesn't care and doesn't trust Batman because Boyle lied to him in a similar way. They battle for a while, with Freeze having an upgraded version of his armor for better mobility.
Mister Freeze catches one of Batman's kicks and throws him aside into one of his ice structures, shattering it to pieces.
As Batman is in a fist fight with Freeze, Bruce begins to freeze up, because his main suit is not built for this low temperature environment, as Mister Freeze pulverizes Batman with a fury of punches, which breaks his cowl.
Catwoman tries to slice into Freeze's armor with her claws, but Freeze shoots her in the neck, causing Selena to suffocate.
(As for the effects of The Freeze-Rifle, The freezing itself doesn't actually kill you but it's the hypothermia that ensues that does it)
Batman breaks the ice and stealthily retreats with a wounded and suffocating Catwoman, back to The Batcave.
Act-3: After this, Batman quickly gets out of his armor and shatters the ice around Selina's neck. During Catwoman's recovery, Bruce reveals his identity to her and the two make out and get into an official relationship. Bruce and Selina come up with a plan to stop Freeze and find some way to cure his wife. His original suit is too damaged and they don't have time to repair it, as Freeze plans to storm GothCorp and steal all their latest technologies to help Nora.
Lucius Fox and his son, Luke, create Batman's new extreme environment suit created to stop Freeze specifically. The Extreme Environment Suit is armed with Thermo Charged Batarangs. Batman with his new XE suit will find Freeze and they battle.
All of Freeze's blasts from his Freeze-Rifle do nothing as they melt quickly on Batman's XE suit.
Batman bombards Mister Freeze with explosives and blasts from his Thermo Charged Batarangs, which ends up weakening Mister Freeze.
Batman punches Freeze across the room.
Catwoman fights off Freeze's thugs. It's a similar action sequence to Black Widow's hallway fight with Whiplash's thugs in Iron Man 2.
Batman reasons with Mister Freeze, to turn himself in for the sake of his wife, Nora, and Victor agrees and surrenders to The GCPD. Mister Freeze is put away in Arkham Asylum, in an extremely cold cell. The movie ends with Wayne Enterprises announcing that they are working on a cure for cancer, and they are almost there, as Victor cries with happiness, as the film ends on a hopeful note.
Post Credit Scenes: We see a dark haired woman, looking at photos of Batman and Superman's past sightings and footage of their battles with past supervillains, including Batman's final battle with Mister Freeze.
She says "The Silver Age of Heroes is happening, huh." As we zoom in on her amazonian armor, tiara, and lasso, hung up in her penthouse. As we hear the Hanns Zimmer Wonder Woman Theme quietly plays in the background, as it cuts to black…
(Yep, it's a small glimpse at Wonder Woman)
Tweedledee and Tweedledum are in the streets of Gotham, and they are suddenly hypnotized by a mysterious man. That will set up Mad Hatter for a future Batman film.

Not a question tho, but I'm seriously pissed. Also, please excuse my writing, english is not my first language.
Long story short, I changed my name legally in 2018. Got married it 2021 so I also changed my last name. My mom's part of my family is totally cool with it and they don't deadname me, at least if it happens, they instantly correct themselves. My grandfather from my dad's side tho also STILL sends me letters to my full deadname (haha, I married a woman and took her last name, how do I dare?!). I get the letters because the address is correct (Street/NumbeDoor number etc) but I never replied - I think it's pretty clear why.
Also I don't talk to my dad's part of the family anymore - My dad's also totally right wing and so are they. Suddenly my grandfather starts to annoy my gran (mom side) that I don't reply and this gets him very sad.
She told him instantly that I maybe didn't recieve his letters because he send them to a person which technically doesn't exist anymore. So I talked to her and sent him a letter with my full (official and changed) name, asking how he's doing etc (he was actually the only person from my dad's family part I still talked to because it was never about politics and he never disrespected me etc, only the name thing). Yet I got a letter back - Still deadname. Didn't even open it and sent it back, asking the people at the post office to state it as "not possible to deliver" - Now he's annoying my granny again because everything was right about the letter - Why did he get his own back? Like he's not having memory issues or anything - He just doesn't wanna accept my name change.
Seriously considering to mail him one last time like "either way you accept it or I don't want any more letters from you" and yes, I am pissed. Really pissed.

I’m currently on Day 6 of this medication (37.5mg SR) and finally starting to see the end of the initial side affects which have been nothing short of brutal.
When starting Effexor I had little/no anxiety at the time but have had it at other times over the last few months, so this is supposed to help keep things more manageable when they get bad.
The doc who prescribed it failed to mention how rough the first few days are on Effexor (like wtf?!). To my surprise I went from being calm and having almost no stress levels to sky high anxiety in 48 hours with a good bout of nausea added in as well.
I probably would have stopped taking Effexor if it wasn’t for diazepam taking the edge off what was crippling anxiety on Days 3 & 4.
Day 5 had a lessor amount of anxiety in the morning and various times during the day. For the most part I could function at a low level and wasn’t consumed by anxiety.
Day 6 had a manageable level of anxiety in the morning which didn’t need any diazepam and then the rest of the day was normal.
My word of warning if you’re starting on this drug is have some diazepam on standby in case you need it! For me it was a lifesaver.

Hi. Sorry if i make a mistake,or offend someone that is not my goal and english is not my main language.
Right now, i live in a situation that i can't go to therapist or even can't try to treat my self in the near future. But i just need to know that i might do something about it later in life. So i am in need of external affirmation about possibility of treating myself in the future so i can stop this worry feeling in me and study for an important exam coming in two months.

I'm going to write my problems and some possible causes, hoping somebody knows it or had it and solved, so can help me identify this.

First, you should know i was always like this^{and probably got some of them from my mother} and realized these by reading online. But i still don't want to and trying not to misdiagnose my self somewhat on the way. I am not sure how should i start but here i go:
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1. Blank and/or empty mind. Aphantasia, No stream of thoughts or internal monologue and very Bad Memory. Like very bad. I am going to i will mention these later.
2. Anhedonia? As i said, i learnt these by reading online but somewhat realising this now is kind of scary. But i don't think i actually had fun all of my life. If i really know what is it.
3. Emotional Numbness. As an addition to anhedonia, I dont think i feel or felt much emotions all of my life. Maybe except stress,fear,boredom and not feeling bored.
4. I am empty inside. So possibly having No self image and No self-esteem concept. Now i am not sure should i write this or that is this even possible but because of blank mind or whatever: maybe i have it but i'm not connected to it? I'm not sure of this one but i know that i have problemed self esteem,but i don't actually know why?
5. Talking about not knowing why; Constant Stress or Anxiety. I *think***^? i have general and social anxiety b ut i don't really know why. I probably fear of something might happen like normal people, but i dont have thoughts like "what if that happens then" or "what if she think me like that" etc. Except one thing. I have one life,what if i die without living it fullfilling enouh*.*But all of that is just a feeling for me ? I think normal brain probably gives answer to these questions^{that i dont get like actually question thoughts?} rationally or already have but i cant think because of blank mind or not being me, and/or can't remember it for years becase of bad memory ?
6. Getting to the end of important problems; Auto-Pilot like feeling^? when interacting with others.

Well, i should start by explaining this; there is kind of me inside me ? that can't think etc. Me when i'm like that is actually intellectual and ethical but is like ,being held down by the situation he is in. When i am like that i can only think^? by imagining it in the future.
I might have aphantasia but i am a big daydreamer since ever, and i think my imagination is doing something in future in physical form,or having know what is something in its actual form instead of mental imagery.
So i realized i always think by imagining saying things in future settings instead of what i should think. Like a talking to talkshow,to a friend to emptiness, to something. But that imagine saying something is done by outside me which has limited capabilities.
Outside me, is when others interact me or vice versa. Like i said in 6. i go to a auto-pilot like thing when i interact with others, when i'm like that inside me nearly completetly goes away, and i start to act.
This not something like DID, but i realize what i did in the end. And still, dont get me wrong, i'm still me and i know and see and do? while doing it but i cant completely control myself,i kinda act like what others want to not get things bad or complicated, or to blend in automaticly.
I realized that i even developed a kind of reflex. When someone act someways, like laugh, even i am not in a social situation directly. And all these things are bad because i don't actually want to be like this. But i can't control it. I say i will when day starts but in the i cant control and go tell i joke i didnt really want when opportunity comes. Then kinda feel bad.
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This is it generally. I realized these not long ago and i am still looking for some answers. I searched on the reddit, internet, ^{because as i sad i cant to go a professional for a time}, typed my symptoms i saw on on the net to chatgpt etc.
And in the end,with some other reasons i did not tell yet, i might have adhd,dpdr. OR other kinds of neuroal problems ? But i reserched the disorders above there is some problem.
Let's say i have ADHD-C. Because I relate to a lot of symptoms i read. Also because of i probably got some of these things by my mother, Who might miight have ADHD-PI. I look up on the internet and not a lot of people have diagnosed with adhd have these things i say if i saw right. Instead i think generally does not shut up etc. Or not exactly have no sense of self,aphantasia or anhedona since all of their life.
I know adhd is a not a fixed, one thing applies to all others kind of disorder. But i can't see someone relating to me So i still think i might have it. I relate to a lot of symptoms. Like rocking back and forth,nd talking patterns etc, but it might not the cause of these problems.
So, Let's say i have DPDR.I saw people relating to my problems but i dont relate to dpdr symptoms a lot. And again if i got it right, people who have dpdr have it like episodic oand have it by starting with some known cause like weed/trauma etc. i had my problems all my life.
About dpdr symptoms and not relating to it; if i have dpdr, i probably have depersonalization, but i still don't relate some said symptoms as: Warped sense of time and space, sense of disconnection like 3rd person view or feeling like watching your life on tv, visiual snow etc. Instead everythink is 4k and real. I feel not aware of it when i am interacting with others though. Or when i image think i start to constantly move around, get up from my chair and contantly switch rooms, and i realize when its over. or stop imagining for a moment and realize and continue imagining.
This it for now. If you have questions, i will try to answer it when i see. If you can help, thank you. And below this i will info dump some things that might help.

1. I'm 18 y/o boy, living in a not a good country oand not a good place, not usa or europe or asia
2. i still live with my parents who i dont like and is actually abusive and ignorant. but i have plans for long term for getting my life good i hope.
3. i dont remeber my childhood except max 20 memories but i dont remember a trauma either.
4. i live to my parents religion even if my religion is different.
5. i dont remember single affectionate moment in my life with my parents, mother, or anyone,so i might have emotional problems because of that but/and/or i started rejecting incoming affection from my parents some time on my life.

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So really in the end. I just want a wholesome, good life lived with hopefully my future partner that compatible with me and die together. But to find her and to actually be able to live things i need to be a human again or the first time so if you help me thanks!!

There is absolutely no wondering, pondering or questioning wether I am my true Self, it is not even a consideration.
Discovering new parts is an absolute joy.
Unconditional love is a natural quality and the love towards all my parts is palpable.
Parts can sense this and are usually very relieved that I have found them, relax in my presence and re-integration is easy.
There is no need to seek externally to others for advice or guidance - I know intuitively what to do and what is best for me in all situations.
I have no extreme aversion or attraction towards people or things.
My inner environment is predominantly silent, spacious and comfortable.
The body is recognised as a part of me and is looked after and loved deeply, I have found myself experiencing sadness at how I have treated it for many years.
I feel satisfied, joyous and fulfilled.
Emotions are accepted as part of the human experience and are not repressed or denied nor are they extreme in nature.
There is little to no polarisation or opinion but there is still preference.
There is a deep knowing that growth is a never ending process and that I am no where near finished, nor could I ever be.
Thats my experience of my true nature after five years of exploring my true nature and parts without a therapist, I hope this might help/inspire someone and feel free to ask any questions!
Thanks for reading.

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