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2023.03.25 01:52 JoffreySkywalker The Virtue of Avarice: A rebuttal to stand against a compilation of rage levied at Hasan. "I just think it's funny that Hasan....", "I think it's hilarious that Hasan....", "I mean it's kind of funny Hasan...."
TLDR: Is it "funny" to buy a big house while being a socialist or bad? I don't think it's really either. Hasan may have bad beliefs, but he's been the subject of some misplaced criticism. Socialism is a broad set of government economic policies. I'm not sure why you should be able to tell the difference between a capitalist and a socialist.
Hasan's sordid history from a simple DGGR trying to make his way in the universe to the socialist IKON and AOC Stan making it big on his own is a long road paved with debates, debacles, re-streamed reality TV shows, and a never dwindling clamor of "living your values discourse." He is featured in several noted DGG debates/discussions such as this one featuring my favorite orbiter Exskillsme and noted Poppy farmer Vowsh,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjszEJBKWRs&list=PL4uIWBpZZ6zci9mM3Gh18NJRXTDx9MGVi&index=6
and this gem referencing the infamous racial slur debate and a variety of complaints about this very subreddit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctAsIoNJmlw.
But this is not a recap of the deeds great and small of Hasan, Titan of Twitch. This is specifically in regards to the classic "live your values debate," the most infamous of which features Vaush and Destiny battling it out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gteClaD9GKc
In regards to Hasan, the live your values discourse hit its apex when he purchased an expensive house. Destiny's general perspective on the matter is summarized here,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYYE76D7B0U with the most critical general perspective at
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=196
wherein he explains what he considers to be an important spectrum between a slave and a sellout un der a capitalist system. A brief recap is as follows. Destiny states that there is a spectrum between the bottom tier of society barely making it by, someone doing pretty aright but not great, and the top of the pyramid i.e. Hasan. Different expectations to advocate for that persons values should fall in part based on where on that spectrum people reside in with people at the top end having more expectations placed upon them.
A less analytical but perhaps more telling version is at
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=252
In this clip Destiny describes a paradigm that it is "hilarious" to criticize Jeff Bezos hyperbolically as bad while partnering with him to produce content. The terms "hilarious" and "funny" are used very often instead of words like "bad" or "hypocritical," which I think is a "humorous" observation.
This is one of several iterations of Destiny describing Hasan's house purchase as a wealthy socialist as "funny"
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=452
and "funny" again here
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ulBkFt3nI8
These are two examples, but they are generally reflective of the language Destiny usually uses. Intelligent DGGR's languishing in the low of solipsism this Friday night may wonder why the words "funny" and "hilarious" might be used instead of "bad." It seems that "badness" is being heavily inferred, but not directly stated. Even in the more analytical take above, it's somewhat unclear if there is some sense of "moral obligation," implied or why exactly it would be applied to socialists. One could infer that one has a moral obligation to do "x amount of something," to cause there ideal world to exist or some policy to "happen," and if a person has x level of wealth, power, or influence and they don't do something to produce their ideal world or policy prescriptions they are doing something unethical.
The back and forth on this discourse has been had innumerable number of times, but since it's resurfaced, I believe for the exoneration of Hasan at least in this small regard, it is worth going over again.
So let's get the obvious points out of the way. Being socialist and being rich isn't a hypacricy. To make this argument, I need to make a couple of assumptions and build a couple key arguments.
1.) That Hasan would say he's a rule utilitarian (I think he's even said as much). Why do I make this assumption? Because everyone who isn't a cringe philosophy major whose been on this side of the internet is some sort of rule utilitarian. It's hard to be something else. Basically, that means you are concerned with the good outcomes of society but you understand rules need to exist in normal life because it's hard to see what the consequences of something might be and allowing too much discretion may be bad in aggregate. People need some basic rules. To see what happens when one is forced to guess too many consequences you can end up with a situation featured in the excellent television series The Good Place wherein characters are constantly performing evil actions inadvertently because they can't anticipate that driving the speed limit might have caused the person behind them to be late for a job interview which led to that person becoming impoverished, homeless, and die an early death of exposure.
2.) That Hasan (if pressed) would agree that capitalism isn't """"""inherently unethical,"""" but rather just produces worse outcomes than socialism. In other words it's just a spectrum of bad to ok to better outcomes. For reference this is the Vaush position. If pressed on the "no unethical consumption" meme, the answer is that bad outcomes might necessarily happen under any system. The goal is just to mitigate them with socialist policies that produce "more good points" and "fewer bad points." The phrase "inherintly unethical" is a phrase that ends up doing a lot of legwork in debates, but doesn't really make a meaningful statement when applied in this context. To draw a comparison, I could believe that any prison system will involve treatment of prisoners that I believe is unethical. However, I consider it a net good compared to no prison system (thus my participation funding society it is justified). I can also believe we should have a better prison system or a very different one. It's not inconsistent.
If all of 2 is granted (a big if for maximum salience DGGR's), I don't think it's fair to criticize Hasan on the grounds of involving himself in capitalism to a high extent. The more apt argument might be the one Ahrelavant goes for with Vowsh here.
https://youtu.be/LUvqIX8w_QA?t=537
This is more similar to Destiny's argument i.e. an obligation to "walk" rather than just "talk" given you have certain values. I think Vaush responds correctly. Hasan's job is as a political pundit. The talk is the walk. Advocating for socialism makes people more progressive. People who are more progressive vote more left leaning. That's a positive change in society in line with Hasan's values. Destiny's response to something like this argument is that all of that benefits Hasan personally, but I fail to see how this is relevant.
If one is outcome focused primarily why is the personal reason someone is doing something that relevant to the effectiveness of what they are doing or in any other way? If pressed, I don't think Destiny would say even a tiny fraction of actions are really altruistic in nature. Hasan is an entertainer who does some socialism. I fail to see what the problem with that is. It's the basic blueprint for almost all political or commentary content. The primary job is entertainment but advocating/ arguing for what you believe in is still important. All of the same arguments could be levied at nearly every content creator who believes strongly in anything. One could make criticisms of Chud Logic for having strong beliefs (which he has argued for in the past between the drama) but not going out every weekend to volunteer and fix them. Socialism doesn't have unique issues in this regard. "It's funny" isn't a good argument. Neither is "it's hilarious."
But what about Destiny's key defeater argument? "What is the difference between a capitalist and a socialist?" How can you tell a difference? To this, I'm not sure I entirely follow. Technically savvy and economically minded DGGr's can correct me, but capitalism is a very broad term that describes a set of government policies that structure an economy in a certain way. Socialism is a different set of government policies that structure an economy in a different way. Neither of these are real technical terms, and the exact manifestations/ definitions of each are as many as there are capitalists and socialists. In general the idea of socialism is that "workers own the means of production," which could mean a lot of things like
1.) All or most industries are nationalized in some way.
2.) All of the businesses are worker co-ops
3.) Some weird giant social wealth fund thing
The best understanding in my view is that if an economy has more nationalization of its industries and state control over personal wealth, it's more socialist. When private entities have more control over different industries, and there is less state control over personal wealth (lower taxes), that's more capitalist. With that understanding you can have mixed economies. Online socialists don't seem to like this, but it's the only actual definition that makes any sense and was provided by Dr. Edward Stewart in one of those great courses audio lectures I got on audible.
https://www.audible.com/pd/Capitalism-vs-Socialism-Comparing-Economic-Systems-Audiobook/B07BHVY5YZ
I'm not sure why there would ever need to be a personal difference in behavior between a capitalist vs. Socialist when both things describe a set of beliefs about government policies? How does that make any sense at all? Capitalism isn't a personal set of actions and neither is socialism. If you want to define a capitalist the way Karl Marx did, just know that no one uses the term that way and when someone says they are a capitalist that's not what they mean. Presumably a socialist and a capitalist would vote for different candidates or argue for different policies.
To wrap this up, I think the criticisms levied at Hasan about his wealth or level of engagement with politics are unfair. I don't think political pundits have an obligation to do something extra. Being an entertaining political pundit is their job. I fail to see what's wrong with that or what is unique about Hasan that merits him having extra obligations from other similarly positioned pundits.
One parting thought is that people often give progressives a difficult time on a meta level i.e. "shouting or being radical might turn others off to your cause." Personally, I hate these sorts of arguments as they doge the facts of the matter in favor for a copy pasted lazy proxy of an argument. I hate progressives as much as the next person, but I don't think you can say they are ineffective. The fact is being loud, obnoxious, unlikeable, and working to de-platform every other point of view does kind of work. Society has gotten significantly more progressive on almost all fronts, and the GOP is in shambles. This might have horrible long term consequences for our democracy, but I'm not sure "effectiveness" is the right argument to make. You might just have a different direction you want society to go in based on different values. So one might wonder if Hasan is more "effective" than we like to admit and not hypocritical. He maybe just has bad beliefs, like other radical progressives.
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Hasan's sordid history from a simple DGGR trying to make his way in the universe to the socialist IKON and AOC Stan making it big on his own is a long road paved with debates, debacles, re-streamed reality TV shows, and a never dwindling clamor of "living your values discourse." He is featured in several noted DGG debates/discussions such as this one featuring my favorite orbiter Exskillsme and noted Poppy farmer Vowsh,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjszEJBKWRs&list=PL4uIWBpZZ6zci9mM3Gh18NJRXTDx9MGVi&index=6
and this gem referencing the infamous racial slur debate and a variety of complaints about this very subreddit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctAsIoNJmlw.
But this is not a recap of the deeds great and small of Hasan, Titan of Twitch. This is specifically in regards to the classic "live your values debate," the most infamous of which features Vaush and Destiny battling it out
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gteClaD9GKc
In regards to Hasan, the live your values discourse hit its apex when he purchased an expensive house. Destiny's general perspective on the matter is summarized here,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tYYE76D7B0U with the most critical general perspective at
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=196
wherein he explains what he considers to be an important spectrum between a slave and a sellout un der a capitalist system. A brief recap is as follows. Destiny states that there is a spectrum between the bottom tier of society barely making it by, someone doing pretty aright but not great, and the top of the pyramid i.e. Hasan. Different expectations to advocate for that persons values should fall in part based on where on that spectrum people reside in with people at the top end having more expectations placed upon them.
A less analytical but perhaps more telling version is at
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=252
In this clip Destiny describes a paradigm that it is "hilarious" to criticize Jeff Bezos hyperbolically as bad while partnering with him to produce content. The terms "hilarious" and "funny" are used very often instead of words like "bad" or "hypocritical," which I think is a "humorous" observation.
This is one of several iterations of Destiny describing Hasan's house purchase as a wealthy socialist as "funny"
https://youtu.be/tYYE76D7B0U?t=452
and "funny" again here
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ulBkFt3nI8
These are two examples, but they are generally reflective of the language Destiny usually uses. Intelligent DGGR's languishing in the low of solipsism this Friday night may wonder why the words "funny" and "hilarious" might be used instead of "bad." It seems that "badness" is being heavily inferred, but not directly stated. Even in the more analytical take above, it's somewhat unclear if there is some sense of "moral obligation," implied or why exactly it would be applied to socialists. One could infer that one has a moral obligation to do "x amount of something," to cause there ideal world to exist or some policy to "happen," and if a person has x level of wealth, power, or influence and they don't do something to produce their ideal world or policy prescriptions they are doing something unethical.
The back and forth on this discourse has been had innumerable number of times, but since it's resurfaced, I believe for the exoneration of Hasan at least in this small regard, it is worth going over again.
So let's get the obvious points out of the way. Being socialist and being rich isn't a hypacricy. To make this argument, I need to make a couple of assumptions and build a couple key arguments.
1.) That Hasan would say he's a rule utilitarian (I think he's even said as much). Why do I make this assumption? Because everyone who isn't a cringe philosophy major whose been on this side of the internet is some sort of rule utilitarian. It's hard to be something else. Basically, that means you are concerned with the good outcomes of society but you understand rules need to exist in normal life because it's hard to see what the consequences of something might be and allowing too much discretion may be bad in aggregate. People need some basic rules. To see what happens when one is forced to guess too many consequences you can end up with a situation featured in the excellent television series The Good Place wherein characters are constantly performing evil actions inadvertently because they can't anticipate that driving the speed limit might have caused the person behind them to be late for a job interview which led to that person becoming impoverished, homeless, and die an early death of exposure.
2.) That Hasan (if pressed) would agree that capitalism isn't """"""inherently unethical,"""" but rather just produces worse outcomes than socialism. In other words it's just a spectrum of bad to ok to better outcomes. For reference this is the Vaush position. If pressed on the "no unethical consumption" meme, the answer is that bad outcomes might necessarily happen under any system. The goal is just to mitigate them with socialist policies that produce "more good points" and "fewer bad points." The phrase "inherintly unethical" is a phrase that ends up doing a lot of legwork in debates, but doesn't really make a meaningful statement when applied in this context. To draw a comparison, I could believe that any prison system will involve treatment of prisoners that I believe is unethical. However, I consider it a net good compared to no prison system (thus my participation funding society it is justified). I can also believe we should have a better prison system or a very different one. It's not inconsistent.
If all of 2 is granted (a big if for maximum salience DGGR's), I don't think it's fair to criticize Hasan on the grounds of involving himself in capitalism to a high extent. The more apt argument might be the one Ahrelavant goes for with Vowsh here.
https://youtu.be/LUvqIX8w_QA?t=537
This is more similar to Destiny's argument i.e. an obligation to "walk" rather than just "talk" given you have certain values. I think Vaush responds correctly. Hasan's job is as a political pundit. The talk is the walk. Advocating for socialism makes people more progressive. People who are more progressive vote more left leaning. That's a positive change in society in line with Hasan's values. Destiny's response to something like this argument is that all of that benefits Hasan personally, but I fail to see how this is relevant.
If one is outcome focused primarily why is the personal reason someone is doing something that relevant to the effectiveness of what they are doing or in any other way? If pressed, I don't think Destiny would say even a tiny fraction of actions are really altruistic in nature. Hasan is an entertainer who does some socialism. I fail to see what the problem with that is. It's the basic blueprint for almost all political or commentary content. The primary job is entertainment but advocating/ arguing for what you believe in is still important. All of the same arguments could be levied at nearly every content creator who believes strongly in anything. One could make criticisms of Chud Logic for having strong beliefs (which he has argued for in the past between the drama) but not going out every weekend to volunteer and fix them. Socialism doesn't have unique issues in this regard. "It's funny" isn't a good argument. Neither is "it's hilarious."
But what about Destiny's key defeater argument? "What is the difference between a capitalist and a socialist?" How can you tell a difference? To this, I'm not sure I entirely follow. Technically savvy and economically minded DGGr's can correct me, but capitalism is a very broad term that describes a set of government policies that structure an economy in a certain way. Socialism is a different set of government policies that structure an economy in a different way. Neither of these are real technical terms, and the exact manifestations/ definitions of each are as many as there are capitalists and socialists. In general the idea of socialism is that "workers own the means of production," which could mean a lot of things like
1.) All or most industries are nationalized in some way.
2.) All of the businesses are worker co-ops
3.) Some weird giant social wealth fund thing
The best understanding in my view is that if an economy has more nationalization of its industries and state control over personal wealth, it's more socialist. When private entities have more control over different industries, and there is less state control over personal wealth (lower taxes), that's more capitalist. With that understanding you can have mixed economies. Online socialists don't seem to like this, but it's the only actual definition that makes any sense and was provided by Dr. Edward Stewart in one of those great courses audio lectures I got on audible.
https://www.audible.com/pd/Capitalism-vs-Socialism-Comparing-Economic-Systems-Audiobook/B07BHVY5YZ
I'm not sure why there would ever need to be a personal difference in behavior between a capitalist vs. Socialist when both things describe a set of beliefs about government policies? How does that make any sense at all? Capitalism isn't a personal set of actions and neither is socialism. If you want to define a capitalist the way Karl Marx did, just know that no one uses the term that way and when someone says they are a capitalist that's not what they mean. Presumably a socialist and a capitalist would vote for different candidates or argue for different policies.
To wrap this up, I think the criticisms levied at Hasan about his wealth or level of engagement with politics are unfair. I don't think political pundits have an obligation to do something extra. Being an entertaining political pundit is their job. I fail to see what's wrong with that or what is unique about Hasan that merits him having extra obligations from other similarly positioned pundits.
One parting thought is that people often give progressives a difficult time on a meta level i.e. "shouting or being radical might turn others off to your cause." Personally, I hate these sorts of arguments as they doge the facts of the matter in favor for a copy pasted lazy proxy of an argument. I hate progressives as much as the next person, but I don't think you can say they are ineffective. The fact is being loud, obnoxious, unlikeable, and working to de-platform every other point of view does kind of work. Society has gotten significantly more progressive on almost all fronts, and the GOP is in shambles. This might have horrible long term consequences for our democracy, but I'm not sure "effectiveness" is the right argument to make. You might just have a different direction you want society to go in based on different values. So one might wonder if Hasan is more "effective" than we like to admit and not hypocritical. He maybe just has bad beliefs, like other radical progressives.
2023.03.25 01:51 Svrider95 Slow Motion Servers
Purely just here to rant. How does this game print money for EA they want people to play ranked yet I consistently have the WORST server experience while I played ranked. Just had another ridiculous long slow motion server game I had to slog through just to salvage RP. It’s garbage, sorry, lazy and extremely annoying. They do the bare minimum to keep it running and keep a barely satisfactory playing experience.
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2023.03.25 01:51 sadmonkey91016 Why do you keep coming back but keep pushing me away again?
You somehow just knew I would be interested in trying to get back together again even though recently it’s like you don’t care about me at all. You like this idea of me stringing me along when you’re bored and that’s the only time you see me. You never check in on me. Never asked how I’m doing. I grieved so much over someone that’s so callously tossed away all the love that I have. I lost my spark. I’m trying to find myself again. I loved you wholeheartedly and yet i keep losing you. I know that I can’t make someone love me. I know that you’re going through some stuff but I am too. I am somehow too much but at the same time never enough. Not once did you ever asked if I was okay nor did you care. I just wish someone could see me. This is the main reason i just wanted to disappear. You’ll say you’re too busy and I understand that. But even when you’re not busy I still don’t exist. I’m tired. I’d rather just love you from afar and remember the person i loved the way you were. I’d rather just grieve for losing everything. And I don’t want to be your backup for anyone. I’d rather be alone than feel like i’ll never be chosen or that i was the last resort. I have no doubt you’ll be happy if you weren’t already you seemed to have moved on and that’s good. I have lost so much time. I have lost so much of myself already. I was on route to recovery and I feel like i’m back to square one. You barely interact with me you gave me not even the bare minimum of attention while I’m still at rock bottom.
At this point you’ll probably say how selfish i am or i’m being overdramatic or I’m overthinking. I’m gonna stop you right there. I have every right to say how and what i feel, no im not guilt tripping you right now, but the feeling i have tears me apart. I have been writing this for a few days now i had time to think and feel my loneliness. I lost so much, i lost my future, i lost a year and i loved you for 5 years…i practically lost my sanity cause you ghosted me and gaslit me into thinking i was crazy, enough to think it was okay that we barely talked that it was okay you don’t feel the same way that i do about us. I ached and yearned for you for more than a year. And i was okay even when you treated me like shit. How much more do I have to lose? All i wanted was a sign of you actually caring about me. You kept leaving me over and over again and it kills me. I know you would never understand it from my perspective but it’s just so hard to mentally and emotionally go through the cycles over and over again and each time I have to pick up all the pieces I have to fix it and I can’t anymore it’s shattered. I’ve been in pain for too long and I really want therapy and all the medication I’m taking to work. I love you so much but I’m dying inside. I just wanted to be loved as much as I loved you back and I know you can’t because you don’t. I just want to be honest about it all. I don’t know when my time on this earth will be up. Every day feels like a losing battle. I don’t want you to be with me anymore because it seems forced and I know you don’t want that. Maybe you’ll read this, maybe you won’t but i hope you do. I really need to let you go but unfortunately I’ll love you forever always. There will never be US again don’t worry you made sure of that. And I’m trying to come to terms with it.
Right now my health has severely declined. Im losing a lot of hair, i barely sleep well from vivid horrible dreams not about us but horrific gorelike entities and experiences. I’m losing parts of my memory. I talk a lot slower and I stutter more. It’s a side effect. I am a shadow of myself. I’m scared of going crazy even tho my psychologist tells me i’m not it’s probably a different health problem mostly cause im anemic but that’s doesn’t matter. I still go to therapy, i still talk to my psychiatrist. The long months before you talked to me helped me realize how much you don’t really love me. And i need to go back to that state of where im healing and be okay that you don’t love me again. I don’t want to hope for us again it puts me back to a place where i dont want to be. Every time you decided i exist for you again and then you throw me away i suffer so much. I need to say goodbye. Don’t give me hope for us to be together again if you can’t prove that you still want us to be together. I didn’t want to send this to you while you’re mourning for losing your bestfriend for 15 years. I know how much that dog means to you. But I’m at my breaking point now and i’m sorry but i need to set my boundaries. I’ll always love you to the moon and back. But I’m just so tired I hope you understand I’m done fighting a losing battle.
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At this point you’ll probably say how selfish i am or i’m being overdramatic or I’m overthinking. I’m gonna stop you right there. I have every right to say how and what i feel, no im not guilt tripping you right now, but the feeling i have tears me apart. I have been writing this for a few days now i had time to think and feel my loneliness. I lost so much, i lost my future, i lost a year and i loved you for 5 years…i practically lost my sanity cause you ghosted me and gaslit me into thinking i was crazy, enough to think it was okay that we barely talked that it was okay you don’t feel the same way that i do about us. I ached and yearned for you for more than a year. And i was okay even when you treated me like shit. How much more do I have to lose? All i wanted was a sign of you actually caring about me. You kept leaving me over and over again and it kills me. I know you would never understand it from my perspective but it’s just so hard to mentally and emotionally go through the cycles over and over again and each time I have to pick up all the pieces I have to fix it and I can’t anymore it’s shattered. I’ve been in pain for too long and I really want therapy and all the medication I’m taking to work. I love you so much but I’m dying inside. I just wanted to be loved as much as I loved you back and I know you can’t because you don’t. I just want to be honest about it all. I don’t know when my time on this earth will be up. Every day feels like a losing battle. I don’t want you to be with me anymore because it seems forced and I know you don’t want that. Maybe you’ll read this, maybe you won’t but i hope you do. I really need to let you go but unfortunately I’ll love you forever always. There will never be US again don’t worry you made sure of that. And I’m trying to come to terms with it.
Right now my health has severely declined. Im losing a lot of hair, i barely sleep well from vivid horrible dreams not about us but horrific gorelike entities and experiences. I’m losing parts of my memory. I talk a lot slower and I stutter more. It’s a side effect. I am a shadow of myself. I’m scared of going crazy even tho my psychologist tells me i’m not it’s probably a different health problem mostly cause im anemic but that’s doesn’t matter. I still go to therapy, i still talk to my psychiatrist. The long months before you talked to me helped me realize how much you don’t really love me. And i need to go back to that state of where im healing and be okay that you don’t love me again. I don’t want to hope for us again it puts me back to a place where i dont want to be. Every time you decided i exist for you again and then you throw me away i suffer so much. I need to say goodbye. Don’t give me hope for us to be together again if you can’t prove that you still want us to be together. I didn’t want to send this to you while you’re mourning for losing your bestfriend for 15 years. I know how much that dog means to you. But I’m at my breaking point now and i’m sorry but i need to set my boundaries. I’ll always love you to the moon and back. But I’m just so tired I hope you understand I’m done fighting a losing battle.
2023.03.25 01:51 Troublebubblegirl Be honest: what am I [F29] not being told? Why am I always not enough?
Okay, so, it’s kinda frustrating and I feel like the last guy telling me this just completely broke me… I’ve been single for 4 years, dating for 3. and since then all the guys I’ve met have been telling me the same. After dating for 3-6 weeks they just keep telling me how great I am, how empathetic, easygoing, wonderful and so on. They tell me how they would love nothing more than to be in a relationship, but they don’t feel a spark with me. Or they’ve rediscovered some long lost love, or they have met someone who’s a better fit…. No one has had the decency to tell me why I’m not enough. And honestly, if it had happened 4 or 5 even 6 times, I could handle it. But it’s been 4 guys this year alone… I can think of another 15 guys instantly.
I’m just so hurt and feel completely shattered and worthless… I feel like I’ve lost my person and no one will ever love me again…
So guys, what is wrong with me? What has made you say that to a girl in the past? Any ideas?
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I’m just so hurt and feel completely shattered and worthless… I feel like I’ve lost my person and no one will ever love me again…
So guys, what is wrong with me? What has made you say that to a girl in the past? Any ideas?
2023.03.25 01:50 ObjectiveBrief6838 [F] The Gate of Molech: The Wolf King
The Emperor of Mankind stood resolute, his gaze fixed upon the swirling vortex of the Chaos gate on the planet Molech. He was more man than god then, but his mind was already a raging tempest of unfathomable psychic power, vast and deep as the ocean's abyss, unconquerable and unyielding to the tumultuous storms that raged upon the surface of its waves. His will was a beacon of hope amidst the seething darkness, shining with a brilliance that rivaled the radiance of the stars.
He had come to Molech seeking ancient powers, to help him in his quest to reunite humanity and forge a new Imperium that could endure in the harsh reality of the far future. But as soon as he stepped towards the gate, he felt the gaze of the four Chaos gods upon him, their malevolent presence an ever-present threat.
"You dare to enter our realm, mortal?" Khorne boomed, his voice a thunderous roar. "You will suffer for your impertinence!"
The Emperor stood firm, his unwavering gaze piercing through the tempest of Chaos. "I come seeking knowledge," he declared, his voice calm and steady. "And I seek access to the primordial warp, before it was tainted by your corrupting influence. I know of the Prime Archeos that once reigned over the warp before the War in Heaven."
The Chaos gods were taken aback by the mortal's knowledge. They murmured among themselves, wondering what this human could possibly know of such ancient and powerful beings.
"And what do you offer in return for our aid, mortal?" Tzeentch asked, his eyes glittering with the promise of arcane knowledge.
"I offer you my power," the Emperor replied. "My psychic might is strong enough to rival even yours. But I also offer you the chance to benefit from my success. I know your dominion over this place is limited. The destruction of the Prime Archeos would give you complete control of this dimension.”
Nurgle cackled, his bloated form quivering with mirth. "You are a bold one, mortal. But what makes you think you can slay these beasts? They are quite formidable."
The Emperor's eyes burned with an unquenchable fire. "I have my ways," he declared. "It is not for you to know how I will accomplish my goals. But know this - I will stop at nothing and I will not be deterred by any obstacle."
The gods of Chaos fell silent, their cacophonous laughter and snarls of derision fading to a hushed whisper as the gates' swirling vortex began to calm. With each step the Emperor took, the air crackled with psychic energy, his formidable presence radiating outwards. With a sense of purpose that bordered on the divine, he strode forward into the heart of the warp, determined to claim the power he sought and bring about a new era for humanity.
As the Emperor stepped through the Chaos gate on the planet Molech, a sudden surge of raw energy coursed through his body. He felt an intense disorientation and was momentarily blinded by a blinding white light before everything went black.
When he opened his eyes, he found himself standing on an icy mountain top, surrounded by a swirling vortex of unbridled psychic energy. The landscape was eerily familiar, harkening back to the mountains of his youth during a long-forgotten era on Earth. He knew immediately that he had entered the primordial part of the warp, the last bastion of untainted energy that the four Chaos gods had yet to corrupt.
As he surveyed the area, he noticed a scene of destruction in the distance and set his sights on investigating. As he got closer, the bodies of Khorne's daemons lay before him, their twisted forms frozen in death. Whatever had killed these daemons had given them a true death, a feat not easily accomplished.
As he searched the area for any clues, he saw something shimmering in the snow. It was pure, uncorrupted warp energy, leading up the mountain beyond his sight. With his senses heightened, the Emperor followed the trail of raw power with caution, maneuvering through the treacherous terrain. The psychic energy grew stronger with every step, and he knew he was getting closer to his destination.
Rounding a bend in the mountain path, he came face to face with the first of the Prime Archeos, a being of immense psychic energy that took the form of a great wolf. The beast had been attacked by a powerful force, leaving it weakened and vulnerable. Despite its injuries, the wolf king remained unbroken.
The Emperor approached the wolf king, his senses on high alert for any signs of danger. The beast snarled at him, unsure of what to make of the newcomer. The Emperor, however, reached out with his own immense psychic power and began to heal the wolf king's wounds. As he worked, the Emperor felt the beast's energy flowing into him, a potent and fierce force that threatened to overwhelm him. But he persisted, determined to see the wolf king restored to its full strength.
He could sense other beings in the area, watching him with hostility and suspicion. Still, the Emperor pressed on, mending the wolf king's broken spirit and body, his own psychic power pouring into the creature.
With every passing moment, he could feel the bond of loyalty and protectiveness between the two beings growing stronger, encompassing all of space and time. When the wolf king was finally healed, it relaxed its stance and began to wag its tail, gazing at the Emperor with fierce nobility.
For a long moment, the Emperor and the wolf king regarded each other, recognizing in one another a kindred spirit, a powerful force for good in a universe consumed by darkness.
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He had come to Molech seeking ancient powers, to help him in his quest to reunite humanity and forge a new Imperium that could endure in the harsh reality of the far future. But as soon as he stepped towards the gate, he felt the gaze of the four Chaos gods upon him, their malevolent presence an ever-present threat.
"You dare to enter our realm, mortal?" Khorne boomed, his voice a thunderous roar. "You will suffer for your impertinence!"
The Emperor stood firm, his unwavering gaze piercing through the tempest of Chaos. "I come seeking knowledge," he declared, his voice calm and steady. "And I seek access to the primordial warp, before it was tainted by your corrupting influence. I know of the Prime Archeos that once reigned over the warp before the War in Heaven."
The Chaos gods were taken aback by the mortal's knowledge. They murmured among themselves, wondering what this human could possibly know of such ancient and powerful beings.
"And what do you offer in return for our aid, mortal?" Tzeentch asked, his eyes glittering with the promise of arcane knowledge.
"I offer you my power," the Emperor replied. "My psychic might is strong enough to rival even yours. But I also offer you the chance to benefit from my success. I know your dominion over this place is limited. The destruction of the Prime Archeos would give you complete control of this dimension.”
Nurgle cackled, his bloated form quivering with mirth. "You are a bold one, mortal. But what makes you think you can slay these beasts? They are quite formidable."
The Emperor's eyes burned with an unquenchable fire. "I have my ways," he declared. "It is not for you to know how I will accomplish my goals. But know this - I will stop at nothing and I will not be deterred by any obstacle."
The gods of Chaos fell silent, their cacophonous laughter and snarls of derision fading to a hushed whisper as the gates' swirling vortex began to calm. With each step the Emperor took, the air crackled with psychic energy, his formidable presence radiating outwards. With a sense of purpose that bordered on the divine, he strode forward into the heart of the warp, determined to claim the power he sought and bring about a new era for humanity.
As the Emperor stepped through the Chaos gate on the planet Molech, a sudden surge of raw energy coursed through his body. He felt an intense disorientation and was momentarily blinded by a blinding white light before everything went black.
When he opened his eyes, he found himself standing on an icy mountain top, surrounded by a swirling vortex of unbridled psychic energy. The landscape was eerily familiar, harkening back to the mountains of his youth during a long-forgotten era on Earth. He knew immediately that he had entered the primordial part of the warp, the last bastion of untainted energy that the four Chaos gods had yet to corrupt.
As he surveyed the area, he noticed a scene of destruction in the distance and set his sights on investigating. As he got closer, the bodies of Khorne's daemons lay before him, their twisted forms frozen in death. Whatever had killed these daemons had given them a true death, a feat not easily accomplished.
As he searched the area for any clues, he saw something shimmering in the snow. It was pure, uncorrupted warp energy, leading up the mountain beyond his sight. With his senses heightened, the Emperor followed the trail of raw power with caution, maneuvering through the treacherous terrain. The psychic energy grew stronger with every step, and he knew he was getting closer to his destination.
Rounding a bend in the mountain path, he came face to face with the first of the Prime Archeos, a being of immense psychic energy that took the form of a great wolf. The beast had been attacked by a powerful force, leaving it weakened and vulnerable. Despite its injuries, the wolf king remained unbroken.
The Emperor approached the wolf king, his senses on high alert for any signs of danger. The beast snarled at him, unsure of what to make of the newcomer. The Emperor, however, reached out with his own immense psychic power and began to heal the wolf king's wounds. As he worked, the Emperor felt the beast's energy flowing into him, a potent and fierce force that threatened to overwhelm him. But he persisted, determined to see the wolf king restored to its full strength.
He could sense other beings in the area, watching him with hostility and suspicion. Still, the Emperor pressed on, mending the wolf king's broken spirit and body, his own psychic power pouring into the creature.
With every passing moment, he could feel the bond of loyalty and protectiveness between the two beings growing stronger, encompassing all of space and time. When the wolf king was finally healed, it relaxed its stance and began to wag its tail, gazing at the Emperor with fierce nobility.
For a long moment, the Emperor and the wolf king regarded each other, recognizing in one another a kindred spirit, a powerful force for good in a universe consumed by darkness.
2023.03.25 01:50 Ill-Cod8556 Budget gaming PC for my daughter
1. What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games (ex: resolution, FPS, settings) or programs you will be using.
- Mostly for simple school work, also some light gaming, may do some photo processing as well
2. What is your maximum PRE-TAX budget before rebates and shipping?
- 800 up to 1000 if needed
3. When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.
- not in a hurry, as long as I get parts ready, but don't want delay unnecessarily
4. What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ex: toweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)
- just tower for now.
5. If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? How old are they? Brands and models are appreciated.
- Not reuse any part.
6. Will you be overclocking (ex: CPU/GPU/RAM)? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line?
- No.
7. Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSDs, mass HDDs, Wi-Fi / Bluetooth, VR, VirtualLink, tensor cores, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc.)
- Needs wifi
8. Do you have any specific case preferences (ex: mITX/mATX/mid-towefull-tower sizes, styles, colours, window or not, LED lighting, etc.), or a particular color theme preference for the components?
- My daughter prefer a nice looking white case with RBG light, the first case she saw in store is Fractal design Torrent, which set the bar way too high, but that case is way over too expensive for her use. The other case I looked is the Pop Air white RGB, still the cheapest is $140, not sure if it is worth it
9. Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? Note: some post-secondary students can get Windows 10 for free at OnTheHub or through their school's IT software distribution department.
- Yes, is it cheap just to buy a activation key
10. Will you be upgrading this PC in the future (ie: will you swap out better parts later on or will you build an entirely new tower later)? If so, when?
- Probably but likely only video card swap in short term, in long term, yes, I will swap parts if it can prolong lift of the PC.
11. Do you have a brand preference? (ex: AMD/Intel for CPUs, AMD/NVIDIA for video cards, etc.)
- None.
12. What are the specs of your old PC / laptop? Do you want to see if it can be upgraded instead? If so, paste its build from PCPartPicker here.
- My last windows PC is a Q6600 G0 build, have then switched to a i5-4200U based laptop that I still use
- 13. Extra info or particulars:
- This is the build I am drafting, I already bought the motherboard from Newegg, and bought the SSD as well (but I do feel it is a bit overkill wondering whether I should swap to a cheaper SSD), Main concern is the case, PSU and video card, I bought them mostly based on sales. But first the case (got $55 in CC before tax) is not white (which is OK but preferred white) and not sure if it is a good choice, also no RBG so likely have to spend more later to get RBG fans. For the PSU, it seems to be a good unit, and that is the only reasonable price PSU I can find for a while, just not sure if I should go higher watts. The other part I am totally unsure is the video card, the problem is the main game my daughter want to play now is Genshin impact, which is not really a very graphics demanding game, I am thinking I might be able to get away with buying a used video card first (a 1060? RX580, 1070 or 1660 etc.) and swap it if she is going to play some more demanding game or if the GPU market becomes better, but of course, going new would make life a lot easier, especially I don't have a spare PC to test video card if I go used.
2023.03.25 01:49 pharmacygal2023 Resident experience after matching
Just wondering how long people studied for the NAPLEX after getting into a residency? Now that everything is winding down I want to study but I have my last rotation for 6 more weeks then graduation
Does anyone have tips on study schedule or if they can share their plan with us please?
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Does anyone have tips on study schedule or if they can share their plan with us please?
2023.03.25 01:49 Dry_Connection8596 Has anyone come out to conservative/religious family?
Hi all,
I have a very special guy in my life who we are both talking about getting married one day and we're both really excited about the idea of that. Thing is, I'm just coming out to my close friends (I'm bisexual and openly dated women so everyone assumed - and I let them - that I'm straight). I'm particularly hesitant to come out to my loving, conservative, religious, immigrant parents that are a part of a larger very tight-knit community that also helped raise me.
I've done nothing but made them proud and now help them financially as I now have a successful career; so I l humorously feel that I owe them at least one solid "disappointment."
I will note both me and my partner are christian as well (in our early 30s). It has taken me a long time to even get to this point of acceptance and I do still struggle with it.
But as I'm getting the courage to come out, I'd like to reach out to yall! Does anyone else have a similar experience? If so, how did it go?
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I have a very special guy in my life who we are both talking about getting married one day and we're both really excited about the idea of that. Thing is, I'm just coming out to my close friends (I'm bisexual and openly dated women so everyone assumed - and I let them - that I'm straight). I'm particularly hesitant to come out to my loving, conservative, religious, immigrant parents that are a part of a larger very tight-knit community that also helped raise me.
I've done nothing but made them proud and now help them financially as I now have a successful career; so I l humorously feel that I owe them at least one solid "disappointment."
I will note both me and my partner are christian as well (in our early 30s). It has taken me a long time to even get to this point of acceptance and I do still struggle with it.
But as I'm getting the courage to come out, I'd like to reach out to yall! Does anyone else have a similar experience? If so, how did it go?
2023.03.25 01:48 Glad-Worldliness-479 All things in moderation
I’ve found myself using more and more over the last 2-3 weeks and while I have a lot of fun skiing, I’m suspecting I’m on the cusp of letting it become self-destructive. How do any of you manage that tightrope/ does anyone have any tips. I don’t wanna completely quit but if I can’t find a way to moderate myself then that’s the only option
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2023.03.25 01:48 ScarcityCareless6241 Ever since two days ago, every time I boot up my PC the printer immediately prints a copy of this math worksheet
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2023.03.25 01:47 DoingLTE A Warning To Stake Writers/Players
I am simply reporting this. What you guys choose to do with this information is up to you.
I began writing post cards for Stake last October. While I was writing, I was also playing here religiously. I've spent thousands and thousands of dollars here. I'm Plat 1 and got there from playing. I never recycled. I'm only asserting that, because it's not like I was just writing post cards (although that detail shouldn't even matter).
I would write anywhere between 500 to 1000 post cards a month and they were credited normally. I write very cleanly and I've never had a post card rejected.
This week, I got the dreaded "further information required" post. Luckily, they unfroze my account after two days and it wasn't offline very long. But immediately after my account was un-frozen, I got an e-mail saying that a large number of my envelopes were denied for not being legible (lol okay? I've written them the same way for months and never had one rejected). Then I get another email saying that all 1000 of my outstanding cards were not legible and they denied them.
This is absolute and utter crap. If they want to hurt their community who supports them, promotes them and engages in their website, that's on them. But I will never play at this website ever again. Stake, you chose to come to the USA and engage in our Sweepstakes Laws. Nobody asked you to come. You need to pay out the people who write to you. I will not be shy about telling people how you scam your valued "customers."
inb4: "YoU aBusE tHe sYstEm". It's literally the regulatory law that any sweepstakes casino accepts requests via envelopes, as long as they follow the ToS. If you chime in with this type of comment, you're fucking stupid.
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I began writing post cards for Stake last October. While I was writing, I was also playing here religiously. I've spent thousands and thousands of dollars here. I'm Plat 1 and got there from playing. I never recycled. I'm only asserting that, because it's not like I was just writing post cards (although that detail shouldn't even matter).
I would write anywhere between 500 to 1000 post cards a month and they were credited normally. I write very cleanly and I've never had a post card rejected.
This week, I got the dreaded "further information required" post. Luckily, they unfroze my account after two days and it wasn't offline very long. But immediately after my account was un-frozen, I got an e-mail saying that a large number of my envelopes were denied for not being legible (lol okay? I've written them the same way for months and never had one rejected). Then I get another email saying that all 1000 of my outstanding cards were not legible and they denied them.
This is absolute and utter crap. If they want to hurt their community who supports them, promotes them and engages in their website, that's on them. But I will never play at this website ever again. Stake, you chose to come to the USA and engage in our Sweepstakes Laws. Nobody asked you to come. You need to pay out the people who write to you. I will not be shy about telling people how you scam your valued "customers."
inb4: "YoU aBusE tHe sYstEm". It's literally the regulatory law that any sweepstakes casino accepts requests via envelopes, as long as they follow the ToS. If you chime in with this type of comment, you're fucking stupid.
2023.03.25 01:46 Graphica-Danger Just finished Chapter 13. A question about a line of dialogue at the end.
Rapi's getting younger? How is that possible? Nikkes don't age, so they shouldn't be able to regress. Was this a mistranslation or is it intentional? If Rapi's getting younger, does that mean Red Hood self repairs her Nikke body and brain, or what? I'm so confused.
There are so many mysteries yet to be solved, I'm really excited to keep playing, even if it takes a long time for the story to continue updating.
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There are so many mysteries yet to be solved, I'm really excited to keep playing, even if it takes a long time for the story to continue updating.
2023.03.25 01:46 orbdotcom Human Courage, Part 2 - Loss of Humanity
Unfinished and turns into writing guidelines, but I just wanted to get this out there for anyone who was interested in where this was going.
Tkk, shhhhh- Thunk.
A chorus of clinks and taps as armor hit the ground and grind in movement sounded a few moments after the dropships started opening.
Clink, click.
In one dropship, two rows of soldiers click their harnesses into place. Slick, gunmetal and azure blue suits of armor in all different shapes and sizes exchange glances as the ship’s pilot starts the countdown to departure.
“Hope you all aren’t expecting a bumpy ride!”
“I would prefer it if no one was.”
“Hahaaah… Yeah…”
The ship itself is silent, private and group lines being used to converse.
“Everyone pay attention to the mission?”
“Get in, find the problem, resolve, and leave.”
The mission report for this group was lacking, compared to others. Through no fault of their superiors, information of the situation was limited. A jumbled SOS, of sorts, was received. It was cut off before anything meaningful could be gathered, other than an unknown threat killing every member of the crew it came across.
“Gotta say, this all sounds alot like the reports of the Things.”
“Tell me about it. No info, prevented SOS. No one left alive.”
One soldier, a scaled bipedal with four arms, Tk’Wrath, casts a concerned glance at the shorter human beside him, mumbling incoherently through their helmet.
He, after a moment's consideration, casts a private line request through the holoscreen on his gauntlet. Just checking on them. Afterall, they’re all in this pit together.
It takes a moment for the smaller teammate to snap out of their reverie, but they do accept it.
“Something the matter?” comes the human’s voice through his helmet. It’s higher than he expected.
“You were talking to yourself. Sounded like you were lost, or something to that degree.”
“Ah- My apologies. Just a mantra I learned a long time ago. Bit weirded out, is all.”
He hums for a moment. Repeating mantras isn’t uncommon to his people, each family has their own unique one they teach the young ones, or those joining the family.
The human’s voice sounds through the connection again.
“What did you say your name was, again?”
“I didn’t.”
“Well, that-” a huff. “I mean, what’s your name?”
“Tk’Wrath. And yours?”
“Iris.” They take a moment, before asking, “How do you feel about this?”
“How do you mean?”
“Well, it’s just that.. Something about this feels… off. And I don’t just mean that whole thing with the SOS. Something’s just… Wrong with this mission.”
“Mm. I can’t say I don’t know what you mean. Anything in particular?”
“It… I can’t talk about it. Legalities, you understand? Tech, and all that.”
“...Ah. You think you know who might’ve done this.”
Iris doesn’t respond, only giving a slight shrug. Tk’Wrath can’t help but wonder who the human suspects. The galaxy’s been pointing fingers forever, but nothing’s come up. How could one report, missing half the usual data, give a clue? Or does Iris know more than they let on?
The ride is spent talking about any and everything the crew can think of to pass the time. On the secondary channel, he hears others joking about the report, calling the name “The Things” stupid, among other things. Tk’Wrath notes that Iris lightens up as time goes on, but never brings up their previous conversation.
“Nah, nah, nah - ‘Things’ is so stupid! Like, there’s nothing intimidating about that.”
“Oh whatever. The mystery is what makes it interesting.”
“How about- Hear me out, how about Voids?”
“That is so much worse.”
“You’re just jealous you can’t-”
“Will you lot please drop this? We’re supposed to be planning what to do upon arriving.”
“Oh yeah? With what information? We don’t- we don’t even have sights on the wreck yet!”
Tk’ sighs. This was going to be a long-
“Actually, we did - if you bothered to check the main channel! Ship’s… intact. Surprisingly. Huh.”
“...okay, well. That wasn’t in the original report. That- that doesn’t even look like a wreck. Everyone just get up and leave?”
His hearts drop at that. Tk’ hadn’t checked the main, either. He hears Iris interject;
“Yeah… Place looks… picked clean. Not sure I like that.”
“No kidding.”
“Well, we won’t know until we get inside. Everyone ready?”
“Ready as I’ll ever be for ghosts, I guess.”
A chorus of similar responses comes from the rest of the crew, and the rest of the ride is spent much quieter. Everyone’s retreated back to private channels, but he can tell they’re talking about the ship. Everyone’s glancing at their holoscreens for more information every few seconds, and most shift uncomfortably in their harnesses.
He occupies the rest of the ride playing music in his helmet.
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The alert to prepare for insertion cuts off his music as the carrier nears the patrol ship.
“Take a walk, you lot.”
There’s the tell-tale woosh of air being vacuumed out into the void that marked the back of the ship was opening up.
Thhhhhr- clk
The vacuum eats the rest of the noise.
[Group is dispatched on the outside of the ship]
“Bust the door.”
“Attaching the connector.”
After the large, half-barrel, half-[insert something here later] is attached to the entrance, [sequence of entering the ship and orienting themselves to the dormant ship’s floor with magboots]
[Group bust their way into the ship, and find no power. They make their way through the ship, Tk and Iris taking up the rear, using lights on the ends of their guns to scan the hallways.]
[Captain directs to restore power to the ship, preferably lights first, life support second.]
[intermission things of them sweeping the ship and finding only traces of blood, but barely any, and no bodies or anything]
Iris steps up to the door panel, connecting their holopad to the interface and manually ordering it to open, and the captain sends an electrician inside with Tk’. He scans the area, gun held at the ready, carrying the electrician’s excess supplies in his lower arms.
[repeat above note, with banter, preferably avoiding the topic between Tk and Iris]
[Fallen Division people are encountered on the ship, also sweeping the place]
[Iris, excited to be with other humans again, but curious as to why they were dispatched as well, tries to strike up conversation, which devolves into an argument over the others’ seeming bio-phobia]
[it devolves into the argument because Division starts rounding up the rest of the crew and tying them up.]
[Iris, at this point, is gesturing wildly and looks like she’s shouting, but can’t Tk’ tell because of the helmet]
[all from the perspective of Tk’Wrath, still]
[something something If You’re Not With Us, You’re Against Us, but Tk can hardly make it out]
[he can hardly hear it because there’s glass between the crew and Iris and the Division.]
[While the whole If You’re Not With Us thing is being said, that soldier is raising his Space Glock before blowing Iris’ head off, painting the glass red.]
[fade to black as Tk closes his eyes against the gun now pointing at his head, covering his view of the glass, as he repeats a mantra to himself.]
[bang.sfx]
He feels a sharp pressure-
He’s gone.
[FIN]
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Yeaaah... So, it's been awhile, huh? So much for just 2 weeks! I've had part 3 written for ages, but wanted to get out part 2 before posting it, but... I'm stuck. I can't bring myself to finish this. If anyone wants to step in and fill this out and continue the story/use the setting, feel free! I just can't bring myself to write anything anymore.
"Fallen Division" is explained in, well, Fallen Division, which I'll be posting after this.
Part 1
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Tkk, shhhhh- Thunk.
A chorus of clinks and taps as armor hit the ground and grind in movement sounded a few moments after the dropships started opening.
Clink, click.
In one dropship, two rows of soldiers click their harnesses into place. Slick, gunmetal and azure blue suits of armor in all different shapes and sizes exchange glances as the ship’s pilot starts the countdown to departure.
“Hope you all aren’t expecting a bumpy ride!”
“I would prefer it if no one was.”
“Hahaaah… Yeah…”
The ship itself is silent, private and group lines being used to converse.
“Everyone pay attention to the mission?”
“Get in, find the problem, resolve, and leave.”
The mission report for this group was lacking, compared to others. Through no fault of their superiors, information of the situation was limited. A jumbled SOS, of sorts, was received. It was cut off before anything meaningful could be gathered, other than an unknown threat killing every member of the crew it came across.
“Gotta say, this all sounds alot like the reports of the Things.”
“Tell me about it. No info, prevented SOS. No one left alive.”
One soldier, a scaled bipedal with four arms, Tk’Wrath, casts a concerned glance at the shorter human beside him, mumbling incoherently through their helmet.
He, after a moment's consideration, casts a private line request through the holoscreen on his gauntlet. Just checking on them. Afterall, they’re all in this pit together.
It takes a moment for the smaller teammate to snap out of their reverie, but they do accept it.
“Something the matter?” comes the human’s voice through his helmet. It’s higher than he expected.
“You were talking to yourself. Sounded like you were lost, or something to that degree.”
“Ah- My apologies. Just a mantra I learned a long time ago. Bit weirded out, is all.”
He hums for a moment. Repeating mantras isn’t uncommon to his people, each family has their own unique one they teach the young ones, or those joining the family.
The human’s voice sounds through the connection again.
“What did you say your name was, again?”
“I didn’t.”
“Well, that-” a huff. “I mean, what’s your name?”
“Tk’Wrath. And yours?”
“Iris.” They take a moment, before asking, “How do you feel about this?”
“How do you mean?”
“Well, it’s just that.. Something about this feels… off. And I don’t just mean that whole thing with the SOS. Something’s just… Wrong with this mission.”
“Mm. I can’t say I don’t know what you mean. Anything in particular?”
“It… I can’t talk about it. Legalities, you understand? Tech, and all that.”
“...Ah. You think you know who might’ve done this.”
Iris doesn’t respond, only giving a slight shrug. Tk’Wrath can’t help but wonder who the human suspects. The galaxy’s been pointing fingers forever, but nothing’s come up. How could one report, missing half the usual data, give a clue? Or does Iris know more than they let on?
The ride is spent talking about any and everything the crew can think of to pass the time. On the secondary channel, he hears others joking about the report, calling the name “The Things” stupid, among other things. Tk’Wrath notes that Iris lightens up as time goes on, but never brings up their previous conversation.
“Nah, nah, nah - ‘Things’ is so stupid! Like, there’s nothing intimidating about that.”
“Oh whatever. The mystery is what makes it interesting.”
“How about- Hear me out, how about Voids?”
“That is so much worse.”
“You’re just jealous you can’t-”
“Will you lot please drop this? We’re supposed to be planning what to do upon arriving.”
“Oh yeah? With what information? We don’t- we don’t even have sights on the wreck yet!”
Tk’ sighs. This was going to be a long-
“Actually, we did - if you bothered to check the main channel! Ship’s… intact. Surprisingly. Huh.”
“...okay, well. That wasn’t in the original report. That- that doesn’t even look like a wreck. Everyone just get up and leave?”
His hearts drop at that. Tk’ hadn’t checked the main, either. He hears Iris interject;
“Yeah… Place looks… picked clean. Not sure I like that.”
“No kidding.”
“Well, we won’t know until we get inside. Everyone ready?”
“Ready as I’ll ever be for ghosts, I guess.”
A chorus of similar responses comes from the rest of the crew, and the rest of the ride is spent much quieter. Everyone’s retreated back to private channels, but he can tell they’re talking about the ship. Everyone’s glancing at their holoscreens for more information every few seconds, and most shift uncomfortably in their harnesses.
He occupies the rest of the ride playing music in his helmet.
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The alert to prepare for insertion cuts off his music as the carrier nears the patrol ship.
“Take a walk, you lot.”
There’s the tell-tale woosh of air being vacuumed out into the void that marked the back of the ship was opening up.
Thhhhhr- clk
The vacuum eats the rest of the noise.
[Group is dispatched on the outside of the ship]
“Bust the door.”
“Attaching the connector.”
After the large, half-barrel, half-[insert something here later] is attached to the entrance, [sequence of entering the ship and orienting themselves to the dormant ship’s floor with magboots]
[Group bust their way into the ship, and find no power. They make their way through the ship, Tk and Iris taking up the rear, using lights on the ends of their guns to scan the hallways.]
[Captain directs to restore power to the ship, preferably lights first, life support second.]
[intermission things of them sweeping the ship and finding only traces of blood, but barely any, and no bodies or anything]
Iris steps up to the door panel, connecting their holopad to the interface and manually ordering it to open, and the captain sends an electrician inside with Tk’. He scans the area, gun held at the ready, carrying the electrician’s excess supplies in his lower arms.
[repeat above note, with banter, preferably avoiding the topic between Tk and Iris]
[Fallen Division people are encountered on the ship, also sweeping the place]
[Iris, excited to be with other humans again, but curious as to why they were dispatched as well, tries to strike up conversation, which devolves into an argument over the others’ seeming bio-phobia]
[it devolves into the argument because Division starts rounding up the rest of the crew and tying them up.]
[Iris, at this point, is gesturing wildly and looks like she’s shouting, but can’t Tk’ tell because of the helmet]
[all from the perspective of Tk’Wrath, still]
[something something If You’re Not With Us, You’re Against Us, but Tk can hardly make it out]
[he can hardly hear it because there’s glass between the crew and Iris and the Division.]
[While the whole If You’re Not With Us thing is being said, that soldier is raising his Space Glock before blowing Iris’ head off, painting the glass red.]
[fade to black as Tk closes his eyes against the gun now pointing at his head, covering his view of the glass, as he repeats a mantra to himself.]
[bang.sfx]
He feels a sharp pressure-
He’s gone.
[FIN]
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Yeaaah... So, it's been awhile, huh? So much for just 2 weeks! I've had part 3 written for ages, but wanted to get out part 2 before posting it, but... I'm stuck. I can't bring myself to finish this. If anyone wants to step in and fill this out and continue the story/use the setting, feel free! I just can't bring myself to write anything anymore.
"Fallen Division" is explained in, well, Fallen Division, which I'll be posting after this.
Part 1
2023.03.25 01:46 JessiSan436 Any of you structural engineers transferred to transportation engineering?
I'm a structural engineering master's student whose graduating in a month. Over last six years I have spent lots of time and effort trying to make myself good at structural because I wanted to prove myself (structural is considered by many to be the hardest type of civil engineering and everyone in my civil engineering classes thinks of the structural-minded folks as the "smart" people).However, I can barely keep my GPA at a 3.0 even though I do study hard. I find it difficult to follow along in class. My brain doesn't process things quickly. Another reason I struggle in my structural engineering classes is because I didn't know how to study in high school and in my undergrad, so I never truly learned fundamental math, physics, statics, and solid mechanics concepts. (I relied on repetition without understanding the concepts). At the end of each semester I am stressed beyond my wits because I am not sure if I passed the final exam. Rarely is there a problem on there where I feel confident that I'd nailed. In addition, I feel like I always annoy my profs and peers because I ask too many questions about how to solve assignments because I simply don't know how or where to start. I feel like if I worked as a structural engineer I'd make my coworker's lives miserable.My body is also not very good at handling stress. For those of you who know Jordan Peterson, I did his personality test and found that I'm highly neurotic (prone to negative thinking and poor at handling stress and adapting to new situations). Hence, I don't think structural is right for me in terms of my abilities and my health in the long run.
People have suggested to me to pursue transportation engineering because it's easier. I didn't find transportation engg classes as hard as structural in university. I had around B+ in transportation classes, whereas structural I usually had B-. I don't want to pursue construction. I want to pursue transportation engineering.
Do any of you have any thoughts about this? Do you think I am making a good decision to switch to transportation in light of what i said? have any of you made the switch? if so, how would you say it's working out for you? Any insights would be super welcomed and appreciated.
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People have suggested to me to pursue transportation engineering because it's easier. I didn't find transportation engg classes as hard as structural in university. I had around B+ in transportation classes, whereas structural I usually had B-. I don't want to pursue construction. I want to pursue transportation engineering.
Do any of you have any thoughts about this? Do you think I am making a good decision to switch to transportation in light of what i said? have any of you made the switch? if so, how would you say it's working out for you? Any insights would be super welcomed and appreciated.
2023.03.25 01:45 Infinite_Ad1368 My (25m) gf (23f) of 4 years said something last night that I am having a hard time forgiving.
Last night my gf was playing games with some online friends she only met around a month ago on discord. They were on Omegle I think and my gf says “yeah he was hot, if I was in the mood to make bad decisions…” She essentially said “if I was in the mood I would cheat on my boyfriend” to her friends (some of whom are male) while I was in the same room as her. This made me not only furious, but also feel very disrespected. When I confronted her about it, she said that it’s just a joke, and that phrase is just something her friends say. She apologized for it, but I feel like I can’t forgive her for that because it sets a precedent and I don’t know where to go from here. In the morning she left a long note that said how she regrets it; has cut off those friends, and is deeply sorry for hurting me.
I want to believe and forgive her, but I feel like there are some things you just shouldn’t say in a relationship, and she crossed the line. I have ignored her since last night after I confronted her and we talked about it even though we live together and sleep in the same bed. Am I making a big deal out of this? I don’t want to throw away a 4 year relationship that has otherwise been great.
TL;DR girlfriend said something that made me question her loyalty and I don’t know how to forgive her.
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I want to believe and forgive her, but I feel like there are some things you just shouldn’t say in a relationship, and she crossed the line. I have ignored her since last night after I confronted her and we talked about it even though we live together and sleep in the same bed. Am I making a big deal out of this? I don’t want to throw away a 4 year relationship that has otherwise been great.
TL;DR girlfriend said something that made me question her loyalty and I don’t know how to forgive her.
2023.03.25 01:44 ThrowRAsunflower_ Should I 21F give my husband 23M another chance
should I give my husband another chance after he failed to follow through twice before
My husband and I have been married for little over a year and I know it seems silly to want to end a marriage so soon but I feel like we keep having the same fights and nothing will change. I want to provide some context. The biggest problem we are facing is communication, though we're also having issues with trust and follow through/commitment. He's not unfaithful or anything, but I don't want to be in a relationship where I can't rely on my partner. We fight frequently, and it always comes back to the same thing that he never listens to me. I put my dreams on hold to get a full time job at a call center because he wanted to quit his job and he said he knew what he wanted to do but ended up changing his mind and didn't work for months. I was pregnant and gave birth in June so he got a job to support us while I took leave. I ended up returning early from my maternity leave because he decided to quit the job he had because they didnt pay his overtime like they promised which I understand it's fucked up but to just suddenly quit made things hard for us. He wouldn't get a new job for a few months, but I still did a majority of the childcare and housework while working full time. I was also breastfeeding which made me really tired and my husband would complain about me not wanting to be intimate after doing all that work and claim it was because I thought he got fat and ugly which really didn't make sense. When I called him out on how much pressure he put on me he said it's my fault for breastfeeding and I shouldn't do it if I don't like it and then claimed that it was hard for him to help around the house because he had male post partum depression. I absolutely lost it with him and threatened to leave him if this continued so he finally started taking care of our son more for a while. Now he has a new job it's part time so he stopped helping with our son when I point this out he claims he's doing his part by working. I'm still working full time he also claims it's hard to take care of our son because he's so attached to me and doesn't care for his dad which isn't true our sons face literally lights up when he sees his dad come home from work. So I thought we could try therapy since what I was saying to him wasn't getting through. I told my husband and he flat out said no that he doesn't need help and if I want a therapist to just get one for myself at that time everything I've been holding in came out and he just got angry and said it was out of nowhere and that everything was fine yesterday why bring it up now but he ultimately agreed to look for a therapist. I thought this would mean looking to go nope it was just to look and for the past few months I've been asking him to go but he always refused I was tired of fighting with him about it and let it go. That was way more context than I planned on putting sorry but to the current issue we recently got into a fight where I called him selfish because this weekend is my birthday and he promised to spoil me well last night I was sore from working out the day before so I wanted to relax by watching my comfort show he gets home from work I had been home with our son all day so I asked him to watch our son he decides to just try to put him to bed and when he didn't go to bed claimed our son who ate before he came home must be hungry whatever I take our son back in my arms and hold him then my husband complains that he wants to play videogames since he just got off work I ask if I can finish my episode he acts whiny but let's it go then he starts complaining if we can just watch a movie he likes instead. Tired of hearing him whine about not getting to play or watch what he wants I let him watch his movie I mean my episode had 10 minutes but I guess that's just too long my son finally falls asleep so I put him to bed my husband wants to get intimate afterwards I ask for a massage because I'm sore and thought it'd be a win win I get a massage it leads to intimacy well I guess it was irritating to him to fulfill this request because he just presses his knuckles hard into my leg and it hurts a lot and I tell him and he would just say it's supposed to the muscles are sore so eventually I pull away from him and say I'm tired and want to go to bed he complains why don't I stay up and watch the movie with him and give him another chance with the massage but honestly it was so painful I'd just rather go to sleep he said I'd thank him in the morning and I should appreciate it well that just pushed my limit and I go off and say he's selfish and mean because he didn't even care how much he was hurting me he said I was mean and messed up for saying that and that he just wanted to spend time with me and I was the one in the wrong so I told him we should separate (like take a break but not divorce just work on being partners and parents before lovers) and again he said his classic line about how everything was okay earlier so why am I upset now and then the real kicker was he said we should try therapy and I said no because I've always asked and he always denied me and he said it's because they're expensive and that I never ask which doesn't make sense because if I don't ask why would he say no because their expensive it just upset me more and said I want a full divorce and now we're sleeping in separate rooms and he keeps bring me things like food and sending text about how much he loves me I feel kind of bad but also why now that I want to leave him does he decide to do nice things for me that shouldn't be how things work and I just don't know if I'm taking it too far by wanting leave him but I know I don't want to grow to hate my husband and I don't want my son to see that happen
Tldr: my husband is selfish and refused therapy we got into a big fight where I wanted to separate and now he suddenly wants therapy to work on us and keep us together and I'm not sure if I should stay and keep trying
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My husband and I have been married for little over a year and I know it seems silly to want to end a marriage so soon but I feel like we keep having the same fights and nothing will change. I want to provide some context. The biggest problem we are facing is communication, though we're also having issues with trust and follow through/commitment. He's not unfaithful or anything, but I don't want to be in a relationship where I can't rely on my partner. We fight frequently, and it always comes back to the same thing that he never listens to me. I put my dreams on hold to get a full time job at a call center because he wanted to quit his job and he said he knew what he wanted to do but ended up changing his mind and didn't work for months. I was pregnant and gave birth in June so he got a job to support us while I took leave. I ended up returning early from my maternity leave because he decided to quit the job he had because they didnt pay his overtime like they promised which I understand it's fucked up but to just suddenly quit made things hard for us. He wouldn't get a new job for a few months, but I still did a majority of the childcare and housework while working full time. I was also breastfeeding which made me really tired and my husband would complain about me not wanting to be intimate after doing all that work and claim it was because I thought he got fat and ugly which really didn't make sense. When I called him out on how much pressure he put on me he said it's my fault for breastfeeding and I shouldn't do it if I don't like it and then claimed that it was hard for him to help around the house because he had male post partum depression. I absolutely lost it with him and threatened to leave him if this continued so he finally started taking care of our son more for a while. Now he has a new job it's part time so he stopped helping with our son when I point this out he claims he's doing his part by working. I'm still working full time he also claims it's hard to take care of our son because he's so attached to me and doesn't care for his dad which isn't true our sons face literally lights up when he sees his dad come home from work. So I thought we could try therapy since what I was saying to him wasn't getting through. I told my husband and he flat out said no that he doesn't need help and if I want a therapist to just get one for myself at that time everything I've been holding in came out and he just got angry and said it was out of nowhere and that everything was fine yesterday why bring it up now but he ultimately agreed to look for a therapist. I thought this would mean looking to go nope it was just to look and for the past few months I've been asking him to go but he always refused I was tired of fighting with him about it and let it go. That was way more context than I planned on putting sorry but to the current issue we recently got into a fight where I called him selfish because this weekend is my birthday and he promised to spoil me well last night I was sore from working out the day before so I wanted to relax by watching my comfort show he gets home from work I had been home with our son all day so I asked him to watch our son he decides to just try to put him to bed and when he didn't go to bed claimed our son who ate before he came home must be hungry whatever I take our son back in my arms and hold him then my husband complains that he wants to play videogames since he just got off work I ask if I can finish my episode he acts whiny but let's it go then he starts complaining if we can just watch a movie he likes instead. Tired of hearing him whine about not getting to play or watch what he wants I let him watch his movie I mean my episode had 10 minutes but I guess that's just too long my son finally falls asleep so I put him to bed my husband wants to get intimate afterwards I ask for a massage because I'm sore and thought it'd be a win win I get a massage it leads to intimacy well I guess it was irritating to him to fulfill this request because he just presses his knuckles hard into my leg and it hurts a lot and I tell him and he would just say it's supposed to the muscles are sore so eventually I pull away from him and say I'm tired and want to go to bed he complains why don't I stay up and watch the movie with him and give him another chance with the massage but honestly it was so painful I'd just rather go to sleep he said I'd thank him in the morning and I should appreciate it well that just pushed my limit and I go off and say he's selfish and mean because he didn't even care how much he was hurting me he said I was mean and messed up for saying that and that he just wanted to spend time with me and I was the one in the wrong so I told him we should separate (like take a break but not divorce just work on being partners and parents before lovers) and again he said his classic line about how everything was okay earlier so why am I upset now and then the real kicker was he said we should try therapy and I said no because I've always asked and he always denied me and he said it's because they're expensive and that I never ask which doesn't make sense because if I don't ask why would he say no because their expensive it just upset me more and said I want a full divorce and now we're sleeping in separate rooms and he keeps bring me things like food and sending text about how much he loves me I feel kind of bad but also why now that I want to leave him does he decide to do nice things for me that shouldn't be how things work and I just don't know if I'm taking it too far by wanting leave him but I know I don't want to grow to hate my husband and I don't want my son to see that happen
Tldr: my husband is selfish and refused therapy we got into a big fight where I wanted to separate and now he suddenly wants therapy to work on us and keep us together and I'm not sure if I should stay and keep trying
2023.03.25 01:42 Candywolf494 Mold in our stores.
How long does corperate have to fix mold issues in the store. The air in our stockroom is stagnant and mold is now growing in several places in the store. . Yesterday, 3 of my coworkers broke out because of it while they were in the stockroom. Other stores in our district are dealing with it as well. honestly I'm wondering if our requests for cleaning are ignored by whoever does it, it walgreens will get in trouble.
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2023.03.25 01:42 JNerdGaming Game won't launch on Steam Deck
For whatever reason the game won't launch. I think it's crashing before it gets to the title screen. I tried uninstalling all my mods, as well as verifying the files, but that didn't help. It was working fine when I played it last weekend as well as earlier today when I was on my computer. I've installed some updates for the Steam Deck since then and I'm currently on the stable build. This also isn't happening for any of my other games. Does anyone have this issue as well or know how to fix it?
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2023.03.25 01:41 argv01 tidepool.org not getting G7 data?
I noticed that Tidepool is only getting G6 data, not G7. I emailed support about this, and they said they're working with Dexcom to get G7 data. But the dexcom developer's API clearly states that G7 data is delivered if you use the V3 API -- the older V2 API only get G6 data. Since tidepool has been around for so long, I assume they were using V2 at the time, and simply hasn't updated their software to use V3.
Just to how much work this requires, I did a quick search on github and noticed there are plenty of home-grown scripts that use V3 and get G7 data. Apparently, the differences between the two are simple enough that tidepool shouldn't have any problem simply using V3 (since all the V2 calls are supported).
So, the statement I got from their support guy was inaccurate--there's no need to "work with dexcom"--just use V3. When I said that in my last response, I no longer got responses.
Does anyone have any insight into what's going on with tidepool? This seems simple enough that I should have at least gotten a more coherent (and accurate) reply.
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Just to how much work this requires, I did a quick search on github and noticed there are plenty of home-grown scripts that use V3 and get G7 data. Apparently, the differences between the two are simple enough that tidepool shouldn't have any problem simply using V3 (since all the V2 calls are supported).
So, the statement I got from their support guy was inaccurate--there's no need to "work with dexcom"--just use V3. When I said that in my last response, I no longer got responses.
Does anyone have any insight into what's going on with tidepool? This seems simple enough that I should have at least gotten a more coherent (and accurate) reply.
2023.03.25 01:40 remyluna19 Why does my one cat attack the other whenever I’m trimming his nails?
My male cat doesn’t like it when I trim his nails. He squirms a bit, but nothing crazy. He’s not terrified or violent, but doesn’t enjoy it.
My question is regarding how my female cat responds when the male’s nails are getting trimmed. When I trim his nails and he started squirming she has attacked him (the last two times). Like actually attached him, not play fighting. Moving forward I’m going to separate the two when I trim his nails. I’m just looking for insight as to why she does this? She’s completely cooperative when I trim her nails btw, not the slightest protest. She’s a Russian blue if her breed matters
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My question is regarding how my female cat responds when the male’s nails are getting trimmed. When I trim his nails and he started squirming she has attacked him (the last two times). Like actually attached him, not play fighting. Moving forward I’m going to separate the two when I trim his nails. I’m just looking for insight as to why she does this? She’s completely cooperative when I trim her nails btw, not the slightest protest. She’s a Russian blue if her breed matters
2023.03.25 01:40 TrxshLxfe My (22M) boyfriend cheated on me (20F)
So my boyfriend (M 22) and I (F 20) have been together for a year and four months. Last night I told him I'm afraid he was going to leave me and then he says "No you got it wrong you're the one who should break up with me". So when he says this I already knew the feeling I felt months ago were true. He proceeded to tell me that he cheated 2 months ago with a girl 2 years older than him from work. I cussed him out multiple times but I was never hurt about finding out, I was just more disappointed than anything. Because he isn't the type of guy to do that and because his (Haitian) mom raised him better than that. We are bonded and the first time we "broke up" was because he thought I was cheating on him but we really didn't break up its like we're inseparable. So around 12pm I'm cussing him out even more and tell him he has to tell his mother because idk what to do and idk how to end it. His mom tells him she's disappointed in him and that what does the other girl have that I don't he said nothing, she proceeds to say that it was a night one stand and that she made a big mistake. She asks me what I wanted to do and I said honestly I don't want to restart a relationship and that I possibly want to stay and then she asks him what he wants to do and he says that he loves me and that he wants to remain together. Then his mom says that he should apologize with no tears and that he should ask god for forgiveness instead of me. What are you opinions?
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2023.03.25 01:39 Habbyy Why do the train dispatchers stop the N train from reaching 59th (Brooklyn) street to catch an R that is arriving at the same time?!?!
(After 5pm, I doubt this behavior occurs before 5pm)
This is starting to drive me nuts. 90% of the time I'm on an N train going towards Brooklyn, the train goes fast as usual up to 36th street. THEN, if the N train is going to reach the next stop (59th street) at the same time as the local Brooklyn Bound R, the train dispatchers (the ones that tell the trains to stop slow down etc) hold / slow down the N, just exactly enough to where you won't make the transfer off the N onto the R, you have to wait for the next one which is always 10-15 minutes away.
I have observed this behavior almost every single day. I double/triple check that there is no train traffic ahead (and I know this is the case because if there is train traffic the conductooperator says so and believe me they never say it in these situations lol).
It's happened to me 4/5 days this week, dispatch makes the conductor move very slow or straight up stops it from moving just enough so that the R will leave 59th before the N enters it. (Sometimes they mess up and the N enters while the R is still in there and they will straight up close the doors of the R and make it go before the N full arrives what the fuck!!!) Then I get to wait 10-15 minutes to take the R a couple of stops.
Here's the best part, it just happened to me again just now as usual. They made it move just slow enough so that you missed the transfer, so as I got off the N train pissed as fuck I was close to the conductor so I asked him:
"Why does dispatch force you to slow down /stop you from reaching the R train at 59th every single time???"
He looks me dead in the face and says "it's because we have lunatics working in dispatch" "I ask myself that same question every single day"
Now I know for a fucking fact that is exactly what dispatch is doing. I made a post about this 4 years ago on this Reddit account, and the fact that this behavior still goes on disgusts me. There's absolutely no reason for train dispatchers to be forcing conductors to not make transfers like what the fuck??? Cause of these dispatchers I'm waiting 10-20 minutes almost everyday for an R.
Just to be clear, I have absolutely no problem waiting for a train if I have to. My problem is the fact that they're essentially forcing you to always have a 10-20 minute wait, because guess what, if your N is arriving at 59th at the same time as an R, there's a good chance dispatch will force ur train to a halt or 5mph just long enough for the R to leave before N enters.
Last time I posted this, a few conductors were able to give some insight, something about the towers in that area being shady etc, but this has nothing to do with towers and red light signals. It is purely dispatch 90% will not allow an n to reach 59th same time as an R. Even the conductors have no clue why! I'm hoping people that have insight /work for mta could maybe possibly explain why the dispatchers are doing this.
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This is starting to drive me nuts. 90% of the time I'm on an N train going towards Brooklyn, the train goes fast as usual up to 36th street. THEN, if the N train is going to reach the next stop (59th street) at the same time as the local Brooklyn Bound R, the train dispatchers (the ones that tell the trains to stop slow down etc) hold / slow down the N, just exactly enough to where you won't make the transfer off the N onto the R, you have to wait for the next one which is always 10-15 minutes away.
I have observed this behavior almost every single day. I double/triple check that there is no train traffic ahead (and I know this is the case because if there is train traffic the conductooperator says so and believe me they never say it in these situations lol).
It's happened to me 4/5 days this week, dispatch makes the conductor move very slow or straight up stops it from moving just enough so that the R will leave 59th before the N enters it. (Sometimes they mess up and the N enters while the R is still in there and they will straight up close the doors of the R and make it go before the N full arrives what the fuck!!!) Then I get to wait 10-15 minutes to take the R a couple of stops.
Here's the best part, it just happened to me again just now as usual. They made it move just slow enough so that you missed the transfer, so as I got off the N train pissed as fuck I was close to the conductor so I asked him:
"Why does dispatch force you to slow down /stop you from reaching the R train at 59th every single time???"
He looks me dead in the face and says "it's because we have lunatics working in dispatch" "I ask myself that same question every single day"
Now I know for a fucking fact that is exactly what dispatch is doing. I made a post about this 4 years ago on this Reddit account, and the fact that this behavior still goes on disgusts me. There's absolutely no reason for train dispatchers to be forcing conductors to not make transfers like what the fuck??? Cause of these dispatchers I'm waiting 10-20 minutes almost everyday for an R.
Just to be clear, I have absolutely no problem waiting for a train if I have to. My problem is the fact that they're essentially forcing you to always have a 10-20 minute wait, because guess what, if your N is arriving at 59th at the same time as an R, there's a good chance dispatch will force ur train to a halt or 5mph just long enough for the R to leave before N enters.
Last time I posted this, a few conductors were able to give some insight, something about the towers in that area being shady etc, but this has nothing to do with towers and red light signals. It is purely dispatch 90% will not allow an n to reach 59th same time as an R. Even the conductors have no clue why! I'm hoping people that have insight /work for mta could maybe possibly explain why the dispatchers are doing this.