I ask this because I feel a personal and emotional attachment toward our players, as a fan. For instance, I root for our guys in life, not just on the field, and I get defensive way more than the average fan does if someone talks shit about our guys. I'm the guy that was crying when Patterson put that FG through the uprights in the South End zone to beat the Chargers, and when Josh Allen returned the fumble for a TD in the Titans game. I'm just so proud of our boys when they succeed and hurt for them too when they fail.
Another example of this, where I feel like my emotional investment laid dividends is during the Chargers game. My wife and I sat in our seats at halftime, freezing our asses off, looking at each other asking if we were having fun. We both agreed that we weren't (as that shitty band was blasting over-the-top positive music out during the halftime concert), but we literally said "these boys just gave us the best regular season we've ever seen. They don't want to be getting their teeth kicked in, as much as we don't want them to be getting their teeth kicked in. We OWE it to them to support their, clap for them, and root them on when times are hard, because they just gave it their all over the past 9 weeks for us." That was the speech my wife and I gave each other before the 2nd half, and we sat there, and by God, they pulled it off. I wanted to go onto the fields and do flips with Etienne! It was euphoria.
I love the Jaguars. Who here can relate and who can't? I'd love to hear thoughts on this. I have friends look at me sideways when I say things like this.

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I came across the post 2019 Fantasy Bingo Card Using Eurovision Songs (yes, seriously) by u/improperly_paranoid and as it is still Eurovision month, despite Eurovision 2023 ending 2 weeks ago I was curious to see if I could make this work for the Bingo 2023 card and Eurovision 2023 songs because it seemed like fun.
For those not in the know, Eurovision is an annual song contest where participating countries send an entry to compete for the opportunity to host the competition the following year and show off about their culture, it's a lot of fun, very camp and participating countries get to vote for the results. This year for the first time voting was expanded to non participating countries such as: the United States, Canada, Kosovo, Luxembourg, New Zealand, Mexico, Hungary, Slovakia, UAE, Turkey, and Chile. This interval performance of Love Love Peace Peace should give you a better idea of what it is all about. Eurovision often has fantastical elements, such as a woman floating in space above the Earth, an inflating lightning dress, not to mention funky video game inspired entries, and even a stick figure imaginary friend.
I think I've made my point, anyway if anyone doesn't know what Fantasy Bingo is then check it out! It's a yearly challenge to encourage diversifying your reading, I had a lot of fun with it last year and the community aspect is great for gathering ideas for themed cards, asking about if a book fits and seeing what everyone recommends.
Rule 1: Once a country has been used for a square it cannot be reused
Rule 2: Only songs and performers from Eurovision 2023 are eligible

Now, the Squares.

First Row
Title with a Title: Future Lover - Brunette (Armenia), although Queen of Kings would also work here I need it for...
Superheroes: Queen of Kings - Alessandra (Norway), I mean look at that cape! If she isn't a superhero I don't know who is.
Bottom of the TBR: I Wrote A Song - Mae Muller (United Kingdom), Mae performed as the final act in the Grand Final so was literally the performance we'd been waiting for the longest. Alternatively Luxembourg, who are returning to the competition in 2024 after a 30 year absence.
Magical Realism: Bridges - Alika (Estonia), a piano that plays itself.
Young Adult: Breaking My Heart - Reiley (Denmark), very bright and feels like it has a younger target audience.
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Second Row
Mundane Jobs: Who the Hell is Edgar? - Teyas & Salena (Austria), about singers and a dead writer ghostwriting.
Published in the 00s: What They Say - Victor Vernicos (Greece), okay obviously none of these songs are published in the 00s because that goes against Eurovision rules, however singer songwriter Victor is 16 years old...Yes this is an age joke, he's the youngest singer in the competition this year and he was born in the 00s. Plenty of other contestants for this year are born in the 2000s as well, including Brunette.
Angels and Demons: Blood & Glitter - Lord of the Lost (Germany), no blatant angel/demon iconography this year so I had to stretch the definition a bit, with this song embodying the notion that everyone has both angelic and demonic characteristics. Serbia's song does namedrop the Devil, but I need that song for later.
Five Short Stories: Flag Parade featuring short live performances from previous highly successful Ukrainian acts, showcasing the history of Ukraine in Eurovision interspersed with UK songs due to the UK hosting on behalf of Ukraine.
Horror: Like An Animal - Piqued Jacks (San Marino), this song might come the closest to straight up horror this year because of the lyrical content, alternatively this staging may qualify Romania's entry for this square.
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Third Row
Self-Published: Carpe Diem - Joker Out (Slovenia), as far as I could tell only this song and Future Lover - Brunette (Armenia) are self-published this year.
Set in SWANA Country: Tell Me More - TuralTuranX (Azerbaijan), this source explicitly mentions Armenia and Azerbaijan.
Published in 2023: Promise - Voyager (Australia), this is a freebie since they are all published in 2023. Check it out, this band knows how to put on a show.
Multiverse/Alternate Realities: Eaea - Blanca Paloma (Spain), again I'm stretching a bit here, but this song does have a very otherworldly feel to it.
POC Author: Heart of Steel - TVORCHI (Ukraine), Jimoh Kehinde was born in Nigeria.
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Fourth Row
Book Club or Readalong: Cha Cha Cha - Käärijä (Finland), the song everyone is watching on youtube, it currently has the most views of all the live performances of the 2023 show, with 15 million views.
Novella: Mama ŠČ! - Let 3 (Croatia), the shortest song this year according to youtube. Also Croatia did get to the Grand Final, but their semi-final performance video on youtube is shorter for some reason.
Mythical Beasts: Unicorn - Noa Kirel (Israel), it's even HM
Elemental Magic: Break A Broken Heart - Andrew Lambrou (Cyprus), the most elemental mage in Eurovision 2023, we get a waterfall, rain and fire. Shoutouts to Romania for their firey performance and Georgia and Estonia for their water iconography.
Myths and Retellings: Soarele şi Luna - Pasha Parfeni (Moldova), use of multiple folklore characters with the lyrics written by Pasha's wife Yuliana about a beautiful marriage, you could definitely argue this is a retelling of their own love story.
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Fifth Row
Queernorm Setting: Because of You - Gustaph (Belgium), a camp song described by Gustaph as "an ode to the queer community".
Coastal or Island Setting: Solo - Blanka (Poland), features a coastal background.
Druids: Power - Diljá (Iceland), she's got plant powers.
Featuring Robots: Samo mi se spava - Luke Black (Serbia), a lot of video game iconography, very moody atmosphere and a big robot boss to fight. TVORCHI's Heart of Steel also fits here.
Sequel: Tattoo - Loreen (Sweden), a surprising amount of songs work for sequel, as we had 6 returning performers from previous Eurovisions/Junior Eurovision including Pasha Parfeni (Moldova), Marco Mengoni (Italy), Monika Linkytė (Lithuania), Gustaph (Belgium), Iru (Georgia). But Loreen fits best here, as she returns from winning Eurovision 2012 with Euphoria to win again in Eurovision 2023. Making her the second person to win Eurovision twice.
With a few stretches to make a Bingo challenge meant for books work for songs, it sort of worked. How about that.

Hey folks! I don't mean to exploit the community you've built here for personal gain, but I've recently played Fallout Dust and it had an absurd amount of overlap with the commercial indie project I'm working on! If you find survival games in thematically rich worlds compelling, or like engaging with New Vegas-esque interactive narrative roleplaying, I'm a developer creating a game tailor-suited to your tastes. I hope to explore the artistic medium of game design by creating difficult games which plumb the depths of the human condition through both triage and suffering, and Ild like to share my work with all of you!
The game is called Yuma Will Burn-
Yuma Will Burn is an experimental narrative survival game where choices have long-lasting story and mechanical consequences. Harsh survival mechanics exist alongside a dynamically changing narrative in an uncaring and sadistic world of triage, poverty, and fear.
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I encourage you to check out and wishlist the game with the link above. I'm a biased party, but I think it's worth your time

Primary complaint: Even very mild exertion sends my heart rate spiking alarmingly high.
Biographics: white, 5'11, 175lb
Existing Diagnosis: Depression and anxiety, as well as sleep apnea, but otherwise very healthy
Medications: propranolol, venlafaxine, buproprion, finasteride, pantoprozole (note that my issue has existed prior to taking any of these). The apnea is treated with a CPAP machine. I drink in moderation, and have taken up nicotine vaping in the last two years.
The Story
I had a very sedentary childhood, but in my early 20s I decided I wanted to get fit. I was hitting the gym 3-5 times a week, coupled with outdoor runs ~2 a week. I encountered a problem: any activity would tend to leave me feeling dizzy, tense (like my blood pressure was very high), and kind of faint. Running, in particular, seemed to trigger it. I figured this was a natural part of getting into shape, and I persevered, for years. I got a lot stronger, but my stamina never kept pace. In all that time, my single greatest athletic achievement was managing to run a treadmill exactly one mile, which I did exactly once; I felt like it damn near killed me to do so.
After a few years of this, I decided that this was not normal. I started seeing doctors, but I feel like I was not quite taken seriously. Here were the findings:
Cardiologist: After giving my complaint to my GP, he referred me to a cardiologist. There I was administered a treadmill test. His analysis was that I was just out of shape, with a demeanor that suggested he felt I was wasting his time.
Sports Medicine: After another period of trying to "get in shape", I sought out a sports medicine GP as I figured the problem might be up their alley. There I was administered another treadmill test, this time with respiratory equipment attached. His analysis was that something was really weird; as he described it, my "primary energy system" never activated, and my body was in running-on-fumes mode from the get-go. He actually remarked that it was impressive that I was able to endure as long as I did in that state. His recommendation was to take up cycling or a stationary bike, and aim to stay in a mid-range heartrate (130-150 bpm, IIRC) for 40 minutes.
I acquired a stationary bike, and adopted this practice a few times a week, eventually working my way up to an hour. I needed a fairly gentle pace to stay in this range, and while my endurance at this task in particular did improve, it did not seem to have any spillover benefits to anything else.
Other Data Point: Orange Theory: Orange Theory is a trendy gym chain which provides guided group classes. I started attending 1-2 times a week around age 30. Part of its schtick is everyone wearing heartrate monitoring equipment, with large monitors around the room displaying color-coded dashboards of where everyone is at. I was always extremely standout, the lone red-colored 180-190 bpm during a warmup exercise. I could rarely finish a full 50-minute class, often having to spend a quarter to a third of it outside desperately trying to cool down enough to continue.
At age 33, I moved to Denver, and the lower oxygen levels hit me hard. Between the increased difficulty and frustration over not feeling any progress after a decade of effort, I ended up abandoning any regular exercise routine.
I have discussed all of the above with my current GP, and her suggestion was anxiety; I've been on a regular dosage of propranolol since then, but it hasn't provided any benefit in this space.
This problem naturally spills over to sexual exertion. A recently particularly intense and exhausting experience had me thinking that I don't want to have a heart attack or something while I'm with a partner. I had recently tried a one-hour beginner yoga class, but I had to spend half of it on the mat resting, as I kept getting too weak and faint to keep up.
I'm willing to try to pick up an exercise routine again; I just want to be able to feel like I'm actually making progress, rather than just becoming more mentally girded to push through all the blaring warning signs my body is giving me.
If you are still reading this, thank you. If there's anything at all that you know that might be to help me understand this, it would mean so much to me.

Hey I'm new here and idk my thoughts flies hehe

This is a lyrical adaptation of a song recorded by Tommy Dorsey And His Orchestra, which was released on Dial-A-Song, and later released on Then: The Earlier Years. How do you feel about this song? What are some of your favorite lyrics? Are there any live versions or demos you like? How would you rank it among the rest of the band's discography? How would you rate it out of 10 (decimals allowed)?
https://youtu.be/yD7i7qFxHTA
SUGGESTED SCALE: 1-4: Not good. Regularly skip. 5: It's okay, but I might have to be in the right mood to listen to it. 6: Slightly better than average. I won't skip it, but I wouldn't choose to put it on. 7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit. 8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall. 10: Masterpiece, magnus opus, or similar terminology
Rating Results

1. Ana Ng: 9.70
2. Cowtown: 9.11
3. Lie Still, Little Bottle: 8.10
4. Purple Toupee: 8.99
5. Cage And Aquarium: 7.64
6. Where Your Eyes Don't Go: 9.60
7. Piece Of Dirt: 7.54
8. Mr. Me: 8.68
9. Pencil Rain: 7.50
10. The World's Address: 7.72
11. I've Got A Match: 8.75
12. Santa's Beard: 7.40
13. You'll Miss Me: 6.42
14. They'll Need A Crane: 9.33
15. Shoehorn With Teeth: 8.87
16. Stand On Your Head: 7.73
17. Snowball In Hell: 9.17
18. Kiss Me, Son Of God: 9.59
19. It's Not My Birthday: 9.26
20. I'll Sink Manhattan: 8.44
21. Nightgown Of The Sullen Moon: 9.45
22. Hey Mr. DJ, I Thought You Said We Had A Deal: 9.47
23. Lady Is A Tramp: 7.07
24. Birds Fly: 7.22
25. The World's Address (Joshua Fried Remix): 5.66
26. Hello Radio: 5.53
27. Weep Day: 9.21
28. The Big Big Whoredom: 5.69
29. I'm Gettin' Sentimental Over You:

[June 2013]
On the Thursday following our return from Wyoming, my mother called me out of the blue to let me know she had forgotten to mention that my first cousin would be getting married soon...Soon, like that weekend. Saturday. The day after tomorrow. I told her there was no way we would get approved for leave within that amount of time. A leave request would have been denied anyway since we had literally just returned from Wyoming only a week ago.
We were 2 weeks away from our first anniversary, and nobody in my family had met my husband yet. My mom suggested it would be the only chance for me to see my whole family under one roof, and an opportunity to introduce Devon to absolutely everybody. All at once. Every single individual I had been painting horror scenes about to him would be at that wedding, eager to meet the guy Heather ran away to Mississippi with after only 3 months of knowing him.
I'm sure he will love that.
Just the thought of having to see Alan face to face again after our last encounter made my stomach curl. I could tolerate everybody else in my family, but I really dreaded having to formally introduce Devon to my asshole step father. Devon and Alan already hated each other, and they haven't even met yet.
I did want to take the opportunity to see my cousin and uncle again though. I really would like to introduce them to Devon.
My cousin is 8 years older than I am, and he had joined the military straight out of high school as well. I hadn't seen him in over 4 years. His name is Tyler, and he was from the minority side of my family that wasn't brainwashed. His father, Mike (my mom's brother, and my favorite uncle) raised Tyler to question everything and to never take anything at face value. Quite the opposite of my mother's approach to parenthood.
My mom has 2 brothers: Mike and Mark. Nana, Mom, Mark, Mark's wife, and all of his kids dove deep into religion. Mike and Tyler hung out on the shore of sanity and watched as their delusional family sank deeper into their cultish beliefs.
Tyler was the first person to insinuate to me that my mother and the rest of our family was a little batshit crazy. Anytime the family was around the holiday dinner table, someone, of course, would mention something off the wall about "god's love". Tyler and Mike would chuckle. Although they were the only two atheists in a large group of religious wackados, they were never afraid to rebuttal the family's goofy idea of god's grace. I always sat quietly observing as the family would get worked up and tongue tied.
Uncle Mike is highly educated in bible history, but also well educated in science and common fucking sense. He has always held his ground well in his religious debates. He made some pretty good points, and my family wasn't great at defending their beliefs. The things Mike said presented me with a completely opposing perspective from the echo chamber I had been surrounded by my whole life.
It would probably be another 4 years before I'd have the chance to see them together again. While we're visiting them, why not rip the Band-Aid off and introduce Devon to everyone else at once? It would absolutely be overwhelming and disappointing, but I think that's with anything relating to family.
The wedding would be held on Saturday evening in Nashville, Tennessee, about 8 hours from our home in Mississippi. We could leave Mississippi early in the morning, drive 8 hours to see the wedding, and still make it back in time for Devon to return to work on Monday, but goddamn, I really didn't want to spend any more hours in the passenger seat.
Devon had never been to Tennessee before, and I was not looking forward to going back so soon. We reluctantly told my mother that we would find a way to make it work, but we wouldn't be able to stay long. I don't understand how somebody who hates weddings as much as I do managed to experience 3 of those motherfuckers in less than a span of a year, but here we go on another goddamn road trip.

My kids qre clinging to me at a top tier level. I called my MIL to help me. I am so embarrassed. I pretty much explained that I kinda just need her to be here qnd sort of pretend to clean because I need a body double. Idk if she is understands but she's on her way. I spent 2 hours cleaning my 6x6 foot bathroom because it's either do nothing at all or everything like taking off faucets and cleaning the grout. I'm just having a serious pity party. Why did the mental illness gods bless me with adhd. Why can't I be a full functioning adult who just maintains instead of piles. Why do I get overwhelmed by sounds and smells and textures. Why can't I just load the dishwasher and not freak out because something in the dishwasher smells (the filter, I know). Just, why did it have to be me.
Welcome to my pity party. Party hats are on the table left, the earplugs are on the table to the right and I have supplies for all kinds of hyperfocuss so help yourself.

Hey fellow Redditors, I hope you're all having a great day! As someone who's been on the B2B scene for a while now, I wanted to share a little something that's recently taken my interest, and frankly, has blown my socks off. We've all been there, trying to find leads, nurture them, get them to commit to a call or a meeting—it's the bread and butter of B2B, but man, can it be a slog sometimes. Not to mention the time and effort it takes to build effective campaigns. Well, I have been working on a solution. I've taken the classic B2B lead generation process and given it a bit of an AI twist. I've designed a service that handles the entire process—yes, the whole enchilada. From building a tailored campaign, identifying those elusive high-potential leads, reaching out to them over email, and nurturing them until they're ready for a sales call, we've got you covered. The best part? This isn't just a faceless, robotic process. Our AI is designed to engage with leads in a conversational, human-like way. It's all about creating meaningful interactions that build trust and relationships with your potential customers. And you know what's even better? We handle it all. It's a fully done-for-you service, so you can focus on what you do best—running your business, while we bring the leads to you. Now, I'm not here to hard sell anyone (that's against the Reddit rules, and I'm a firm believer in respecting the community). But I genuinely think this is something that could help a lot of us out here. If this piques your interest, we're offering demo calls to showcase the system in action. It's a no-pressure chat, just to give you a sense of how it works and how it could help you streamline your lead gen process. Just comment below or DM me if you're interested in setting up a time for a demo call. I'm excited to show you the ropes and answer any questions you might have. Anyway, thanks for reading. Even if you're not interested in a demo, I'd love to hear what you think about this AI-infused future of B2B lead generation. Cheers, Your Friendly AI Enthusiast

For as long as I can remember my dad has been really into Ferraris. It is the one car he would consider his dream vehicle despite having driven some really great ones in his life. When I was about 7 years old, back before I knew anything about the world or finance, I made him a promise on his birthday that I'd get him his Ferrari and I really want to make that happen for him in this lifetime.
I am currently about to begin my medical residency very soon (I have graduated med school), and because I have been very blessed to have parents that have placed the education of their children as a priority, I don't have any financial debt. I received a few scholarships throughout my life which have also always kept costs of tuition low. I am someone that absolutely enjoys the finer things in life but I'm not someone that has ever had the mentality of wanting to keep up with the Jones'. I see money mainly as something that I can use to make the lives of those around me better and as something that gives me a safety net to approach the things I enjoy without having to worry about the future and putting food on the table. As such, even though I can afford a nice car now, I have no issues driving a 2008 Lexus IS F since it means no car payments. Residency also means I won't have time for vacations and I am currently not married and have no children. I do plan to have a family in the future but I would prefer to do a lot of my 'hard intensive saving/investing' now so that life is smooth sailing for my future family as it has always been for me growing up too. I understand there is no way I will be able to afford a Ferrari in a financially responsible way in the next few years but I would like a realistic idea of what kind of numbers you need to be looking at in your bank account before you can think about making that purchase.
I see anything luxury (clothes, car, shoes, accessories, watches and vacations) as something you should never ever go into debt for. It should only be done when you have the cash for it and even financing should only be considered if you have a low APR (lower than S&P) and you already have the cash for it *anyway* . I plan to go into a Gastroenterology fellowship after Internal Medicine (residency) - since I presume there must be lots of doctors here in this forum - so how do you decide if ~$400k should go to a car or should go to something else like another property, index fund, mutual fund or perhaps into something else? I love motorsports and have a sim racing setup so I get my driving fun there and on the karting track but I would eventually like to get myself a dream car as well but this Ferrari will take priority for me. A lot of the Ferraris I love are now no longer in production like the 360 CS and the 458 Speciale so the market value on them is higher than a most newer models. Is there anything to keep in mind or any tricks I can utilise to make this process easier and shorter? It isn't a weight that hangs above my head but I also wouldn't like to wait another 30 years to do this because my father won't live forever.
Thank you all for the help and I hope you're all enjoying your prancing ponies in good health!

Hello petite white F here. I have Snapchat so can verify myself there. I enjoy anime, cooking, outdoors & travel. I'm hoping to meet a kind guy who's caring and fun. I have lived in the USA for 2 years but I am European.

Hey, fellow Redditors! I need some advice and guidance on exploring my clothing choices and self-expression, and I'd love to hear your thoughts and experiences.
Lately, I've been feeling a strong desire to wear clothes that align with my inner self, but I'm finding it challenging to navigate this journey. Clothing can be a powerful form of self-expression, and I want to embrace styles that make me feel authentic and comfortable.
However, I'm encountering some hurdles along the way. Social conditioning and internalized beliefs about gender roles have made it difficult for me to embrace the clothes I'd like to wear fully. I also worry about the potential judgment or rejection from others.
I'm reaching out to the Reddit community to seek advice and support. If you have gone through a similar experience or have insights to share, I would greatly appreciate your input. Here are a few questions to kick-start the conversation:

1. How did you navigate societal expectations and internalized beliefs when exploring your clothing choices?
2. What steps did you take to overcome the fear of judgment or rejection from others?
3. Are there any resources, communities, or support groups that you found particularly helpful in your journey?
4. Any tips for gradually incorporating the clothing styles you desire into your everyday life?
5. How did you prioritize self-care and emotional well-being throughout this process?

Please feel free to share your personal stories, advice, or any resources you think might be helpful. I'm open to hearing diverse perspectives and eager to learn from your experiences.
Thank you in advance for your support and insights. Let's have a constructive and compassionate discussion!

I (25 NB) had recently told my best friend (27 M) of 6 years that I still had feelings for him. We dated in 2019, but ultimately parted ways amicably because I moved to another state. We both moved on and had our own lives for a while where we didn't talk as much. He came to visit me and we ended up sleeping together the entire time he was there and it felt as if no time had really passed. It brought up a lot of feeling that I was too scared to communicate so I let him go. He didn't talk to me as much and I figured it had made him feel uncomfortable or confused so I gave him space. I ended up meeting someone and ended up married. I was unhappy in the marriage and found out that that person had been cheating the whole time. Around the time I found this out my friend and I reconnected. He became my confidant and I told him everything. Our conversation after my divorce finalized turned flirty and we talked about the things we left unsaid during his trip to visit me the few years before. I was led to believe that he still felt confused, but he was just scared of the long distance. From August of 2022 to now May of 2023 we had been flirting and I occasionally would send him nudes when asked. I planned a trip to go see him because I had been recently SA'd on a date of which I confided in him. I told him that I missed him and wanted to see him and talk face to face for once. I didn't really see him the whole time I was there because he said he had work.The first night I was there he came to my AirBnB to hang out got a little and when he came in I was in the shower. He walked in washed his hands and said "Hey how are you" and I laughed and was like "Hey, nice to see you sorry I'm in the shower otherwise I'd hug you, but im almost done" and he laughed and said "I like seeing you like this" and then leaned in real quick to give me a kiss on the lips and said he'd just wait on the couch for me.We cuddled and watched Tv and we were laughing and he kept groping my breast and kissing me. He left because he had work the next day, but as he was leaving kissed me a few times and then lifted my shirt and kissed my breasts a bunch and said ill talk to you later i missed you. I asked him on a dinner date for when he was off work and he didn't text me until it was super late so we just drove around town. The next day we go exploring for museums and at dinner he's talking about this fwb situation he has with his coworker and asking if it makes him a bad person for intentionally stringing the person a long. I said yeah kind of I think you should be honest with people about how you feel about them or what you want from them. It was a bit of awkward silence, but I knew I had to say it otherwise the whole trip would feel like a waste. So, I told him how I felt and had been feeling for a long time and asked him what he thought. He was like a deer in headlights and just kept repeating "I don't know" and "yeah that's a lot that you've given me to think about". So, I told him well look I know this is a lot, but like just talk to me tell me what you're thinking and let's figure it out together. He just clammed up and it was awkward the rest of the dinner. He came back to the AirBnB I was staying at and we cuddled on the couch and I asked him if he wanted to talk more and again gave me the deer in headlights look. So, I just told him "It's okay dude you don't have to have all the answers right now just know that I love you and care about you and first and foremost your my best friend we can take our time yknow". So, we just kept cuddling, but that turned to kissing and he got horny. So, we ended up having sex and before we started I kept asking "are you sure" "please don't continue if you think you're gonna regret it" "for me this means something" and he just replied "I won't regret it I promise". Immediately after I could tell something was wrong and he asked if I had like hand sanitizer to put on his penis. I just stood there and I started to tear up and said "Do you regret it already?" and he said "What no I'm just really scared about catching something because the guy that raped you" and I started fully crying and he tried to get me to look at him and kept saying "oh God did I say something wrong" "Please look at me I'm sorry". We sat on the couch and he hugged me and kept trying to get me to talk while I cried. I finally told him that he made me feel dirty and like I was damaged goods and I just don't want him to regret it all or inadvertently push him away somehow because I was scared of losing my best friend. That I didn't wanna be just another one of his fuck buddies that he's intentionally stringing along. He kept saying "I would never do that to you" "I've always been honest with you" and "Im sorry I don't have the answers you need right now it's just a lot to take in and think about". Then he had to leave because he had work the next day. I asked him if I'd see him again and he was like yeah of course. I didn't see him the next day and he barely talked to me which only added to the anxiety that I had somehow fucked everything up. Then the next day, since it was my last day there, he asks if I wanna go to dinner at some fancy steakhouse he likes. We go and eat after he gets off. We joke around, but deep down I feel like something is off but I try to swallow that feeling. Then we went back to my AirBnB and cuddled up on the couch. He ended up falling asleep laying on my chest while I was playing with his hair. He woke up and said he had to go because of work the next day so we hugged and kissed, but before he left I asked if we were okay and he said "yeah why?" and I said "well, did you think anything more about the stuff we talked about and again the deer in headlights look and he said "um... no. I kinda put it on pause in my brain and tucked it away. I'm sorry" and I just said "it's okay I promise, but like please don't just pretend it never happened because that'll hurt" and he was like "of course not". So, he texted me that he got home safe and he said "Cuddling with you felt really nice" and I said "Yeah, is there any chance I'll see you before I have to go to the airport?" and he was like " um.. probably not I don't see being able to see you before I have to head to work because I usually don't get ready until a few minutes before" so I said "okay was just wondering if I'd get to say an actual good bye so I guess this is the good bye lol" and he said "I'm sorry we didn't get to talk more and see eachother as much" and I said "I promise it's okay I'll just have to back up some other time". So, I get home and I'm still feeling like sad and confused. I get a random anonymous message telling me to "back off of him" so I freak out and try asking about it. I ask again "are you sure you're not seeing anyone?" and he said "no I just have fwb I don't even know how they would know you were here I didn't even tell anyone except my coworkers and idk anyone vindictive like that" and as I'm trying to go through and figure out who it might be myself I come across an engagement announcement... from September 2021. I scroll through and some of the dates on their announcement are times that we were definitely flirting back and forth. So, I panick and say "well, hold on wtf is that dude you never told me you got engaged" and he says "oh God yeah don't message that one let me figure this out on my end" and I said "R... Are you engaged?" and his little chat bubble pops up and dissappear a few times before I get the message back of "I am but it's rocky right now" and I say "are you fucking kidding me wtf do you mean by rocky?" and he says "well I know she's cheated on me" and I say "well does she know you know or know that you've been sleeping with a bunch of other people?!" and he says "No she doesn't" and I say "are you kidding me right now? why would you be with someone if all you're gonna do is cheat on eachother" and he said "that's why I couldn't give you any answers" and I said "R.. how could you? I asked you multiple times if you were with anyone romantically ... so you lied to my face?" and he says "I did" and "I said I thought you were my friend I thought I could trust you I fucking loved you dude like how could you" and he just went on to be like this is the life I chose we're so different now and you're not what I want anymore and I was like well why couldn't you just tell me that and he was like I was afraid of losing you and I was like this is my worst fucking nightmare this is the worst way you could have possibly have handled this and I asked "So you only want me to be your friend and nothing else right?" and he goes "yes and I'm sorry" and I just said "fine but as your friend and someone who cares for you so much I'm telling you right now you need to cut your bullshit. Cut off all these fuck buddies and talk to your fiancé for fucks sake. Don't do what my husband did To me and make that girl look stupid for trusting you just like you just did to me" and he just started begging me not to tell anyone "Please don't tell her please it'll ruin my life and everything I've built for myself the last few years" and I said "honestly you should have thought about that and you should be the one to tell her" and he says "please ill do anything" and I said "be honest" and he begged more saying "it would ruin his family and hers and I just texted back "I can't do this ... I can't fucking talk to you anymore this is literally making me sick to my stomach I'm sorry" and I went through and blocked him on everything. I feel so fucking depressed and nauseous. I was betrayed, lied to, and used by my best friend and confidant of 6 years. I don't know what hurts more that someone I loved so much lied to me for apparently years or that I lost like my only fucking friend. I don't really know what to do now or how to get over this. I just wanna curl up and dissappear because I'm so tired of being used and lied to by the people I trust. I just wanna be able to trust and rely on the people I care about.

hey my name is summer i am 16 years old and i'm from Canada i'm looking for some long term friend, my hobbies are baking, acting, painting, and anime.
i'm really shy at first but once you get to know me i can talk more. I do my best to help others and will be here to listen
pms are open

Primary Symptoms: Hairloss, Hiruitisim, (and one point acne but I did a round of accutane and have been fine on that front).. I noticed all of these started to develop around 3 years ago.) .
Never had issues with my period until this past year and even still it was just a few episodes of very light spotting between cycles.
I just had bloodwork done and my Labs came back fine..- Thyroid: good.- A1C: perfect- hormones all within normal ranges.- the only thing that came up was Vitamin D and B12 being low.
- I've also been under significant stress and mental health issues for... ever..(chronic) I talked to him about being worried with how that could be playing apart in it all as well.
BUT my doctor pointed out that I'm in this weird grey zone with DHEA (136). He said Above 200 is definite PCOS.. and below 100 is definitely not... but because I'm at 136 and my primary concerns.. he said I wasn't his only patient struggling with it but admitted we were a group he wasn't sure how to help. It would really just be trial and error with various treatments.
Spironolactone wasn't effective. (I think it could have been the culprit causing the spotting)
He mentioned a potential cause of something being converted too quickly... Does anyone know what that or other causes could be and how I should go about methodically trying to figure out the cause and proper treatment?
I don't want to do anything that just slaps a bandaid on the symptom..(which I admittedly felt like spiro was trying to do)... I'd rather treat it.. holistically. (I also don't want to be on a longterm med that suppresses the symptom while at the same time destroying something else like my heart or liver. another reason i didn't like spiro was that if the spotting was a side effect then it was creating issues that were throwing off my ability to read my body. i.e thinking I suddenly had irregular period, another new symptoms, which means somethings wrong, only to learn the rx caused it.. )
\I was fine with the internal hiroshima bombing of accutane because it was a short term treatment*.*

1. As of right now I'm adjusting my vitamin supplements and going to try Saw Palmetto.....Should I wait a few months to see how the vitamin adjustment effects anything or jump into the SP?...
2. if that dosn't work what should I try next? Isn't finastride technically the the same as Saw palmetto?

(tried to ask on women's health but no response..Hoping someone can offer more insight here.)

Well, I reached a new low this last week. I am a father of three now and have had limited time to play the last few months. I just got my placements for the season, and due to being away for so long, and playing on a old TV that make it feel like I'm playing underwater, I played terribly and was placed Dia 3. And playing Dia - low Champ lobbies after not being there for so long is nuts, this is the most toxic player base I have experienced in a long time.
I almost lost my dang mind yesterday. I had SEVERAL games where both teammates would just cycle out completely, where even when I would good plays to get the ball in front of the net, they would both be halfway across the map trying to find boost. I even had one teammate sit in our net. That's right Dia three, player was SITTING IN OUR NET PLAYING GOALIE from the first kickoff. From this point on it felt like every game I either had good players that felt like 'I could see these guys being champ', to 'holy crap how is this guy here, he can't even tell there are two other people on his team'. I don't get it. I could tell within 30 second if the game was a win or loss just off of the first 30 seconds of play because of the skill gap between my teammates was so large game to game. I had two games where someone either quit or lagged out, and we did better and won both games with the lack of liability that 3rd man created and I could just chase.
Its a insane mix of 'I can hit ceiling shots and flip resets', and 'let me just clear this corner ball right across the field in front of our net', then when I miss the save or I can't get back after you flub the clear, the goal is my fault. I feel like the idiot because I play position based on where they should be hitting the ball (going up field as the 2nd man, or hanging back as the 3rd man), but every play it feels like I'm still out of position because if I hang to close nobody will cover back (3rd man not there), and if I hang back the ball gets cleared in the the middle of the field (2nd man not there) and I am forced to try to make the save sitting in net. I finally went monkey brain and just started chasing hard, banging in downfield and getting my own rebounds, I hate myself but my win percentage has gone up and im sitting in C1 div 3 now, and ill hit C2 probably in the next few days.
I don't normally listen when people complain about divisions. But my God, Diamond is a special kinda hell to climb out of. Good day.