It's always 3am. No matter what I take, I'll be woken up with cramps around 3am. Sometimes mild, sometimes horrendous, either way, I'll be up. It's been over a week man whyyy
Are you also a 3am goblin? It's starting to feel like an outside force from the universe 🫠

Seriously like I'm so bored of war thunder right now because every game is just, the same map, with the same weather etc.
Like at least add more cloud options. Can you imagine playing on like overcast days? It would add yet another layer of strategy to dog fights, boom and zoom etc. Just the most basic thin cloud cover and you could have shit like this actually happening in game, or if I'm getting my ass handed to me in a dogfight instead of just diving and tryna out speed them I could fly into a giant cloud, losing them in that instead.
And that's just for clouds, imagine like rain or thunderstorms? Idk how it works irl but weather could play a role in how missiles work, or something idk lol. And the same goes for time! I know flying with the sun in your eyes is annoying but Jesus can they at least make night/dusk games more common? The game looks fucking beautiful then!
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This game just needs variety, outside "look you're in a desert now, omg look now it's over gm_flatgrass!". Out of my 400+ hours on this game, I've had 1 that from memory had clouds that played a role in the game, at it was absolutely amazing.
But no, every map has to be a fucking windows XP wallpaper.

Let's recap the main things that happened this week:

1. The Sobha + Akhil : sukipikal/business ethics attacks
2. The massage issue which managed to make even midhun raise his voice
3. The court cases
4. Junaiz being exposed as someone who has toxic possessive traits, as much as nadira
5. The mundupokkal and the aftermath
6. The transphobia allegations against junaiz

These are just the ones off the top of my head, of these only the first one was brought up privately to akhil/sobha in the confession room with BB/Mohanlal basically pressuring sobha to forgive/compromise.
The rest of the episode? Some weird sari game and an unrelated and totally unnecessary try not to cringe challenge.
The promos for today's episode are out and I have a feeling its going to be the same today as well.
Why do you think they aren't prodding on these issues? Are they trying to make it seem like these aren't heavily discussed outside to give the contestants a false sense of security?

So I am mostly doing this to help people get out of that mindset and bad habits. Alt account and not using any names.
I remember growing up I was always that shy kid, I wasnt able to talk till I was 5 years old so maybe I had autism or adhd idk never went to the doctor to diagnose it and still have speech problems till today. I was raised under very strict parents, my mom more than my dad. My mom had a temper that could break mountains. I was scared shitless of her for well most of my life and I sometimes wonder if she instilled a fear of women in me. it didnt help that in kindergarden(I think thats what its called in english, I went there when I was 5) I was relentlessly bullied by the girls, mostly the popular ones as I was very wierd and gross Ill admit. Those experiences may have instilled a deep resentment of women in me.
from then on I could barely say anything to any women, like every time a women talked to me I had a clothes peg on my tongue and just wispered answers and did fuck all and walked away. I remember I read a book series when I was 10 (its a local series about a group of 4 boys who did crazy shit together and it was always a "boys club" to them) and I just said the whole time "oh girls are a waste of time and money". Although I played toughguy I had massive anxiety every single time I was in the vicinity of a women. In primary school we had double desks and you had a deskmate and that was very important back then as you mostly spoke to your deskmate. I could never speak to anyone and always had these short cutoff answers and was very rude to all the girls. kinda a bastard.
I remember the final year of primary school( we are 13) and I wanna kick myself. I had a black eye and when someone asked of it I ran away screaming. I had a problem with inflamation in my ankles as I grew too fast for puberty and I used these gross AF gelly gooyee gell heeles covered in week olds sweat to chase girls away. I didnt keep contact with anyone in primary school except 1 guy whos still my friend but I am rethinking those choices. Those girls I chased away was nice and friendly and treated me with respect, and I chased them away in the worst way. My eyes were always on those pretty popular girls who always bullied me, and I maybe stared at them wayyy too much and I was such a creed JOH, I cringe just thinking of it. I wondered about some of the other people I chased away. some girls were really nice, friendly and beautifiull people and I just ignored them and was an absolute bastard to them. To this day I barely know anyone from that group of 90 kids in my year and didnt keep contact. Kinda sad of me tbh.
the year after that we went to high school, we were grown ups. We had phones and we were almost 350 kids in my grade, but I didnt change. I was seated next to a girl in "homeroom" (idk what it is in english again) and first things first she asked for my number. My fucking immature ass thought she liked me and bam fel in love. She was just nice to me and couldve been a nice friend but I still kept that bastard tendencies from primary. I hopped around her the whole time but said nothing, absolutely creepy. She stayed after school and I remember still that EVERY DAMN DAY after cricket I rerouted the route from my locker to the school gate just to say goodbye, but that was just a andwave maybe and a mumble, I could not keep eye contact. My sorry ass thought we were inlove and she went on with her life, and I just went "oh shes a thot and bitch" "oh Im a nice guy" and so on but FUCK that was cringe, still barely said anything to her.
I think its ok to say I have a sister, and I was also so cringe to her friends. Like man I had a panick attack every time she had friends over and I was SO MUCH OF A BASTARD to them.
My sorry ass started believing, If a girl just makes eye contact, or she just greets you(even ask to lend a fucking eraser) she was in love with you. That girl I previously mentioned, well she went out with a guy the next year and I kinda made good friends with him, But he was kinda just a cunt. wayyyy too arrogant and also a player but I still simped over this 1 girl that was HIS GIRLFRIEND. Well I sent her the cringiest text 1 night on holiday and probably ruined my chances forver, but she left school halfway through the year and broke up with my friend. I was devastated but thinking back it was actually better for my mental health. I believed I stalked her insta for maybe a year and so, she got a bf who was 5 years older with kids (we were 15) so I maybe dodged a bullet idk, I broke all contact. So I had different crushes every week since then because well, I stated how easily I fell in love and basically COULDNT SAY A WORD to any female.
I basically went like this for 4 years and covid barely didnt help shit. covid hit when I was in gr10 and my country was in complete lockdown. My lonely ass went online and used my creepy incellish texts over snapchat and so. I added random people and when they just added me back, I thought "cool she likes me" and sent the creepiest wierdest most incellish texts immagineable. It was so bad. I deleted that account later. I also developed a porn addiction and continued this thing of harrasing random women online for aknogledging my existence and thought they were bitches for rejecting me. "I was such a nice guy, why couldnt they see it" I thought. It was bad for me, I may have used almost every social media at once for this goal and did it for almost a straight year maybe. I tryed to be cool with this social medias and said I was a cool guy, but was such a creep and asshole, and my addiction didnt help. I just stalked random girls from my school online if they gave me any attention in person, and they almost always had boyfriends, but I though "What do they know. they only like muscles and cool guys with money whos mean to them. Im a nice guy why wont they see it". I was an incel through and through, but I never spoke to girls and expected them to flock to me.
Thinking back this was my lowest point. I was locked in my room for hours watching p*** and couldnt speak to anyone. I got salty and depressed and blamed women for my misfortune in live and so on. In school I had only few friends and didnt talk to any girls, just stared at them like a creep.
Then came my final year of high school, and I believe this saved me as a person. The previous year my friendgroup was joined by a girl and guy, and they became my best friends. this girl became my second sister almost. at first I had a crush on her( AS ALWAYS) and I started wearing that thought down, shes a friend and a good friend at that. a person who will listen to you. I started bettering myself. I got rid of addictions and started bettering myself. I met a girl which I now view as my final incel challenge. she was the first girl to hug me every day and I developed a crush, but that ended by me pushing her away, realising she was using me as kinda a rebound and using my height to have a date to prom and being an all around bitch to me, that lasted months and through my simping to her I pushed all other girls away and was a bastard to them too and thats such a long story Im not gonna tell it here.
I made another female friend and she helped me too and from the second half of the final year I was a better person. I bettered my grades, I improved my attitude and tried going out. It worked and well I got rid of my p*** addiction and realised I didnt have these incellish tendencies. I started going to church and deleted ALL of my social media accounts and apps. From now on I'm me not an internet persona.
then it was the end of that version of me. I got into university for engineering at one of our best universities, and got into a university residence(thats also a long story but has a cultural signifigance in my country). I went on a church camp and made so much friends I forgot half their names. I sokkied and danced with girls for hours. My insecurities and so on is gone and I left my anxiety. I have bettered my relationship with my sister and even her friends, people who Ive shunned for years and Im angry for what nice people I have shunned. I have gone on dates and now, I have to go out if I sit in my room for too long.
I am not perfect though, theres still problems and sometimes come of as creepy and I know that. it is a problem but am working to fix it. Everyone should better themselves as a human being
About now, whenever I hear an incel or feminist or whatever political person speak I have 1 answer. GO OUTSIDE AND TALK TO PEOPLE. your entire perception is based on a minority of people. theres exist much more outside of your room. BE a better human.
TLDR: I was an incel, was a bastard and absolute cunt to women, met some amazing people and bettered myself. lifes beautifull and you should embrace it. GO TOUCH GRASS

1: Think of someone you hate. No, I don’t mean someone who pissed you off on one occasion. I mean someone you really hate with all your soul. Think about every sin they’ve done to you, from a minor inconvenience to a felony, and what you are going to do to them once you win over them. Eventually, your brain will start to leak from all the pure hate contained in it and your entire body will feel the spiritual effects. Yes, this will be painful, you’re becoming a God, were you expecting this to be easy?
2: Cut yourself slightly to let your blood flow onto any kind of melee weapon you wish to empower with your PH (pure hatred) and wait a while for enough blood to leak. This weapon will know be known as a Vessel of Vengeance, and will glow bright red. You may start to detach from your emotions now as your Vessel of Vengeance contains them. But you must maintain your willpower as your Vessel of Vengeance is only allied to you if you match desires, should you hesitate from this point on it will kill you and fulfil your old desires itself.
3: You will need to go up to your hated person and stab them with the Vessel of Vengeance, instantly making them feel the all the pain they made you feel. Anyone who stands in your way? Let your Vessel of Vengeance take care of them. Once you kill your hated person, it will disintegrate with your emotions and their soul will be absorbed into you. We recommend you try to kill as few people as possible as this will make Rule 4 much harder.
4: As a soul is extremely powerful, you are entitled to minor spiritual powers to help you, but in order to maintain this, you must keep your willpower intact and have a strong body, as weaker bodies will start to disintegrate fast. The latter is harder, but there are two main methods: gaining more muscle mass could work but you would need to become very strong to the point where there is a high risk of low blood pressure, erectile dysfunction (if you’re male) etc. Instead, the other option is burning the body of your hated person and consuming the ashes, and as your body is in physical-spiritual deficit your body will absorb these ashes and you will become much stronger, this has a higher chance of working and less risk than the former. Failing to become stronger will result in your body fully disintegrating and you becoming a wandering soul.
5: Now that you have an equal balance of both physical matter and spiritual matter, your spirit can obtain comfort. We recommend you try to kill more people and become stronger via either of the methods in rule 4. After 6 souls are absorbed, you pass the limit of humanity and become something more, but not a god yet. You do not need your physical form anymore as your soul can no longer become a wondering soul, but this form comes with its own set or risks explored in rule 6.
6: Stay away from light, and stay in hiding. The consequence of this will be the Present God finding you and wiping any trace of you from existence, in all three times and space. We recommend you construct your own realm to stay in until you achieve godhood, you can manipulate it your will while you are the creator. Your souls may also rebel and although you can easily deal with just one, all six rebelling against you can kill you instantly if you lack superior willpower.
7: Keep absorbing souls, until one day you’ll meet the Author, the creator of this world who was reduced to nothing more than a human puppet by her own creation. Having said that, her original soul is extremely powerful, slightly less so than the Present God. Do whatever you wish to her in order to gain her soul, whether that through a deal, manipulation, directly taking it, whatever you wish. Her willpower is equivalent to yours, she is a godhood-seeker too.
8: By this point, taking you down is a mountainous task even for the Present God, so you can go up to heaven and try to kill him, whether you succeed is up to how powerful your soul is. I will warn you, this is extremely hard even though the Present God isn’t as powerful as he used to be. Once you defeat him, however, you own the complete right to godhood. What you do is completely up to you, but you have achieved your desire and can now reshape the universe to your liking.
9: You fell right into my trap. Did you really think I was defeated by my own creation? I willingly gave up Godhood to escape the knowledge I had burdened myself with. I’m sorry it had to be this way, but someone had to do it, and it wasn’t going to be anyone else. Goodbye.

• The Author

Introducing "Aussie Thunder," the fiery fighter from Down Under!
Aussie Thunder hails from the vast Outback of Australia and brings a unique blend of strength, agility, and a touch of Aussie humor to the Punch-Out!! arena. With a background in traditional boxing combined with his own unconventional style, he's a force to be reckoned with.
Sporting a rugged physique and donning a vibrant green and gold boxing outfit adorned with kangaroo motifs, Aussie Thunder embodies the spirit of Australia. He's known for his lightning-fast footwork, showcasing his agility by gracefully hopping around the ring like a kangaroo.
Aussie Thunder's boxing style is a fusion of hard-hitting punches and tricky maneuvers. He incorporates elements of "bush boxing," a style inspired by Australia's rugged wilderness, which involves adapting to unpredictable situations and employing unorthodox tactics to outwit opponents.
His signature moves include the "Boomerang Uppercut," a devastating uppercut that curves like a boomerang, catching opponents off guard. Another powerful move is the "Outback Slam," where Aussie Thunder leaps high into the air, channeling his kangaroo-like abilities, and delivers a powerful downward punch to stun his opponents.
Outside the ring, Aussie Thunder is known for his charismatic personality and infectious enthusiasm. He often entertains the crowd with his witty banter and playful antics, creating an electrifying atmosphere during his fights.
With his unique style, lightning-fast moves, and undeniable charm, Aussie Thunder adds a new flavor to the Punch-Out!! roster and proudly represents the fighting spirit of Australia. Get ready to experience the thunderous power and Aussie charm as you step into the ring with this charismatic Aussie fighter!
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I say, this is... quite an interesting character it came up with. But now I'm wondering, what Circuit could this guy be in? With all that jumping around and super-fast movement, I wouldn't be surprised if he found himself somewhere within the World Circuit, I'd say around the middle of it. For being a character that Artificial Intelligence came up with... this is quite impressive and it feels rather real! What you guys think?

First off, I have to say something here that should be obvious to most, but again for the sake of clarity or those unfamiliar with parsers:
If you want to parse damage in ff14, do NOT talk about it in-game, or interact with others differently because of whatever damage numbers they are/aren't doing. The logs you see in-game are imperfect and should not be taken at face value when considering the "value" of yourself or your teammates. I'm not the first person to say this, but still, it needs to be said, use it as a tool for personal self-improvement and be quiet, or don't use it at all.
Anywho, I just cleared my first unreal trial, Z1T9 (Zurvan), and I'm very happy about my personal accomplishment, even if it pales in comparison to people who are clearing Ultimates or whatever else. I'm still very new to raiding so I'm happy about whatever milestones I can hit. It took me about 4 hours to learn and beat it from scratch, including wipes from myself and randoms I found in partyfinder. Once I eventually found a really good party we cleared it two times in a row for faux hollows.
I was a Ninja throughout, and I'm still pretty new with the class. I played them casually for the leveling process but I only learned and practiced my opener 3 days ago, so I'm still very fresh. Hadn't played them since the change to Mug was made a while back.
I thought it would be fun to upload my logs and see how well I did compared to others, as I had never done this before. I recalled the fight being a little sloppy, but overall good enough, so I assumed I'd get like, maybe a 40 or so.
Nope, I actually ended up getting a 15 on my first clear, and a 7 on my second clear where I think I died once or twice. That means I was logged as being in the 85th percentile out of 100 for my first clear on this fight.
I thought I had done something wrong, so I had some people in one of my discords look at it, and they brought the log into another website (xivanalysis) and explained some of it to me, and I gotta say, I'm really impressed with how detailed and helpful this site was for learning from my logs.
Some of my egregious and dumb errors that lead to my low damage and utility:

• Held Trick Attack for a total of around 200 seconds (look don't ask, I was trying something and it was obviously a bad idea)
• Did ZERO positionals for Trick Attack (I actually forgot it had positionals lmao)
• Missed about 20 positionals for my basic GCD combo
• Broke my 1-2-3 GCD combo EIGHT separate times
• goofed up a mudra combo once

...and many other dumb mistakes besides. The website gave me a good view of what I was actually doing during Trick Attack windows, which if you play Ninja, you know is a really big deal. My opener was decent, everything else was...really bad lmao. There was one where I timed it badly and had to finish it with throwing daggers twice. There was another where I only got in 1 ninjutsu and 3 GCD attacks. It was baaaad.
I say all this to say one thing: I was humbled by my own results, or rather lack thereof. On the surface I felt like I did pretty well, but upon learning that I can improve so much I'm actually inspired to do even better for my next parse. And I definitely wasn't trying as hard as I could have been, my performance for the fight we cleared on was easily one of my worst ones, mostly just due to laziness and wanting to just have good positioning for the boss over optimized damage.
Anyways, disclaimer here that I AM NOT ENDORSING PARSERS OR DAMAGE LOGGERS, or any other kind of mod, or anything else that isn't allowed in-game. In fact, this entire post was fictional and none of this really happened :)
That said, if they WERE allowed in the game, I think people like myself might enjoy using them, so long as they don't get weird and bring it up with their party. I now have a great roadmap for what I should be doing to maximize my usefulness to my future parties, and I think that's pretty cool.
TL;DR I parsed my first unreal clear, was surprised to learn I was actually really bad, and I now have plans to improve myself in the future (hypothetically, of course).

hello, i am a second year BSA student from cebu planning to transfer to iloilo city for personal reasons and nag plan po ako na by third year ipursue ko pa rin mag BSA. i have mejo good grades naman, currently reviewing for qualifying exam makapasa man or hindi, i am still moving to iloilo city, nag take lang ako baka ma consider ng maging future school ko. ano po ba ang mabuting school for accountancy, the pros and cons, student-friendly lalo na i dont understand hiligaynon, mabye a little bit lang and can speak fluently. thank you po <33

In a previous post I had explained that the canon of the Catholic church was dogmatically defined at the Council of Florence(which it was).
Ahem.
HOWEVER.☝️
Something that has recently been brought to my attention is that several prominent Catholic apologists, Robert Sungenis, Michael Lofton, Trent Horn, etc., have been positing something I had NEVER heard before—that the Catholic Church’s canon could still theoretically expand.
Me when I heard this: WHAT!?!😦
Sure enough, this speculation checks out. The language of the Council of Trent says:
The books that are received by this Synod. ... are as set down here below:
—and then it goes on to list the Catholic canon of scripture. Now since these books listed have already been defined by the Catholic Church dogmatically they cannot be removed from the canon at any point in the future. This language(again, according to Catholic theologians) does not specifically state that these were all the books of Scripture there ever could be and that there couldn’t be any more.
What do you think? If one of Paul’s lost letters was discovered, how would Protestants handle their canon? Would some assert that the canon is closed or would some re-open their canon to include such a letter(s)?
It’s an interesting thought. I just wanted to mention this since it wasn’t something I was aware of personally and thought there might be others out there interested in hearing about it. Maybe I’m just the last one to hear about it though and it’s not news to some of you. 😅

Just wanted to get some insights, my dad was hospitalised due to a sudden heart attack and the hospital did the following: (1) Made us write our monthly salary, (2) Asked for two credit cards, (3) Informed us that Doctor's fee will have an additional charge of 3% if we use the credit card, (4) Informed us that we will be charged an additional 30% of the total price for the 3 new meds the doctor gave, if we opted out to buy it outside like in Mercury drugs etc, parang medicine corkage ba. It will be priced originally if we get it from their pharmacy otherwise.
Just wanted to get insight if any of these things are illegal? Unethical? Ano dapat gawin in case? Sa totoo lang nakakadagdag sa stress naming magkakapatid everytime kausap namin yung hospital, Thanks

I recently received the wrong order from Pizza Hut (self-collect). An hour after I submitted my feedback at 10pm, a guy called me up (which I suspect was the same person who handed me my order) and apologised, offering a free pizza of my actual order the next day.
They must have informed the outlet almost immediately and compelled him to call me when he was off-duty at 11pm. I was apprehensive that this would affect his work performance or result in his pay being docked, and so I declined the free pizza offer and wished him a good night.
I am not sure how Singapore law works in this regard, so pardon me if I am ignorant on this matter.

2.26.0.36 -> 2.26.0.40 Part 1

• VBCI 2 (MCT-30) : Max field repair time lowered
• Game parameter changes :
  • New Burn mark parameters :
    • Ship radius = 7
    • Ship position push multiplier = 5
    • Ship direction push multiplier = 1.15
  • Ground TWS is now called TWS GTM
  • Damage Model parameter changes :
    • Visual Shrapnel Inner Radius : 0.15 -> 0.05
    • Radiators :
      • Repair speed lowered by 65%
      • It can now be repaired to 100%
  • Physical material parameter changes :
    • All, except Bricks, Concrete, Metal, Wood and Football ramp : "iak" : 0.2 -> 0.5
    • Football ramp : "iak" : 0.2 -> 1
    • Track friction on concrete : 0.9 -> 0.95
    • Wheel friction on concrete : 0.8 -> 0.95
• Sound changes :
  • Tank engines : Max sounds in the 20-400 m radius : 8 -> 16
  • Tracks : Max radius : 200 -> 300 m
  • New engine sound : BTR-80
  • Some long-rod APFSDS now use the APCR loading crew voice

Aircraft changes :

• A6M3 :
  • Added custom loadouts
  • New loadout : 1x Drop tank (stock)
  • Loadout changed : 2x 60kg : Removed Required modification 9 in (mod30)
• Buccaneer S. Mk. 1, Kfir Canard : Updated cockpit
• D4Y3 : Loadout changed : 3x 250 kg : Bombs are now dropped separately
• F-4C, F-4E, F-4EJ (all), F-4F (all), F-4S : Drop tank :
  • Fuel mass : 2271 -> 1850 kg
  • Now visible in menu
• F-4E (ISR) : Drop tank :
  • Fuel mass : 2271 -> 1850 kg
  • Model : US -> ISR
  • Now visible in menu
• F-4E Kurnass 2000 :
  • Updated cockpit
  • Engines : Engine armor -> Jet engine armor
  • New loadout : 6x Python 3
  • Loadout changed : x Empty (stock) -> 1x Drop tank (stock)
  • Removed loadouts:
    • 4x AIM-7E-2
    • 4x AIM-7F
  • Custom loadout changes :
    • Slot 3, 9 changed : Added 2x Python 3 option, can't be equipped together with 3x AGM-65D on slot 2
    • Slot 4, 8 changed :
      • Removed 1x AIM-7E-2 option
      • Removed 1x AIM-7F option
    • Slot 5 changed :
      • Option changed : 1x AIM-9G (stock), can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-7E-2 on slot 4 or 1x AIM-7F on slot 4 or 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6 -> 1x AIM-9G (stock), can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Option changed : 1x AIM-9L, can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-7E-2 on slot 4 or 1x AIM-7F on slot 4 or 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6 -> 1x AIM-9L, can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Added 1x Python 3 option, can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Removed 1x AIM-7E-2 option
      • Removed 1x AIM-7F option
    • Slot 6 changed : Added 1x Drop tank (stock) option
    • Slot 7 changed :
      • Option changed : 1x AIM-9G (stock), can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-7E-2 on slot 8 or 1x AIM-7F on slot 8 or 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6 -> 1x AIM-9G (stock), can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Option changed : 1x AIM-9L, can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-7E-2 on slot 8 or 1x AIM-7F on slot 8 or 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6 -> 1x AIM-9L, can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Added 1x Python 3 option, can't be equipped together with 2x BLU-27/B on slot 6
      • Removed 1x AIM-7E-2 option
      • Removed 1x AIM-7F option
• F-4J :
  • Added ejection seat
  • New loadout : 1x Drop tank (stock)
  • Custom loadout changes :
    • Max load : 7257 -> 7400 kg
    • Slot 6 changed : Added 1x Drop tank (stock) option
• F-4J (UK), Phantom F.G. Mk. 1, Phantom F.G.R. Mk. 2 :
  • Added ejection seat
  • New loadout : 1x Drop tank (stock)
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 6 changed : Added 1x Drop tank (stock) option
• F-14B :
  • Targeting pod camera moved
  • New loadout : 2x GBU-24/B + 1x LANTIRN
  • Loadouts changed :
    • 4x AIM-9L + 320x Flares / Chaff -> 4x AIM-9L + 640x Flares / Chaff
    • 1x GBU-10/B : Required modification changed : GBU-10 -> GBU-10/24
  • Custom loadout changes :
    • Slot 2, 5 changed :
      • Added 160x Flares / Chaff option
      • Added 160x Flares / Chaff + 1x AIM-9L (stock) option
    • Slot 3 changed :
      • Option changed : 1x AIM-7M, can't be equipped together with 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 -> 1x AIM-7M, can't be equipped together with 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 5
      • Option changed : 2x AIM-7M, can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-54A on slot 5 or 1x AIM-54C on slot 5 or 1x 500lb on slot 5 or 1x 1000 lb on slot 5 or 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 or 1x Mk. 82 AIR on slot 5 or 1x Mk 83 AIR on slot 5 -> 2x AIM-7M, can't be equipped together with 1x AIM-54A on slot 5 or 1x AIM-54C on slot 5 or 1x 500lb on slot 5 or 1x 1000 lb on slot 5 or 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 or 1x Mk. 82 AIR on slot 5 or 1x Mk 83 AIR on slot 5 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 5
      • Option changed : 2x AIM-54A, can't be equipped together with 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 -> 2x AIM-54A, can't be equipped together with 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 5
      • Option changed : 2x AIM-54C, can't be equipped together with 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 -> 2x AIM-54C, can't be equipped together with 1x 2000lb on slot 5 or 1x GBU-10/B on slot 5 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 5
      • Added 1x GBU-24/B option, must be equipped together with 1x LANTIRN on slot 7
    • Slot 4 changed : Added 1x GBU-24/B option, must be equipped together with 1x LANTIRN on slot 7
• F-16A-10 (ISR) :
  • New loadout : 6x Python 3
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 1, 2, 3, 7, 8, 9 changed : Added 1x Python 3 option
• G.91 3 :
  • New loadout : 2x Canon de 30mm DEFA 552 + 2x Mk. 82 Snakeye
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 2, 5 changed :Added 1x Mk. 82 Snakeye option
• G.91 4 (all) :
  • New loadout : 4x Machine Gun, Caliber .50, AN/M3 + 2x Mk. 82 Snakeye
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 2, 5 changed : Added 1x Mk. 82 Snakeye option
• G.91 Y :
  • New loadouts :
    • 2x AA.20
    • 2x AS.20
    • 2x AS.30
    • 4x Mk. 82 Snakeye
  • Custom loadout changes :
    • Slot 1, 4 changed : Added 1x Mk. 82 Snakeye option
    • Slot 2, 3 changed :
      • Added 1x Mk. 82 Snakeye option
      • Added 1x AS.20 option
      • Added 1x AA.20 option
      • Added 1x AS.30 option
• G.91 YS :
  • New loadout : 4x Mk. 82 Snakeye
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 2, 3, 4, 5 changed : Added 1x Mk. 82 Snakeye option
• GL 832 HY :
  • Float offset : 0.6 -> 0.4
  • DM rewritten
• Harrier G.R. Mk. 7 : Sight zoom : 1.51x / 1.86x -> 1.88x -> 6x
• Il-2 (1941) :
  • Loadouts changed :
    • 4x FAB-100 + 4x RBS-132 -> 4x FAB-100 + 8x RBS-132
    • 4x RBS-132 -> 8x RBS-132
    • 4x ROFS-132 -> 8x ROFS-132
    • 4x ROS-132 -> 8x ROS-132
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 1, 6 changed :
    • Option changed : 2x ROS-132 -> 4x ROS-132
    • Option changed : 2x ROFS-132 -> 4x ROFS-132
    • Option changed : 2x RBS-132 -> 4x RBS-132
• J8 (all) :
  • New loadouts :
    • 2x 500-4
    • 2x Model 500-3
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 2, 6 changed :
    • Added 1x Model 500-3 option
    • Added 1x 500-4 option
• Kfir C2 :
  • Updated cockpit
  • New loadouts :
    • 76x 2.75-inch FFAR Mk. 4 + 4x 500lb + 2x Python 3
    • 4x 500lb + 16x FFAR MK 32 MOD 0 + 2x Python 3
    • 4x 1000 lb + 2x Python 3
    • 2x 2000lb + 2x Python 3
    • 8x M117 + 2x Python 3
    • 2x Python 3
  • Removed loadouts :
    • 76x 2.75-inch FFAR Mk. 4 + 4x 500lb + 2x AIM-9G
    • 4x 500lb + 2x AIM-9G + 16x FFAR MK 32 MOD 0
    • 4x 1000 lb + 2x AIM-9G
    • 2x 2000lb + 2x AIM-9G
    • 2x AIM-9G + 8x M117
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 1, 7 changed : Added 1x Python 3 option
• Kfir C7 :
  • Updated cockpit
  • New loadout : 4x Python 3
  • Custom loadout changes : Slot 1, 2, 6, 7 changed : Added 1x Python 3 option
• Ki 45 Kai Tei, Ki 84 (all) : Loadout changed : 2x 250 kg : Bombs are now dropped separately
• MiG-23 (all), MiG-27 (all) : Drop tank fuel mass : 800 -> 650 kg
• Mirage 2000-5F : Targeting pod zoom = 6.15x / 98.21x
• N1K2-Ja : Loadout changed : 4x 60 kg : Bombs are now dropped separately
• PBY-5A (late) (FR) : Side turrets : 12.7 mm AN/M2 -> 12.7 mm AN/M2 (late)
• Su-17 (all), Su-22 (all) : Drop tank fuel mass : 1600 -> 1300 kg
• Su-25T :
  • Drop tank fuel mass : 1600 -> 1300 kg
  • Targeting pod NVD :
    • Resolution : 500x300 -> 900x500
    • Light multiplier : 12 -> 8
  • New loadout : 4x S-25L
• Su-39 :
  • Drop tank fuel mass : 1600 -> 1300 kg
  • New loadouts:
    • 1x Kopyo-25 + 2x R-60M (stock)
    • 2x R-60M + 4x S-25L
• TB-3 : Cockpit is now considered open when it comes to sounds
• Tornado G.R. Mk. 1 :
  • Loadout changed : 2x PGM 2000 -> 3x PGM 2000
  • Custom loadout changes :
    • Slot 3, 9 changed : Added 1x PGM 2000 option
    • Slot 4 changed :
      • Added 1x PGM 2000 option, can't be equipped together with 1x PGM 2000 on slot 8
      • Removed 1x PGM 2000 option
    • Slot 6 changed :
      • Option changed : 1x 1000 lb, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slots 4, 8 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 -> 1x 1000 lb, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 4 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 8
      • Option changed : 1x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slots 4, 8 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 -> 1x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 4 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 8
      • Option changed : 1x 1000 lb, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slots 4, 8 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 -> 1x 1000 lb, can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 4 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 8
      • Option changed : 1x MK 13 MOD 0 (Paveway), can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slots 4, 8 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8, must be equipped together with 1x TIALD on slot 4 -> 1x MK 13 MOD 0 (Paveway), can't be equipped together with 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb Mk.13 No.117 on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 2x 1000 lb on slots 4, 5, 7, 8 or 1x PGM 500 on slots 4, 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 4 or 1x GBU-24/B on slot 8 or 1x PGM 2000 on slot 8, must be equipped together with 1x TIALD on slot 4
• BO 105 CB-2, Ka-29, Mi-24P (all), Mi-24V, Mi-28A, Mi-35M, UH-1B, UH-1C : Maximum number of simultaneously guided missiles is now limited to 1
• SA 342 L, Z9 (all), Z11WA : 12.7 mm gunpod : Mass : 130 -> 42.25 kg

Sensor changes :

• AI Mk. 24 Foxhunter (all) : ACM lock range : 9250 -> 18500 m
• AN/APG-66 (all) :
  • Transceiver antenna : Elevation : Angle of half sensitivity : 3.5 -> 4.8°
  • Narrow search pattern :
    • Pitch stabilization limit : 30 -> 60°
    • Period : 0.35 -> 0.65 s
    • Search zone : 5° x 20° -> 8° x 20°
  • Medium search pattern :
    • Elevation limits : -30° / 30° -> -60° / 60°
    • Pitch stabilization limit : 30 -> 60°
    • Period : 2 -> 3.8 s
    • Search zone : 10° x 60° -> 8° x 60°
  • Wide search pattern :
    • Elevation limits : -30° / 30° -> -60° / 60°
    • Pitch stabilization limit : 30 -> 60°
    • Period : 2 -> 3.8 s
    • Search zone : 5° x 120° -> 8° x 120°
  • HUD lock pattern :
    • Elevation limits : -30° / 30° -> -60° / 60°
    • Period : 1.3 -> 1 s
    • Search zone : 20° x 20° -> 19.2° x 20°
  • Vertical lock pattern :
    • Elevation limits : -30° / 30° -> -60° / 60°
    • Period : 1.3 -> 1 s
    • Search zone : 9.9° x 40° -> 9.6° x 40°
  • Acquisition pattern :
    • Elevation limits : -30° / 30° -> -60° / 60°
    • Search zone : 5° x 20° -> 4° x 20°
• AN/AWG-9 (TISEO) : Name : AN/AWG-9 / TISEO -> AN/AWG-9 / AN/AXX-1 TCS
• Kopyo-25 :
  • Ground standby : Name : PD HDN standby -> GTM standby
  • Ground search : Name : TWS HDN search -> GTM search
  • Ground TWS search : Name : TWS HDN search -> TWS GTM search
  • Ground TWS acquisition : Name : TWS HDN acquisition -> TWS GTM acquisition
  • Ground track : Name : PD HDN track -> GTM track
• Thales RDY, Thomson-CSF RDI :
  • PD modes replaced with MPRF and HPRF modes
  • All patterns : Elevation limits : -55° / 55° -> -60° / 60°

Naval changes :

• New vehicle files :
  • Émile Bertin (FR)
  • Marceau (FR)
• AF 99, AF 128, Krischan der Große, KS 5, LS (all), MZ 1, R 41, R 130, R 301, S 38, S 62, S 100 (all), S 204, S 701, SF 05, SF 07, VS 8, VS 10 : Removed 1 skin
• Ise : Engine Max Speed : 47.16 -> 46.8 km/h
• Freccia (P 493) : Loadout changed : 2x S.I. 270 L : Required modification changed : Stock torpedoes -> Torpedo tubes
• Aigle, Vautour : Moved Center of Gravity
• Chacal, Panthere :
  • Radio station, fire control room HP increased
  • Shell and charge ammo storage HP lowered
  • Added Two Fuel Tanks
  • Turret Armor : Antifragmentation armor -> RHA
• Colbert :
  • Horizontal armor above the steering : 30 -> 18 mm
  • Main turret floor : 30 -> 20 mm
  • Rangefinder HP lowered
  • Moment of Inertia : [62, 1500, 930] -> [70, 1710, 1050]
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Engine Acceleration Increased
  • Rudder area : 24 -> 30 m
  • Moved Cameras
  • Ammo Outside First Ammo Stage of third and fourth main turrets : Reload Time Multiplier : 1.5 -> 1.2
• Duguay-Trouin, Primauguet : Moved Camera
• Jeanne d'Arc :
  • Removed Free Respawn
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Engine Acceleration to 16.2 km/h lowered
• Leopard :
  • Secondary Guns can no longer be fired together with primary cannons
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Engine Max Speed : 65.736 -> 58.32 km/h
  • Armor Reworked
  • Added two 20 mm cannons
  • Removed two 40 mm, four 12.7 mm, four 13.2 mm cannons
  • Depth charges : WBG -> Mk. VII
  • Added ammo storage data
• Lorraine :
  • Now rearms in batches
  • First part of angled belt armor in the nose removed
  • Angled belt armor : Thickness : 70 -> 42 mm
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Engine Max Speed : 39.636 -> 38.124 km/h
  • Engine Acceleration lowered
  • Rudder area : 28 -> 38
  • Moved Cameras
  • Detection Height : 53.4 -> 42.4 m
  • Breaches :
    • Water Mass Multiplier : 280 -> 160
    • Additional Water Should Die Percent : 26 -> 21 %
    • Side Center Of Mass Offset Percent : 12 -> 10 %
• Milan :
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Added 6x 13.2 mm/76 Mle. 1929 Hotchkiss machine gun
• Paris :
  • Armor Reworked
  • Moved Center of Gravity
  • Engine Acceleration lowered
  • Rudder area : 28 -> 38
  • Moved Cameras

Ground vehicle changes :

• M4 (T26) : Added 8 Shell (in the ammo storage, it had less than the gun could use)
• T1E1 : Hull machine gun : Horizontal Limits : +/- 0 -> +/- 15°
• SPz 12-3 (Typ 3Z 8DLA) "Raketenautomat" :
  • Added servo turret turn sound
  • No longer has a magazine reload
  • Added Replenishment Delay = 4 s
  • Added Replenishment Time = 15 s
• BTR-80A :
  • Hull Top : 8 -> 6 mm
  • Gunner Hatch : 8 -> 19 mm
  • Turret : 13 -> 23 mm
  • Hull Top Hatches : 8 -> 6 mm
  • Engine Grille : 5 mm Structural steel -> 6 mm RHA
  • Water Shield : 13 mm RHAHH -> 5 mm Structural steel
  • Turret roof : 13 -> 23
  • Added small plate just under Gunner's Hatch to DM as 23 mm RHAHH
  • Engine Sound : MCTA V6 -> BTR80
  • Turret Turn Sound : Servo -> Manual
  • Added NVD projector
• Vickers Battle Tank Mk. 1 : Added Gun Mask to DM as 50 mm CHA
• Vijayanta :
  • Added Gun Mask to DM as 50 mm CHA
  • Added 4 Skins
• VBCI 2 (MCT-30) :
  • Almost all aluminium armor had their HP increased from 1000 to 10000
  • 1 Front plate inside the hull front : 45 -> 35 mm
  • Lower Hull Sides : 20 -> 35 mm
  • Inner Rear hull : 15 -> 35 mm
  • Plate above tracks : 15 -> 35 mm
  • Crew compartment floor : 15 -> 35 mm
  • Rear Door : 50 -> 35 mm
  • Turret : 40 -> 30 mm
  • Hull roof : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Front Hull Corners : 50 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Hull floor : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Armor around the Gun Breech : 25 -> 30 mm
  • Second layer of Upper Hull Sides : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Gun Mantlet : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • First layer of upper Hull Side : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Armor plate inside turret : 10 -> 30 mm
  • Armor in the middle of the turret ring : 25 -> 30 mm
  • Driver hatch : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Inner Part of the hull rear : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Inner Part of the rear door : 50 -> 35 mm
  • Small armors on the UFP : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Lower LFP : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Add-on UFP armor : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 5 mm RHA
  • Plate around rear Door : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Boxes next to turret : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Boxes on the front of hull : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 5 mm Structural steel
  • UFP : 5 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Front Hatches : 5 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • LFP : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Little Armor Box between wheels : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Part of the door : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • 1 front plate : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • Engine Grilles : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Armor behind wheels : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 12 mm RHAHH
  • 12.7 mm Support : 25 -> 20 mm
  • Gun Mask: 65 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Turret sides: 42 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Turret back : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Turret Roof : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Front of turret : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Rear of turret upper plate : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Bottom of turret : 20 -> 30 mm
  • Part of turret ring : 25 -> 35 mm
  • Turret rear corners : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Turret roof hatches: 25 -> 30 mm
  • Plates next to gun : 25 -> 30 mm
  • Turret front corners : 25 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A -> 10 mm RHAHH
  • Sight Support : 25 -> 30 mm
  • Part of turret ring : 5 mm Structural steel -> 30 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A
  • Gun support : 5 mm Structural steel -> 30 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A
  • Gun barrels :
    • HP : 200 -> 100
    • 35 -> 10 mm
  • Added plates between turret crew and driver compartment to DM as 10 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A
  • Added plates between the engine and turret crew, and in front of the driver to DM as 5 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A, visible in X-Ray
  • Added plate between 1st and 2nd wheels on the right side to DM as 12 mm RHAHH
  • Added Driver periscope to DM as 5 mm Structural steel
  • Removed 4 plate of 25 mm, 3 plate of 30 mm and 1 plate of 65 mm Aluminium alloy AMS 4050A, 5 plate of 5 mm Structural steel, 4 optics
  • Cannon breech, horizontal turret drive, transmission and ammo can no longer be overpressured
  • 30 mm Bushmaster 2 Mk. 44 cannon :
    • Horizontal Speed : 30 -> 60 °/s
    • Vertical Speed : 8 -> 60 °/s
    • Vertical Limit : [-8, 20] -> [-10, 45]°
    • Added 2 Plane Stabilizer (mfw first french IFV and first french Stabilized vehicle is a premium ))))
  • 12.7 mm M2 HB : Sight can now use NVD
  • Added Commander Sight (Also Stabilized)
  • Second and fourth set of wheels now have 10° steering
  • Zoom : 10 -> [2, 14.74]
  • FoV : 3.9 -> 17°
  • Added Target Tracker
  • Gunner Thermal :
    • 500x300 -> 1200x800
    • Noise Factor : 0.05 -> 0.04
  • Added Commander Thermal :
    • 1200x800
    • Noise Factor = 0.04
  • Driver NVD :
    • 800x600 -> 1200x800
    • Light Multiplier : 5 -> 7
  • Added Ammo Storage data
• Sherman Mk. IVb (M3) : Added a First Ammo Stage of 23 shells (Reload x 1.33 beyond)
• Magach 6 Bet Gal : Added Delay between Smoke Salvo = 0.5 s

Current Dev version : 2.26.0.40
Current Dev-Stable version : 2.25.1.135
Current Live version : 2.25.1.135

So I am mostly doing this to help people get out of that mindset and bad habits. Alt account and not using any names.
I remember growing up I was always that shy kid, I wasnt able to talk till I was 5 years old so maybe I had autism or adhd idk never went to the doctor to diagnose it and still have speech problems till today. I was raised under very strict parents, my mom more than my dad. My mom had a temper that could break mountains. I was scared shitless of her for well most of my life and I sometimes wonder if she instilled a fear of women in me. it didnt help that in kindergarden(I think thats what its called in english, I went there when I was 5) I was relentlessly bullied by the girls, mostly the popular ones as I was very wierd and gross Ill admit. Those experiences may have instilled a deep resentment of women in me.
from then on I could barely say anything to any women, like every time a women talked to me I had a clothes peg on my tongue and just wispered answers and did fuck all and walked away. I remember I read a book series when I was 10 (its a local series about a group of 4 boys who did crazy shit together and it was always a "boys club" to them) and I just said the whole time "oh girls are a waste of time and money". Although I played toughguy I had massive anxiety every single time I was in the vicinity of a women. In primary school we had double desks and you had a deskmate and that was very important back then as you mostly spoke to your deskmate. I could never speak to anyone and always had these short cutoff answers and was very rude to all the girls. kinda a bastard.
I remember the final year of primary school( we are 13) and I wanna kick myself. I had a black eye and when someone asked of it I ran away screaming. I had a problem with inflamation in my ankles as I grew too fast for puberty and I used these gross AF gelly gooyee gell heeles covered in week olds sweat to chase girls away. I didnt keep contact with anyone in primary school except 1 guy whos still my friend but I am rethinking those choices. Those girls I chased away was nice and friendly and treated me with respect, and I chased them away in the worst way. My eyes were always on those pretty popular girls who always bullied me, and I maybe stared at them wayyy too much and I was such a creed JOH, I cringe just thinking of it. I wondered about some of the other people I chased away. some girls were really nice, friendly and beautifiull people and I just ignored them and was an absolute bastard to them. To this day I barely know anyone from that group of 90 kids in my year and didnt keep contact. Kinda sad of me tbh.
the year after that we went to high school, we were grown ups. We had phones and we were almost 350 kids in my grade, but I didnt change. I was seated next to a girl in "homeroom" (idk what it is in english again) and first things first she asked for my number. My fucking immature ass thought she liked me and bam fel in love. She was just nice to me and couldve been a nice friend but I still kept that bastard tendencies from primary. I hopped around her the whole time but said nothing, absolutely creepy. She stayed after school and I remember still that EVERY DAMN DAY after cricket I rerouted the route from my locker to the school gate just to say goodbye, but that was just a andwave maybe and a mumble, I could not keep eye contact. My sorry ass thought we were inlove and she went on with her life, and I just went "oh shes a thot and bitch" "oh Im a nice guy" and so on but FUCK that was cringe, still barely said anything to her.
I think its ok to say I have a sister, and I was also so cringe to her friends. Like man I had a panick attack every time she had friends over and I was SO MUCH OF A BASTARD to them.
My sorry ass started believing, If a girl just makes eye contact, or she just greets you(even ask to lend a fucking eraser) she was in love with you. That girl I previously mentioned, well she went out with a guy the next year and I kinda made good friends with him, But he was kinda just a cunt. wayyyy too arrogant and also a player but I still simped over this 1 girl that was HIS GIRLFRIEND. Well I sent her the cringiest text 1 night on holiday and probably ruined my chances forver, but she left school halfway through the year and broke up with my friend. I was devastated but thinking back it was actually better for my mental health. I believed I stalked her insta for maybe a year and so, she got a bf who was 5 years older with kids (we were 15) so I maybe dodged a bullet idk, I broke all contact. So I had different crushes every week since then because well, I stated how easily I fell in love and basically COULDNT SAY A WORD to any female.
I basically went like this for 4 years and covid barely didnt help shit. covid hit when I was in gr10 and my country was in complete lockdown. My lonely ass went online and used my creepy incellish texts over snapchat and so. I added random people and when they just added me back, I thought "cool she likes me" and sent the creepiest wierdest most incellish texts immagineable. It was so bad. I deleted that account later. I also developed a porn addiction and continued this thing of harrasing random women online for aknogledging my existence and thought they were bitches for rejecting me. "I was such a nice guy, why couldnt they see it" I thought. It was bad for me, I may have used almost every social media at once for this goal and did it for almost a straight year maybe. I tryed to be cool with this social medias and said I was a cool guy, but was such a creep and asshole, and my addiction didnt help. I just stalked random girls from my school online if they gave me any attention in person, and they almost always had boyfriends, but I though "What do they know. they only like muscles and cool guys with money whos mean to them. Im a nice guy why wont they see it". I was an incel through and through, but I never spoke to girls and expected them to flock to me.
Thinking back this was my lowest point. I was locked in my room for hours watching p*** and couldnt speak to anyone. I got salty and depressed and blamed women for my misfortune in live and so on. In school I had only few friends and didnt talk to any girls, just stared at them like a creep.
Then came my final year of high school, and I believe this saved me as a person. The previous year my friendgroup was joined by a girl and guy, and they became my best friends. this girl became my second sister almost. at first I had a crush on her( AS ALWAYS) and I started wearing that thought down, shes a friend and a good friend at that. a person who will listen to you. I started bettering myself. I got rid of addictions and started bettering myself. I met a girl which I now view as my final incel challenge. she was the first girl to hug me every day and I developed a crush, but that ended by me pushing her away, realising she was using me as kinda a rebound and using my height to have a date to prom and being an all around bitch to me, that lasted months and through my simping to her I pushed all other girls away and was a bastard to them too and thats such a long story Im not gonna tell it here.
I made another female friend and she helped me too and from the second half of the final year I was a better person. I bettered my grades, I improved my attitude and tried going out. It worked and well I got rid of my p*** addiction and realised I didnt have these incellish tendencies. I started going to church and deleted ALL of my social media accounts and apps. From now on I'm me not an internet persona.
then it was the end of that version of me. I got into university for engineering at one of our best universities, and got into a university residence(thats also a long story but has a cultural signifigance in my country). I went on a church camp and made so much friends I forgot half their names. I sokkied and danced with girls for hours. My insecurities and so on is gone and I left my anxiety. I have bettered my relationship with my sister and even her friends, people who Ive shunned for years and Im angry for what nice people I have shunned. I have gone on dates and now, I have to go out if I sit in my room for too long.
I am not perfect though, theres still problems and sometimes come of as creepy and I know that. it is a problem but am working to fix it. Everyone should better themselves as a human being
About now, whenever I hear an incel or feminist or whatever political person speak I have 1 answer. GO OUTSIDE AND TALK TO PEOPLE. your entire perception is based on a minority of people. theres exist much more outside of your room. BE a better human.
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TLDR: I was an incel, was a bastard and absolute cunt to women, met some amazing people and bettered myself. lifes beautifull and you should embrace it. GO TOUCH GRASS

Context : My bf is a really caring person and has a big heart ready to offer help to anyone, it’s something I really admire about him. We’ve been together for over a year and I’ve known him for a couple years before that. He can be very social and quite confident in himself.
Recently he brought this scenario to me which included him gym training 2 women he works with because they asked for his help to train them. He asked me what I think about it. Firstly my bf isn’t a PT he just goes to the gym and over the years has become very gym savvy. This situation isn’t out of convenience, they don’t live near each other or anything like that. I said I didn’t understand why they needed him to train them and my mind went back to other scenarios he presented to me in this manner. There have been multiple situations like this including him and offering help to women in some kind of way and him asking how I feel about it. I usually have the same stance about it, idg why he’d would really go out of his way to do some of the things in these scenarios but I put it down to him being such a caring person. But on this occasion I was fed up with the constant questioning and asked him why he seems to always bring these situations to me when he’s already aware how I feel, it felt like he had intention behind it to do these things but when I said it he said no that’s not the case and he was just wondering how I would react in this situation. It’s happened too many times now to just be a “see my reaction” thing. It’s started to plant other thoughts in my head and keeps me wondering why he has such an interest in being around women and helping women out, he does think of a lot of hypothetical situation but I’d say majority of them have to do with women. Separately we spoke about how his behaviour in the past has been misinterpreted as flirting or interest from women’s point of view. I don’t know whether I’m being extra or maybe just jealous or a little insecure, but for me I feel like if the roles were reversed he would have a issue with me being so involved with men. Personally I haven’t been able to speak to my friends about this bc I don’t want to present him in a negative light esp if this is me just interpreting it this way out of jealousy or something idk. I do feel like the way I feel is valid but we’ve just had a massive argument about it where he said he said he’s heard my point and understands what I’ve said but he doesn’t agree and to me I feel like it’s a put yourself in my shoes situation. What do you guys think am I just being a bit insecure ?

Note: This is part 2 to Shiloh's Final Battle
Gomez and Tish pulled into their driveway and heard barking. They'd gotten a German Shepherd pup when Guillermo Del Toro's "The Strain" was on T.V. As a joke, but also because they loved the character? They named him Thomas Eichhorst after the Nazi vampire who was one of Guillermo Del Toro's most powerful villains ever created. No one put much thought into the name choice considering they loved all things horror. "What the hell has Eichhorst going off? He knows it's us!" Gomez couldn't understand why he'd bark at the 2 people he NEVER barks at. "I can honestly say I'm not even surprised after this day." Tish exhaled and proceeded to get out of the car. Eichhorst continued the call of his people. "IKE! EICHHORST! KNOCK IT THE HELL OFF!" Gomez yelled so Eichhorst could hear because he was behind the chain link fence in the backyard. He acted like he didn't hear a word. As they got closer to the house? They noticed Eichhorst was not barking at them. He was barking at the woods BEHIND them. "He sees something we don't." Tish matter-of-factly stated. She & Gomez simultaneously turned to look into the woods. Nothing. No noise. Nothing was there. Eichhorst stopped barking as soon as they turned towards the woods. Everything stopped. "What the hell is going on, Cara Mia?" Gomez was starting to experience what Tish had all day long. "I don't know, Mon Cher. I just know I don't like it." Tish continued glancing into the trees. "Probably time to sit back and relax. You've had a bad day that ended a rough week. It's time to just chill." As if knowing what Gomez had just said? His city issued phone started ringing. "NO. ABSOLUTELY not! I'm off tonight! What is so critical that Gomer & Goober can't handle it?" Gomez could feel his blood pressure start to rise. "Find out what it is 1st, Craig, before you go into a meltdown." Tish always called him Craig when she was irritated. "Hello?!" Gomez did a poor job hiding his inconvenience. "Man, it's Ol Shiloh! You gotta get over here, Gomez. It's bad! It's so bad!" Bubba was inconsolable. He was on the verge of tears. "Whoa, slow down, Bubba. What happened?" Gomez tried bringing levity. "We came by to check on him when we were on patrol. He was in the doorway, he was..." Bubba finally started crying. He hated it. The last thing he wanted to do was cry in front of his co-workers. He just simply could not process what the hell they'd rolled up on. "Wait? Ol Shiloh is hurt?" Gomez was trying to process what Bubba was saying. Tish's brow furrowed. She didn't like what she was hearing. "I mean, if you consider hurt dead with his fuckin' throat ripped out to his spinal cord? Then? Yeah, he's hurt." Bubba's anger at his own insecurities was boiling over onto Gomez. "Look, Bubba. Clearly you guys have been going through something over there. I'm headed that way. For future reference? Don't take your shit out on me. I didn't do anything to you." Gomez scolded. "Sorry, Gomez. It's just so..." and Bubba broke down further. Gomez hopped back into the car. "What's going on? Who was that? Don? Bubba?" Tish was concerned. "Hop in the passenger's side if you want to find out. I have to go." Gomez started the engine. Tish walked around and got in.
They pulled into Shiloh's driveway behind the Eerie, Indiana patrol car. Bubba came running out to greet them. "Don is in there with him. The paramedics just got here a few minutes ago." Bubba proceeded to catch Gomez up. He and Tish had been so busy looking at Bubba and the patrol car they didn't notice the bus parked to the side of the house ready to pick up Ol Shiloh.
Tish & Gomez entered the threshold where Ol Shiloh laid on his back, staring at the ceiling. His throat. Jesus, his throat. It was gone. They both were rocking back on their heels.
"We thought it was a big cat attack. It's not. Those bite marks on his throat? That's human not feline." Kennedy was an intelligent little bastard. Arrogant, condescending and holier-than-thou, but very intelligent. Not only would he inform all of the insubordinates around him about everything they didn't know? He'd do it with one hell of a cocky attitude. Ah, Kennedy, and his unsolicited lessons. Time to sit up and listen in class. ..
"When he opened the door? We thought it was an animal attack. Instead? He must've been attacked by humans. The bite marks definitely indicate human but the vicious nature of how deep the wounds went indicate something much more powerful. This was to his spinal cord." Kennedy didn't look like he knew-it-all. He looked perplexed.
"But how could a human bite that deep?" Gomez asked.
"I don't know. I honestly don't know." Kennedy was lost for the 1st time since becoming a paramedic 7 years ago. He'd never seen trauma of this caliber. He hadn't even seen this level of brutality and he'd rolled up on gang fights.
Don and Bubba were both on the front porch, looking in, mouths agape. Gomer & Goober indeed.
Kennedy loaded up Ol Shiloh's body with the assistance of a new EMT that Gomez was fairly certain Kennedy was banging. I mean, he was a total Chad so why wouldn't he?
Don put the camera away in the trunk of the patrol car. At least he had the presence of mind to get the pictures taken before emergency services hit the scene. This was going to rock Eerie, Indiana's foundation. Murder hadn't happened here in anyone's lifetime so this was a "big city" problem they weren't use to dealing with. Nosey people, scared kids, idiot media, this was not what Eerie needed right now. It certainly wasn't what he needed. He had enough of Allie putting out for anyone that would buy her a 6 pack or some cigarettes. Had he known he could've gotten off so cheaply? He sure as hell wouldn't have married her. Unfortunately, for his dumb ass? He actually fell in love with her. Why? He didn't know. Self esteem was never his strong suit. So? After dating 6 months, her only cheating 3 times, then getting pregnant with his baby? He made the perilous decision to try to make an honest woman out of her. Don sincerely doubted if Allie had ever been honest about anything in her life. Coincidentally? When they came back from their Honeymoon 2 weeks later? She'd miscarried. Well, she claimed she miscarried. Don never saw a pregnancy test nor would he have been 💯% sure the baby was his. He would've actually suspected the baby was not. Looking at all of it now, how did he not see it sooner?
"Get to those pics, ASAP Rocky, Don!" Gomez instructed. "Please, don't be an embarrassing Gen Xer who thinks he's so cool and up to date on all of the current lingo. They laugh at us only a little less than Boomers." Tish was still trying to get a handle on all of this and his Goofy antics weren't really in need right now.
The woods to the side of Ol Shiloh's place was the same as the woods to the back of Gomez & Tish's driveway. Eichhorst couldn't understand why his humans didn't acknowledge his bark. He never barked. He especially never barked at his humans. Why did they think he had? Didn't they see the kids in the woods? The little boy? The little girl? How could they not? As far away as the kids were? They smelled funny. He didn't understand. It was the same smell in the air that he sensed right before thunderstorms began and he hid under Gomez and Tish's bed. Humans don't smell like that. It's impossible to explain ozone to a German Shepherd.
The children watched as Ol Shiloh was loaded onto the ambulance and taken away. The couple were getting into their car and the deputies were already headed down the driveway.
"It has began." The dark-haired pale little girl spoke. "Indeed. It has. Let's see what Venerate has in store for the humans now." The boy replied and they headed towards town.
Eerie, Indiana was like any other Midwest, small town. You had your good ol boys & jerks. You had freaks and geeks. You had Bible thumpers and always humpers. Allie Hoff was the "always humpers" category. No one nor nothing could change that. The girl went through life bartering sex and blow jobs for anything she needed. It was a pitiful existence and she knew it. Unfortunately? She never learned and didn't know another way. With Eerie being so small? She was limited to the same "favor givers" over and over, again. Never any new blood. Never any fresh meat. It really stifled what few prospects she had. She looked up from where she was slumped over the bar, in her barstool, nursing a bottle of beer. She happened to look up to the front door. Who was that? She'd never seen him in here before. He was about 6'3" with dark wavy hair and ocean blue eyes. His skin was sun kissed and the muscles showcased the entire package. Wait. WTF? This dude doesn't belong here. Who the hell is he?
He appeared to glide and almost float towards her. He gestured to the empty bar stool next to her. "Is this seat taken?" He smiled with almost glowing white teeth. She locked up. Wait? He wants to sit next to me?
She just shook her head no because she was too shocked to speak. "Hi, I'm Vinny." He extended his hand and his gleaming smile never faltered. "Allie." She finally squeaked out. Guys like this didn't talk to girls like her. "Nice to meet you, Allie." Vinny swung around and attempted to get the bartender's attention. "I'll have a Jack & Coke. For the lady?" Vinny slyly smiled at Allie and she was entranced. "Same" was all Allie could say. He paid for their drinks and handed Allie hers. "I've never seen you before." Allie just finally came out with it. "No, I'm new to the area. You wouldn't have seen me around here." Vinny replied. "Oh? New from where?" Allie was trying to proceed with caution. She did not want to miss out on the opportunity that was this gorgeous specimen of a man. "You've never heard of it, trust me. No one ever has." Vinny still held his smile. "I'd still like to know." Allie returned a smile that was nowhere near as beautiful as Vinny's. "Maybe when we get to know each other better." Vinny conceded. "Oh? So we're going to be getting to know each other better, are we?" Allie coyly pressed. "If I have any say in it? Most definitely." Vinny winked. Damn. That boy was so fine she'd drink his bathwater if he peed in it. He was the perfect vision of the perfect man. It was as if he were tailor made just for Allie. How, though? How could she actually meet her real life Manic Pixie Dream boy? The one she'd dreamed about when she was a little girl. The one who laughed at everything she said. Listened attentively. The one who only had eyes for her no matter how many "rich bitch" girls were around. She'd treat him like a postage stamp. She'd lick every square inch of him and go back for 2nds on the important parts. "Allie, you strike me as a very straightforward girl." Vinny snapped her out of her daze. "I am. No bullshit." Allie replied. "Then? Allow me to be straightforward by telling you that I want to fuck you senseless." Vinny casually stated as if someone asked him for the time. "Well, that is certainly straightforward." Allie was stunned. She wasn't so stunned that she'd let an opportunity like this pass her by. She'd made up her mind that was going to happen as soon as she saw him. "And your answer?" Vinny inquired. "Anywhere. Any place. Any time Any day." Allie assured. With that? They stood from their barstools and headed outside. He even smelled good but not a typical smell. It was like the air at the beginning of a thunderstorm. He smelled like ozone. Ozone??? Was that even possible?
Gomez and Tish got home and plopped on the couch. Eichhorst came through the doggy door and trotted straight to Tish. "I've got leftovers, Piggy. Give me a sec." Tish opened her container from the restaurant. Eichhorst sat patiently waiting for his command.
"What a fuckin' day." Gomez exhaled exhaustedly. "Yeah. It has been. Poor Ol Shiloh. This is just too much." Tish's head continued to try to find rationality where there was one. "I'm getting in the shower and going to bed. You need anything?" Gomez slowly rose up from the couch, joints popping like a glow stick. "No. I'm probably gonna watch a movie and go to bed after." Tish answered. "Horror?" Gomez queried. "What else?" Tish smiled albeit a tired one. Eichhorst jumped up next to her on the couch and laid on her like a lap dog.
Vinny was walking Allie into their local little flop hotel room. It wasn't like she wasn't familiar with the place. The staff referred to her as "Frequent flier". She didn't particularly like the insensitive moniker but couldn't deny its accuracy, either. He closed the door behind them in one failed swoop. This was a practiced talent she noticed. Didn't matter. He was hers tonight.
"Make yourself comfortable." Vinny gestured to the only bed in the room. Allie took a seat. She looked up at him and noticed the ozone smell becoming stronger. Weird. He smelled good but she had never known someone to smell like a thunderstorm.
"I'm going to step into the bathroom for just a minute. I'll be right out." Vinny stepped into their adjacent bathroom. She heard loud music and laughter from somewhere down the hall but couldn't quite place where. It was for the best. Allie had always been, well, vocal. Normally? If a guy is hitting it right? She hit the vocal range of 2 stray cats screwing. She couldn't help it. She was like this every since puberty. It was all the girl thought about. She figured she was probably a nympho although she was never officially diagnosed. She couldn't hear what he was doing. It didn't matter. It wasn't going to affect her and what she was doing. She walked to the curtains and made sure they were completely closed. Although they were, why did she feel like she was being watched? She stripped down with the efficiency of a HazMat worker decontaminating. She heard the bathroom door opening. She kept her back turned so she could make the surprise last as long as possible. Was this the night? The night she could finally reach sexual satisfaction? Was this the dick that was going to change her life? There was a soft green glow coming from the bathroom. Must be a nightlight? She hadn't noticed before. Was it getting brighter? It looked like it was coming towards her. Was it Vinny? Maybe he's videoing me? Not like I'd care, but he could have asked. "Are you recording me?" She asked as she continued to look towards the window. His breathing was different. It seemed labored and, well, wet. It didn't sound like he did earlier, that was for sure. "You okay?" Allie asked. His breathing was raspier, louder, wetter. She decided to bail on her romantic idea of not turning around before he reached her. She turned around and her playful nature and smile fell away immediately.
Her brain couldn't process what her eyes were seeing. It couldn't be real. God knows along with banging any guy she could get her hands on, she used to hit hard drugs back in the day. This had to be a flashback. It had to be a "Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas" scenario. This? This "Mars Attacks!" bullshit right here? This is not reality.
It's bulbous head was transparent. It looked like a barrel eye fish that she saw on a nature show she used to blaze and chill to. That also explained the soft green glow. It sounded like and looked aquatic. That's where the wet sounds were coming from. It kept advancing. It had a white upper torso with arms and webbed fingers on each hand. What sent her over the edge? From the waist down? It was a human male. All the important parts and in working condition. How? She had no idea. But? When she meant working condition? It was working it's way right towards her. Wait, this thing is going to still have sex with me?! No. Absolutely not. "No. Stop." Allie feebly tried to resist. It did no good. Allie didn't know she was the reason he was even here. This was the whole gameplan all along. It was never a casual hook up.
Venerate had studied numerous different civilizations but Terrestrials always fascinated him. They were so primitive but also entertaining. The Alliance had tried many different hybrid trials between themselves and Terrestrials. They never made it out of infancy. There was a weakness that need strengthened in their own DNA to combine with humans. They worked on it until their resolution was Venerate himself. He has the best of what their kind has to offer with the malleable adaptivity to change himself into anything he needs to to be able to convince Terrestrials to trust him. It worked. Ol Shiloh thought Venerate was his deceased wife. Allie thought he was her dream man. He needs a human to impregnate. Beggars can't be choosers. It worked out perfectly. Allie took one look at his bulbous transparent head, his lower nontransparent stiff head and proceeded to pass out on the bed. It didn't matter. Venerate didn't need her awake to begin their hybrid breeding program. And? Begin the program he did. Everything was coming to fruition via the Alliance's vision. All of their hard work finally got them here. The pale, dark-haired children stood outside the hotel room window, peaking through the crack in the curtain. They were able to relay the mission a success with Venerate making first, second and third contact. Once the younglings come forth? The Alliance can begin occupation and what a glorious day that will truly be! Everything was going so perfectly. This just had to be fool proof. They walked off into the night, smiling so much those obsidian eyes even looked less demonic. This was the beginning of prosperity. This was the beginning of the end of humanity.
The Windows to the Soul: Allie's Assimilation
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See i don't know where to start, i didn't even know where to ask but here i am. So basically me (17,M) and my GF (17,F) recently got into in a relationship about 3 months ago, before that we were really close friends, and we just thought we had the same feeling towards each other so we confessed to each other and here we are. I am not a emotionally connected guy but with her i feel like i cam trully express my self thats why i took the chance and confessed. But thats not why i am here for.
So basically her mom keeps checking her phone from time to time and she once found a picture of us hugging and stuff and she confronted her and told her not to ever meet me again. Somehow we still managed to meet a couple times even though she has a lot of restriction on her. And just like the past few meets we tried to meet again since it had been long since we met each other properly. So we decided that she would ask her mother if she can go to the movies with her best friend (also 17,F) so she went on with the plan that i and the other girl's boyfriend would meet her at the theatre. But what we didn't know that her mother had been spying on us.
Well i don't know for sure but i saw a man acting all shady talking to someone through earphone while i was buying the tickets (the other had not arrived yet so i was all alone) and it looked like he was describing me, he was far away but i could hear some of it..."wearing green t shirt...yeah he is just standing there" i thought that was just me overthinking stuff. Then after thr movies we went to eat, there the other girls mom suddenly came, what more surprising is that the girl told me her mom was on her periods and was having cramps so she was in her room the whole day so she is no way coming here, well she did. And then when my gf reached home her mom confronted her saying "what do you think you are really smart, can i not have men look after you outside (which further solidified my suspicion on that shady man).
So today in the morning her mother called me and started threatning me that if i ever talked to her again she would not only tell this to my parents but take the matter to the police. She said that this could never work out as we both belong to different religion and she doesn't want me close to her daughter and then told me that if i ever tell my gf that her mom called me then also she will be taking actions against me.
I Don't know what to do should i tell my gf about this? ...And tell her not to confront her mother about this and say a word about this, and just keep it to ourself. Or can you guys help out with another plan...i didn't wanted to ask these things here but i am desperate for answers, i have been disturbed since the morning.

My older brother (Mike - 28M) got engaged to his girlfriend (23F). As per tradition, our parents said they'd throw them an engagement party and of course, invited me. I (26F) am beyond happy for him.
I moved away for college when I turned 18 and I've been very busy ever since so I don't visit home very much. I didn't even make it to Christmas for a few years.
Luckily for me, Mike's engagement party was on my golden weekend. I travelled 6 hours by plane and made it to the party and congratulated Mike in person. Also, I got to see my aunts, uncles, cousins and everyone I hadn't seen for a long while. They were asking about what I was doing, how my rotations were, etc.
Mike pulled me aside and told me to please stop stealing the show again on his godd##n ebgagement party. I was confused. All I did was literally show up. So I asked him what was going on. He said I kept outdoing him at everything and even stole the show on his engagement party.
Background info, between the two of us, I was the calm, academically inclined one who was a straight A student, and recently started residency. He was the artistically inclined troublemaker. However, from my perspective that was 8 years ago and I only visited a handful of times during these years.
I told him I was sorry and asked him what he would like me to do. He told me to stop doing what I was doing, and not brag about my job, dating life or anything else. Mind you, I was being asked questions, not bragging. I thought he simply wanted me to leave his party based on this and left, saying he could enjoy the spotlight as he pleased. I was honestly sad that he wasn't at all happy to see me and was mostly angry.
My parents kept calling me asking me to come back but I said I didnt want to disturb Mike's night. My parents think I was an AH and caused a scene, as does Mike. I told them about Mike's comments and they are now outraged at him. Everyone's in a conflict more or less. AITA?

I kept thinking about the « what ifs » after my therapy session. My therapist told me that I regarded my ex as family instead of lovers and that I thought no matter what they are not gonna leave me. She told me that sometimes I can start to ignore my partner in this case. She told me that our expectations for idea couple life was different that’s why we kept fighting. I started to reflect, it was all true. I stopped paying attention to my ex and put my attention on work and that’s when he started to fall out of love with me. I ignored his feelings and thought he would never leave. I picked up fights on « priority » while not knowing what’s his expectations for us. For him, I was the perfect gf to have a peaceful life with, giving him hugs and kisses after his busy work day. He was satisfied with that but I wanted the vacations together, more exciting dates and adventures. It broke my heart knowing that I was his ideal person and now he just left disappointedly and doesn’t want to work on us anymore.
I used to think that I was the victim in this relationship cause I made a lot of effort without receiving any. Now those what ifs haunt me over and over again everyday, I kept thinking what if I didn’t pick up fights, will we still be together. I can’t find a person to replace him because he is like my family, you can never replace a family member no? I don’t know how to move on, I’m back to square 1, I started to chase him again because I want to relive those what ifs but he can’t participate.
I don’t know if I should text him about this. I have no intention in using it to get him back. I just wanted him to know that I have reflected and can work on it. We were together for 2 years and a half. The broke up was only 2 months ago, it wasn’t that long. We are still text back and force. I feel that he is kind of running away from serious topic of us, feelings and relationship. I feel that he has thrown away all of us. I feel pity as if I am the only one who is still living in the past. Should I text him?

I was working with a marketing agency in Hyderabad from a few years. I am from Maharashtra looking for a new job in pune now. Being an introvert and anxious person. I am very distressed about finding a job and moving to pune as never been there before. Reading different opinions about pune of different people is pushing my confusion.
Losing job and finding a new one has been depressing.,, And the process of living in a completely new city and job is giving me chills
Idk if i will earn enough to even survive comfortably there .or find a decent place to live. I don't even have a vehicle. Nor can i afford new one. I am uncertain about the public transport in pune.
Any guides and tips and ideas would be very helpful as someone never been to pune. How is pune Wht should and should not i keep in mind before finding a job there.?