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CW: Birth Trauma, Medical Trauma, NICU Parent, PPD, and boundless joy
Hi all, FTM (35F) of a wonderful, perfect 3 month old baby girl.
This will be a long post but I wanted to write somethings down for my own processing and to simply share some of the things that we've gone through since LO arrived. My intention is not to scare or trigger anyone but rather share my story in the hopes that others might find some normalcy and support.
If you're anything like me I was scouring the internet prior to delivery. LO was ultimately delivered at 41w1d and I was HUGE. I'm 5'3" and I had gained over 50 lbs almost entirely in my belly. I was curb walking as much as possible and I did all of the things - eating dates, raspberry tea, exercises, stretches - anything to get baby to come on her own. I was having contractions for weeeeeks but nothing that ever escalated into true labor. I was exhausted despite my entire pregnancy being pretty textbook. There were no red flags at any point despite having done all of the standard tests and ultrasounds. Everything was pointing towards an easy delivery and healthy baby.
I was very done with pregnancy and, against my original plans (a theme), I decided to get induced. Went into the hospital on the evening of Feb 27 and had cervidil (sp??). It's supposedly more chill than pitocin. Things started happening around the morning of Feb 28. I was having real contractions and things were moving! The midwives were stoked that I responded so favorably without pitocin. Then things really started to ramp up. I was in triage waiting to be transferred to L&D (another theme) and was having really intense contractions. I finally (against what I had initially wanted) decided to take a narcotic. I needed a break and I was many hours away from full dilation plus I couldn't get an epidural until I was in L&D. Oof huge mistake. My contractions were just as intense as ever except during the in between I was having hallucinations. Luckily I had experienced drugs similar before so I knew what was going on but it worried my partner a lot (another theme). At this point I'm vomiting, my nurse is trying to get me transferred asap, my doula shows up and is trying to help me, and I'm wavering between screaming pain and having wild (and hilarious?) hallucinations.
Finally I'm cleared to transfer to L&D. Puke cup in hand, my nurse is running with me barely sitting in a wheelchair. I was so hot at that point that I remember it felt like a welcomed cool breeze. Partner is chasing behind us with far too many pieces of luggage in tow. We burst in the room and I was demanding to sit on the toilet but mostly was so blinded by pain I didn't really know what was going on or what I needed. Once again the doulas did their best to help me calm down and get through it. One of the nurses looked me dead in the eyes and was like "You can sit on that toilet but DO NOT push." I'm like 6 centimeters at this point and I couldn't believe the sensations pulsing through my body. I had wanted to wait for an epidural but I knew then that I needed it asap. I was able to miraculously sit still and felt the numbing cold take over. It was amazing. The next few hours were spent hanging out and getting to know the doulas. The nurse told me that my contractions were off the charts. Apparently they were lasting for two minutes and were shaped like a plateau instead of a gentle curve. My midwives were great and everyone was very encouraging and happy with my progress. I was almost fully dilated and we decided to burst my waters.
I was excited. There was A LOT of amniotic fluid. Unfortunately it was brown which indicated that baby had passed meconium which, given how over due I was, wasn't out of the ordinary. It also meant that NICU staff would be present for the delivery once the time came. I was finally ready to start pushing. Minutes turned into hours. My baby's head was through my cervix but she seemed stuck. 4 hours went by with no progress so we made the difficult decision to have a C section. It would be another 2 hours before an OR would open up so I just had to wait. By this point the epidural was wearing off and I was having break through contractions but I couldn't do anything with them because we knew the baby wasn't coming any other way.
This is where things really go south so stop reading if you need to <3.
Once I'm finally in the OR it's like 4AM. I'm strapped and straddled on the operating table and I can't stop shaking. It was terrifying. My partner is there with me but all I remember is fear. I also remember double checking with my nurse that NICU staff was in the room. The surgeons then test to see that I've had enough anesthesia which I hadn't so they had to give me fentanyl so things could get a move on. Eventually I felt no pain, just the movement of the procedure. I was laying there waiting to hear my baby's cries and to finally have her on my chest. I felt a lot of movement in my abdomen and I remember asking "Is that the baby? Is she dancing?" and the anesthesiologist said "No they're delivering your placenta and performing a fundal massage to prevent hemorrhage." This is when I knew something was really wrong. Those are the things they do after the baby's been born but I didn't hear my baby nor did I see her. I begin asking what's going on, I ask my partner if he can see her. He can't. All he can see is a lot of movement from different doctors. They finally tell us that she needs to be admitted to the NICU. I ask to at least see her and she's wheeled by me in a bassinet already swaddled and en route. We found out much later (when we were ready to hear what happened) that when she was born she had aspirated a lot of meconium and wasn't breathing. Her APGAR score was a 3. She was immediately intubated and it took around 10 minutes to resuscitate her (miraculously she didn't suffer brain damage).
Afterwards we were taken into a recovery room. We had been awake for over 24 hours at this point and were exhausted, devastated, and confused. We didn't know what happened and were waiting for news while I had to endure more fundal massages. A NICU doctor came to my bedside to inform us that they suspected she has having seizures, was at high risk of a blood infection, and may have some kind of genetic issue. We were in hysterics. Just totally beside ourselves. The nurses that had been with us came to say goodbye with tears in their eyes. They knew we had been traumatized and I think they may have been too.
They told us they were waiting for a postpartum room near the NICU to open up so we were just waiting. At this point, my baby was still very abstract to me. I was much more concerned about my very exhausted partner who had witnessed all of the trauma that happened. And was still carrying all of our stupid bags that I had packed. I sent him to the NICU to go see the baby. She was on oxygen and in an incubator. Her face was swollen from being stuck in the birth canal for 6 hours. I got to see her a few hours later but I could only touch her cheek. As I was leaving she was being hooked up to an EEG to check for seizures. We finally, after many hours, were moved into our postpartum room where I insisted we both take a nap before returning to the NICU. By this point we had delivered the news to our friends and families and let people know to please not reach out. It's hard to communicate the complexity of feelings we had. It was so devastating yet he and I felt so bonded together. Nothing else mattered but the three of us.
I'm told the weather was beautiful that day. I hadn't even considered a world existed outside of us. I didn't remember an outside until days had gone by. He pushed me in my wheelchair to get some food one morning and I saw the sun. I didn't remember there was a sun or that other people were just going about their days.
While LO was in the NICU she had every test under the sun and all of them kept coming back favorably. She wasn't having seizures, her brain looked great, her heart looked great, etc. Except there was still a question of a possible genetic issue but no one knew for sure. Her eyes were bulging but it could have been because of birth trauma or she just sort of looked like that. It wasn't until she had her hearing test that something went wrong again. I found solace in knowing failed hearing tests are pretty common and we'd just have to wait to meet with an audiologist for confirmation. During our stay I became a breast pumping machine. It was the only thing I could do on my own to help. I was immobilized from the C section and I felt so very hopeless that pumping was the one thing that gave me some satisfaction. LO had a significant tongue tie so latching proved impossible. My partner bonded with the baby immediately - he did the bulk of her care while in the NICU. For me, however, it took time. It's hard to admit but if I'm being honest it took me a few weeks to really fall in love and bond with her. I think part of it was the delivery and because I wasn't physically able to do the bulk of her care in the NICU. Also, I was in a grieving period. I was grieving the labor experience I hoped for and I was grieving the child I thought I was going to have.
After 5 incredibly long yet miraculous days we were both discharged together. We had a long list of follow up appointments but we didn't care. We were going home and it was a beautiful day. We laugh/cried the whole way home.
Close friends and both of our parents were there when we arrived home with an overwhelming amount of food. We were grateful. But also, hearing the excitement from others was really difficult for a long time. It took awhile for us to appreciate being congratulated. It felt like a stab every time.
That first week we had a number of doctors appointments. When she went to get her tongue tie snipped, her ENT discovered that she didn't have ear canals. Her external ear was fully formed but her middle ear was a closed pit. There were a lot of tears that day. It was the first time something was decidedly "wrong" and it was the first time there was a strong hint towards a genetic issue.
I don't remember the sequence of events and diagnoses - it was an emotional whirlwind. We learned that she has two chromosomal deletions of which the symptoms and severity vary greatly and we won't know the full extent of her disabilities for years. She does have conductive hearing loss (though I generally say she's deaf because its true and its a little easier to explain) and will be receiving a bone anchored hearing aid (BAHA). We're also invested in learning ASL so that she will have access to both spoken and signed language. She has strabismus (lazy eye) and ptosis (droopy eye) as well as craniosynostosis. She will be undergoing intense skull surgery later this year. Despite all of this she is thriving.
During the early weeks of postpartum I was not well. My partner had no time off and my family, while good intentioned, didn't really know how to talk about or meaningfully support a special needs child. It became clear that I needed some medical intervention so I enrolled in intensive therapy and began taking SSRIs. It may have saved our lives. I was not well and I knew it. I was struggling to bond and I was so devastated by her health outlook on top of all the normal lack of sleep, breast pumping stress, and lack of familial support that I needed to actively make a change. I did and I'm glad for it. I'm in a much better place now!
The love and joy I feel towards my child is unbelievable. People say that children bring joy to your life and it's really true. I love her with my whole heart. I am and will probably always be saddened by some of the trials she will be forced to endure in this world - her life will not be easy. But I am so committed to being at her side every step of the way. I love her totally and completely. Its hard to explain in words the depth of love I have for her. She's not what we imagined but no child ever is. Prior to her being born we always said we'd love and support her no matter who she became and that remains the case.

I really think that I am suffering from an nervous breakdown. I’m reaching out to this community because you all might be able to understand where I am coming from. At least that is my hope with this long post.
I can’t find a doctor that is able to help me, and the waiting lists to see these autonomic specialist are nearly a year + long. And anyway, what is it worth driving hours and hours away to see one and then just tell me “there’s nothing I can do to fix it”. To me, it seems pointless. What is a diagnosis of this condition going to do for me? Maybe help me out for insurance purposes but that’s about it.
I have a few concerns and I apologize if some of these symptoms are too much information. But I need to be honest about it to try and get some help from experienced individuals. If you can help me in anyway, please feel free to reply or even send me a DM. I would love to talk to you!

1. I find that when I am up and moving around (on my feet as I am a nurse and get very busy walking the floors of the hospital) my hands get beat red. I guess it’s from all of the blood rushing but I don’t understand why this happens. I have attached a picture of my hand down below. My partner says that my hand looks “normal”? I feel like it’s not normal. Let me know what you think.

https://imgur.com/a/Yfh2cFR

1. It doesn’t happen EVERY time I stand up, but it happens extremely often. When I go from sitting down (not lying down) I hear pulsatile tinnitus in my ears. I also get a stuffy head feeling like my sinuses are closed shut. After a few seconds of standing, the PT stops. I don’t hear my heartbeat in my ear anymore. This makes me fearful of sitting down. It especially happens when I get out of the car from driving. It doesn’t have to be a long car ride, either.
   
2. After I have sex with my spouse, something weird happens. It doesn’t happen as soon as it’s over, but when I am laying in bed, I feel these zaps or what I guess you would call, “minor adrenaline surges” as if I am being slightly electrocuted. It is an odd sensation to describe. I guess it is more of a “wave” (?) of shock or some kind of physical disturbance. I guess my nervous system doesn’t like it if I have an orgasm!? Lol. It’s not hard for me either. I don’t have a problem reaching that (thank God :) But, what are these waves that overcome me?
   
3. I get random hot flashes. I am not menopausal so I know it’s not that. I check my body temperature and it’s normal. I feel this only happens when I am at work and rushing around and the blood is pumping. I never get these hot flashes when I am at home just relaxing.
   
4. Sometimes, I get goosebumps. If I am thinking about something that interests me or makes me happy, or I am singing away to a song, I’ll get them. I think it’s a form of my body showing happiness. LOL.
   
5. I get a sudden rush of panic/adrenaline when I am falling asleep at night. I am nearly all the way asleep (like in that twilight phase) and I will get jumped awake and my HR will skyrocket up to the 130’s. Then I am able to quickly calm down and fall asleep. They are sheer attacks of panic that come out of nowhere, which leads me to believe that when I am just laying there and trying to fall asleep, my body doesn’t know how to “switch” modes from the sympathetic to the parasympathetic system. So I get jolted with adrenaline and a huge gasp gets let out and I feel like I am dying from a heart attack. It’s not sleep apnea. I am not even fully sleeping when this happens. It happens when my body relaxes for one minute when trying to go to sleep.
   
6. I get bouts of vertigo that come out of nowhere. I don’t know what causes vertigo, but I do know that I have fluid in my ears and very bad nasal congestion due to allergies. I hate these spells!
   

I am sure that there are plenty of other symptoms I have. I’m still not sure what “exercise intolerance” means. I thought it meant that you can’t sustain exercising, but then I thought it might have meant that you don’t see much of a change in your HR while exercising or even moving. If anyone can decipher and explain that to me, I would appreciate that education too!
A HUGE thank you to anyone who reads all of this and is able to help me ❤️ Tell me what to do to help me make myself feel better.

I recently attended a seminar at the Columbia School of Social Work on the theme of psychedelic healing. It was an eye-opening experience and confirmed my conviction that the yoga community can play a key role in supporting therapeutic outcomes.
The panelists were inspiring. A grad student, currently in training to become a therapist, spoke of her experience with trauma. Psilocybin therapy had allowed her to make tremendous progress. A middle-aged man related the extreme alcoholism that led his doctors to predict, "At the rate you're going, you'll be dead by 30." After three therapy sessions with magic mushrooms, he had not touched a drink in 6 years.
Another man described his PTSD from childhood abuse and wartime horrors, along with his descent into severe depression and heroin use. He was taken to an Ayahuasca ceremony by a fellow vet and credited the experience with saving his life -- "I experienced joy for the first time."
All the panelists were folks operating at high levels within the world of psychedelic healing -- doctors, up-and-coming therapists, leaders of organizations -- and each one had a powerful, personal story of their own healing path.
I spoke in the Q & A session.
I described my experience, whereby 30 years of yoga practice combined with psychedelic therapy had basically ended my lifelong depression stemming from violent trauma in childhood. I said I could not separate the factors -- Yoga and intentional psychedelic work seemed both to be critical for me.
I noted that, while somatic work and breath work were being addressed more often in the psychedelic-healing community, still many patients were being given medicine with no instruction geared toward balancing energy, building awareness of the breath, settling the mind, etc.
The panelists responded unanimously -- and each one took time to respond to my summary question, "Is there a role for yogis?"
Their answer was, "YES, there is a role for yogis!" They all related ways in which yoga or yoga-adjacent practices had contributed to their psychedelic-healing experiences. They reinforced the "All hands on deck!" sentiment I had received from a prominent ketamine therapist (who is also a yoga teacher).
What is the role for yogis?
The obvious answer is to teach breathing, chakra-scanning, simple asanas, properly. The MAPS guide for MDMA therapy, for example, is light on breath work. I have been to psychedelic healing ceremonies where the facilitator clearly knows that deep breathing is important but they describe the process in a clumsy, incoherent way -- A yoga teacher would teach pranayama much more effectively!
There is also R & D. How does the community come up with effective methods quickly, to benefit the countless folks benefits from psychedelic therapy? Science, with its demand for rigor and adherence to a tight method, is slow. Its conclusions may be strong, but they are often hyper-specific, because only one variable has been addressed.
I believe yogis are the best positioned to develop such healing methods, because of their intuitive understanding of body, breath, and mind -- because of their direct experience.
An example is Tibetan Dream Yoga. This ancient set of practices was developed by yogis over hundreds of years -- Its practices owe to the experiences of practitioners, who learned as they went along, experimented and refined at every step. It is hard to imagine such progress having been made if they were beholden to the scientific method, peer review at every stage, etc.
The dream is very similar to some psychedelic states, so Dream Yoga is an auspicious guide for developing yogic methods for psychedelic healing.
I have started two subs dedicated to this topic, one for ketamine and another for cannabis. KetamineStateYoga and CannabisStateYoga.
I am trying to further a conversation between the yoga and psychedelic-healing communities. If you are a yogi (or practitioner of a yoga-adjacent form) with an interest in psychedelic healing, please relate your experience -- What have you learned? What have been your successes and setbacks?
Or comment on the overall endeavor -- How can yogis be of benefit as psychedelic healing gathers momentum in these turbulent and troubling times?
Thank you!

Hey there, I had an issue with my quest 2 where its led indicator is glow red but not the battery out of power red, its glowing much much stonger and it wont change if I charge it, and won't turn on. Can anybody tell me what it means? After a while It just turned on on its own (It wasn't charging).

(F/34) I don't know what to do any more, I've had loss of appetite for 6 months now and I mean complete loss of appetite I never feel hungry. When this started in January I also had regurgitation and fullness, occasionally reflux but it was often not acidic at all and diarrhea almost every day. It was found I had h pylori from a stool sample, however I could not have treatment because I was also pregnant at the time (conceived after the symptoms started). Because of this I also was not able to have an endoscopy. I unfortunately had a miscarriage in April (I think the h pylori contributed to it). A couple weeks later I did the treatment for the h pylori. However since then although my other symptoms have improved I still have complete loss of appetite and a kind of uncomfortable feeling in my upper left abdomen. I also never feel full, it feels like I've lost all sensation in my stomach. I have been on ppis since this started and they have done nothing. I saw my doctor again yesterday and she basically said there's nothing else they can do now. I asked about having an endoscopy now and she said no (I'm in the UK so NHS). I am now thinking I will have to get one done privately and just get myself into debt as this is really stressful not being able to get to the bottom of it.

My studio has a small patio that I sometimes do work on. About once or twice a week I will hose the patio down. The water flows in to a gutter that runs along the side of the patio and down into a large in-ground tank. Inside the tank there is a 2-part 5 gallon bucket settling system and then a third chamber with a sump pump that pumps water out when the tank fills up. Currently I just feed the hose in to a drain when the tank is emptying, but I’m wondering if it would be safe to feed the hose into my rain barrels which I use to water my vegetable garden instead? The water is moderately cloudy but I’m thinking it should be fine? It looks like if you poured a bit of milk in a glass of water
The only materials I use regularly that I am worried about putting in my soil are mason stains, but those seem to be the first thing to precipitate from the water in the settling chambers and they’re apparently ‘encapsulated’, whatever that means… the water does not have pigments in it when it comes out, although I guess I’m not totally sure if that means the heavy metals in the stains are gone or not.
Am I overthinking this? Lol

Hello, I am new here. I have never used any OnePlus phones as they are almost non existent in my region, but recently I have seen someone with (what they said) a 2 yo OnePlus phone and they showed me something on it and I was amazed by the animation of rotating the screen, as on all my previous phones this animation has always been kind of laggy and ugly. I might now consider OnePlus as my future phone, but I don't know anything about this brand. How are the cameras, processors, how is the feel, the ui, the bloat? What series does OnePlus have and what are the differences between them? If it helps, I am a Samsung user at the moment (A series).

My 8 yo son was diagnosed with epilepsy early April. We have been dealing with this for about 4 years. The seizures presented themselves as night terrors. But they fully turned into seizures. So, he’s been on VIMPAT doing well. He has had at least one mild seizure that we recently saw. So now we are waiting on the Embrace2 watch. However, we got some answers on genetic testing. He has the KCNT1 gene. I’m waiting for my test to come in the mail to see if I’m a carrier. Then his dad will test. But I’m just so lost in this journey. With little support. He use to have 20/30 episodes a night. That has drastically minimized. Which is amazing. But this poor kid hasn’t slept in years. For all we know most of his life since this presented differently and progressively gotten worse. But we just are looking for any and all information so we are informed. Can anyone share experience? If his dad isn’t a carrier or myself, that means he mutated it on his own from what I understand.

Tl,dr at the bottom of the post!
I've read through the tutorial about cable management but I need some additional help here around AC power bricks.
I have an Uplift V2 with a dual arm for my two monitors. Half my desk is used for work, the other half for personal.
I have five bricks in total - 1 laptop, 2 work (laptop and dock), and 2 personal (laptop and dock). I need to take the laptop power adaptors with me often.
Does anyone have any ideas on how to manage the bricks? I used to have this in a wire cable shelf but it was hard to remove the laptop ones. Then I got a standing desk and used a cable box, but there wasn't enough cable length especially when I stood. Uplift's wire tray only fits 2 - its own and one more.
Is there something here I'm missing? Or should be doing? I'm okay with sticking and/or nailing things into my desk though I don't know where or what size/type of screw I'd need.
Other things to note:

1. I have two duplex wall power outlets, one on each side of the desk.
2. Additional things I plug in are a SAD lamp and an Alexa. I'm also looking to get a separate multi-port USB charging station for phones, phone batteries, headphones, smartwatch, etc. So I'm looking at 10 plugs total.

Thanks!
Tl,dr:

• how to mount power adaptor bricks?
• 5 power adaptor bricks used with Uplift desk (2 laptops, 2 docking stations, 1 uplift)
• Uplift wire tray only fits 2
• 3 bricks are owned personally (1 laptop, 1 dock, 1 uplift), 2 are work (1 laptop, 1 dock)
• 2 bricks are frequently removed for travel, not always at the same time, different watts
• okay with screws and using adhesives except for directly on the work-owned power adaptor bricks

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As the title says, I haven't been able to play Roblox at all for about a month now on my main computer, likely due to the Hyperion anticheat update. I have tried everything that the DevForum has said about clean booting, test signing, cleaning my disk, reinstalling, literally everything. I've tried uninstalling programs that might be flagged as "badware", everything. Nothing has worked. Roblox will just instantly crash with no real explanation, and I can't even post anything about it on the DevForum because of how gatekept it is. This is only happening on my main computer, I have successfully played roblox on my phone and on my other PC. Does anyone have literally any idea what to do? I'm getting to the point to where I'm considering just giving up on trying to play. I've never used exploits or cheats of any kind before.
https://youtu.be/v1x0U6D This is what it looks like. Sometimes it just closes itself without the warning.

Warm welcome to You. stranger! I hope you're having a good day and that you're at peace with your mind :)
I like to mix both long and deep discussions about certain topics with rather casual, daily talk. I'm looking here for someone unique and inspiring. A positive, open minded person that I could gain something from and vice versa. To push each other forward, to overcome obstacles and simply go with the flow and enjoy our time together. Lately, I've been wasting too much time doing silly and unproductive things and I know I can do better than that.
I'm up for a talk in Polish, English and basic Russian.
Few facts about me
I'm a rather calm person while being at home, but when I feel good and everything goes well, I've got plenty of positive energy that I'm willing to share with other people, hopefully making their day better
I hold the view that the most important thing in life is a progress of the soul and trying to be the best version of yourself, constant spiritual growth and realizing that we're all one consciousness experiencing each other subjectively and thus, separation is an illusion
I love nature; going for a walk in a forest or by the lake as well as visiting parks while listening to my favourite music / podcasts gives a lot of good vibes
Powerful cycling on my mountain bike, feeling the speed and momentum of that adrenaline rush is what I truly adore
I'm free from any prejudices and stay away from politics / all kind of things that are made to manipulate and agitate the masses to create inner conflicts
I'm not a huge fan of memes
I made a decision to almost completely cut myself off from daily news as I found it unproductive, time consuming and often giving me negative emotions
I used to be listening mainly metal music, but recently I opened up for new genres, mainly electronics; psybient ( Suduaya <3) / psytrance / downtempo / drum'n'bass (DJ Turno <3) / synthwave, phonk, trance and more
I like to watch football, especially my national league
I'm very interested into games and I'd be willing to play some online ones with you on PC / Switch
I like to make some photos and videos of my daily life and would like to share it with you
I try to eat healthy
I'm interested into alternative medicine and natural supplements / herbs
I stay away from NS FW content
I want to come back to being fit - start exercising again and just feel better physically
I don't have any pet myself, but I like to watch different pet videos from all around the world
I'm a person that is willing to listen, support and give honest opinions on different matters
I'm very interested into space, ancient civilizations and the origins of mankind, trying to raise my consciousness each day and be at peace with my mind
Lately I got inspired with the philosophy of stoicism and take some principals of Buddhism as well. Overall looking for Eastern traditions and ancient wisdom
I'm an absolute lover of the Sun and whenever it shines during dark and cold Eastern European winters I go outside, sometimes even spread my arms toward it and let it shine on my face
I'm extremely interested into topics of consciousness, artificial intelligence, alien civilisations, panpsychism and theories about the meaning of life, beginning of existence, future of humanity etc.
Recently I got into watching National Geographic documentaries on Disney +
Lately I got myself a VR headset to explore this technology
I like to watch IRL streams from all around the world
Soon I'm moving out from my parents to a newly build apartment
What impressions do you have on me after reading that small bio? Do you think we could get to know each other better? Hit me up with a DM or via chat and let's find out, shall we? :)

I think the problem with the recent revelations that no one seems to have touched on is…there may be a very good reason disclosure may be a harmful thing. Fair play we would all like to know, but what if the truth is much more terrible than we could have ever imagined. If it were a first contact scenario it would be easier to disclose. If it were a we are not alone situation perhaps the same. But the immense secrecy behind any type of disclosure may mean something else, either the intelligence is more malevolent than we are able to comprehend or perhaps it is that we have absolutely no idea what they are, what they want or why they are here.

I’m a chronic over-thinker. Family history of anxiety and OCD. My thoughts are usually centered around perfectionist ideals of future plans (daily, weekly, yearly, and by the decade) and behaviors, egoic analytical comparisons, or even my ideal philosophies (sometimes I’d consistently repeat the 4 cardinal virtues and how I plan to embody them). Quotes such as [paraphrasing] “you’ve spent enough time debating what a good man should be, be one” and “he who suffers in imagination suffers more than necessary” particularly apply to this but then I start ruminating on more stoic ideologies to combat my overthinking (effectively being stressed about being stressed) which wastes equal amounts of time and energy.
I’ve tried therapy, meditating, and journalling for years now. None of it feels useful. The only time I can be away from my thoughts is when I have an impending high pressure deadline, which is stress of its own kind. I’ve lived this way for years now and no amount of restless sleep overcomes the fatigue.
Any time I bring myself to the moment, it feels like I’m missing out on some analysis or making meaning out of something, but this is nothing but dead time. My life is smooth on paper but I am never at peace.
It inhibits my intrinsic motivation to do things for myself, and I am only able to complete tasks that have direct extrinsic implications.
I want to be embodying my ideal self with peace. But instead I am only fulfilling my responsibilities with restlessness, feeling like I’m losing out in life.

What will you be doing with this PC? Be as specific as possible, and include specific games or programs you will be using.

VR and Gaming

What is your maximum budget before rebates/shipping/taxes?

$3000~$3100

When do you plan on building/buying the PC? Note: beyond a week or two from today means any build you receive will be out of date when you want to buy.

Tomorrow

What, exactly, do you need included in the budget? (ToweOS/monitokeyboard/mouse/etc)

Tower only

Which country (and state/province) will you be purchasing the parts in? If you're in US, do you have access to a Microcenter location?

US Illinois. I have access to a micro center and plan to buy most if not all my parts there.

If reusing any parts (including monitor(s)/keyboard/mouse/etc), what parts will you be reusing? Brands and models are appreciated.

Not reusing

Will you be overclocking? If yes, are you interested in overclocking right away, or down the line? CPU and/or GPU?

No

Are there any specific features or items you want/need in the build? (ex: SSD, large amount of storage or a RAID setup, CUDA or OpenCL support, etc)

https://pcpartpicker.com/list/2Pkqxs
Here is a list I came up with let me know what I can replace to improve or if something is not worth getting and instead giving me an alternative.

Do you have any specific case preferences (Size like ITX/microATX/mid-towefull-tower, styles, colors, window or not, LED lighting, etc), or a particular color theme preference for the components?

Mid-tower or full-tower with rgb and is white. PSU and gpu do not need to be white.

Do you need a copy of Windows included in the budget? If you do need one included, do you have a preference?

No

Extra info or particulars:

https://pcpartpicker.com/list/2Pkqxs

Hello Everyone!
I’m planning to come to Mauritius for a month with my wife and baby of 4months old.
We would like to enjoy the time there the best and therefore plan to do some cultural visits, gastronomic discoveries and some diving here and there.
We have rented two different houses (one on the west coast, the other on the east coast).
During that time, we were looking for a babysitter and the person managing the house suggested someone at 10€/h (around 500MUh). And asking 20€ for the transport.
It goes up to 20€/h + 60€ of transport on Sundays. I mean this is the price I would pay in my country for a babysitter, which seem not very aligned with the Mauritian standard.
When I go through the reddit, it seems like those prices are way above the average salary. What is a reasonable price for a babysitter?
Am I just an entitled tourist that just has to pay touristic prices or am I getting ripped here?
Thanks in advance!
Oh yeah, if you have anything out of the usual to do on your beautiful island and that could be baby friendly, please let me know!

Sup workers of Walmart
Last year some friends and I came up with the idea of creating a tool for hourly workers, for example in retail and retail-adjacent fields, to compare their salaries in order to improve wage transparency, make it easier to identify better opportunities elsewhere locally as well as improve your position in wage negotiations (for example, if you could see that others at your Walmart or other local Walmarts are being paid more for the same work that you do).
From what we have been able to find, there are seemingly few such tools available for hourly workers who kinda need it the most. Glassdoor would seemingly come closest, but seems more geared to salaried employees.
It'd be really nice to hear your thoughts and feedback on the tool. Does it work? Would it help? What sort of functionality would you like that isn't there now? Etc etc.
Link: WageWiz

"Wearable tech, such as a Fitbit, Apple Watch, Oura Ring, Whoop, or any number of other commercially available devices, offers a convenient way to collect personal data about our health trends, whether it’s information about resting heart rate, heart rate variability, sleep duration, or total activity levels.
What is less clear is what all of this data means, especially when some of the readings are unusual or a person is dealing with symptoms for which they don’t have a diagnosis. “What we have right now is a health and wellness industry that provides data-driven insights and data-driven advice, so long as their physiology is typical,” says David Putrino, a physical therapy researcher at Mount Sinai in New York City. “What there is a critical need for is applying those same principles to groups of folks with complex chronic illness who have atypical physiology.”
For the time being, many patients with chronic illnesses are resorting to cobbling together a system that works for them, based on their own knowledge about their condition and the data they can access using a variety of health trackers, all while navigating life with chronic illness, where symptoms fluctuate day-to-day."

Warm welcome to You. stranger! I hope you're having a good day and that you're at peace with your mind :)
I like to mix both long and deep discussions about certain topics with rather casual, daily talk. I'm looking here for someone unique and inspiring. A positive, open minded person that I could gain something from and vice versa. To push each other forward, to overcome obstacles and simply go with the flow and enjoy our time together. Lately, I've been wasting too much time doing silly and unproductive things and I know I can do better than that.
I'm up for a talk in Polish, English and basic Russian.
Few facts about me
I'm a rather calm person while being at home, but when I feel good and everything goes well, I've got plenty of positive energy that I'm willing to share with other people, hopefully making their day better
I hold the view that the most important thing in life is a progress of the soul and trying to be the best version of yourself, constant spiritual growth and realizing that we're all one consciousness experiencing each other subjectively and thus, separation is an illusion
I love nature; going for a walk in a forest or by the lake as well as visiting parks while listening to my favourite music / podcasts gives a lot of good vibes
Powerful cycling on my mountain bike, feeling the speed and momentum of that adrenaline rush is what I truly adore
I'm free from any prejudices and stay away from politics / all kind of things that are made to manipulate and agitate the masses to create inner conflicts
I'm not a huge fan of memes
I made a decision to almost completely cut myself off from daily news as I found it unproductive, time consuming and often giving me negative emotions
I used to be listening mainly metal music, but recently I opened up for new genres, mainly electronics; psybient ( Suduaya <3) / psytrance / downtempo / drum'n'bass (DJ Turno <3) / synthwave, phonk, trance and more
I like to watch football, especially my national league
I'm very interested into games and I'd be willing to play some online ones with you on PC / Switch
I like to make some photos and videos of my daily life and would like to share it with you
I try to eat healthy
I'm interested into alternative medicine and natural supplements / herbs
I stay away from NS FW content
I want to come back to being fit - start exercising again and just feel better physically
I don't have any pet myself, but I like to watch different pet videos from all around the world
I'm a person that is willing to listen, support and give honest opinions on different matters
I'm very interested into space, ancient civilizations and the origins of mankind, trying to raise my consciousness each day and be at peace with my mind
Lately I got inspired with the philosophy of stoicism and take some principals of Buddhism as well. Overall looking for Eastern traditions and ancient wisdom
I'm an absolute lover of the Sun and whenever it shines during dark and cold Eastern European winters I go outside, sometimes even spread my arms toward it and let it shine on my face
I'm extremely interested into topics of consciousness, artificial intelligence, alien civilisations, panpsychism and theories about the meaning of life, beginning of existence, future of humanity etc.
Recently I got into watching National Geographic documentaries on Disney +
Lately I got myself a VR headset to explore this technology
I like to watch IRL streams from all around the world
Soon I'm moving out from my parents to a newly build apartment
What impressions do you have on me after reading that small bio? Do you think we could get to know each other better? Hit me up with a DM or via chat and let's find out, shall we? :)

I looked deeper into the story of alleged Italy 1933 UFO crash retrieved by Italian military. As some of you probably know, Luis Elizondo once gave credence to this story. On the BlackVault website there is intriguing article written by dr Roberto Pinotti who provided telegram document in which Mussolini did order 'absolute silence is required about an alleged landing on national soil of unknown aircraft'.
On the LiberationTimes there is an article from 2021 written by Christopher Sharp, who is very good source of information about UFO and whistleblowers. Here is what he found:
'Mussolini’s next priority was to study the craft. Italy’s top scientists and engineers were assembled to form a top-secret group, supposedly headed by the celebrated engineer Guglielmo Marconi, inventor of the radio.'
'Initially, no one (including Mussolini) strongly believed the craft was of extraterrestrial origin. The most widely held belief was that it was German. After all, the bodies retrieved had a strong resemblance to Germans, with their blue eyes and blonde hair.'
'Although strongly suspected as German, the Italians always referred to the craft’s origin as ‘unknown’ (as stated in documents), meaning nothing conclusive could ever be proved.'
Story about those bodies in Wright-Patterson base. 'Two bodies allegedly lay on a table. They look like twins. They’re dead and preserved with formaldehyde. The bodies are in bad shape. They look like victims of a bad car accident – but the heads remain intact. But their features trouble a French biologist invited to study the bodies.
'Two males, very tall (around 7ft), long blonde hair, very high and spacious foreheads, clear blue eyes that look somewhat Asiatic, small noses, small mouths, small chins, thin lips, very clear pale skin, but no signs of facial hair. Their hands, although slender are human-like, their toes are small and their feet flat. The story gets weirder. Their skin appears perfectly white but shows no signs of keratin granules, which play an important role in providing natural moisturization for the skin, in addition to UV protection, and water retention. Startlingly, the biologist discovered that their lymphatic systems were dominant and practically replaced the blood system, providing a high degree of protection from any disease.'
'They were not human, at least as we know it. That’s at least how the story goes. There are two accounts of these alleged recovered bodies within Wright-Patterson, which inform this story. The first was from William Brophy, whose father claimed to have seen the bodies when serving as a Lieutenant Colonel in the United States Air Force (USAF). Brophy claimed that his father told him the story, among those of other UAP encounters whilst serving in the USAF.'
'The second account is from UAP researcher Leonard Stringfield, who told the story of the French biologist in his 1982 book, named ‘UFO Crash/Retrievals: Amassing the Evidence: Status Report III’. U.S. officials allegedly confirmed to the French biologist that the bodies were not human and were of extraterrestrial origin. After much hesitancy and many years, the biologist decided to tell his story, and his account was picked up by Stringfield.'
Obviously we don't know if that's true or no. However it's worth to mention that those kind of beings were reported during 1954 UFO incident by Jessie Roestenberg and in 1975 by Travis Walton.
https://www.liberationtimes.com/home/disclosure-road-leads-to-rome

Warm welcome to You. stranger! I hope you're having a good day and that you're at peace with your mind :)
I like to mix both long and deep discussions about certain topics with rather casual, daily talk. I'm looking here for someone unique and inspiring. A positive, open minded person that I could gain something from and vice versa. To push each other forward, to overcome obstacles and simply go with the flow and enjoy our time together. Lately, I've been wasting too much time doing silly and unproductive things and I know I can do better than that.
I'm up for a talk in Polish, English and basic Russian.
Few facts about me
I'm a rather calm person while being at home, but when I feel good and everything goes well, I've got plenty of positive energy that I'm willing to share with other people, hopefully making their day better
I hold the view that the most important thing in life is a progress of the soul and trying to be the best version of yourself, constant spiritual growth and realizing that we're all one consciousness experiencing each other subjectively and thus, separation is an illusion
I love nature; going for a walk in a forest or by the lake as well as visiting parks while listening to my favourite music / podcasts gives a lot of good vibes
Powerful cycling on my mountain bike, feeling the speed and momentum of that adrenaline rush is what I truly adore
I'm free from any prejudices and stay away from politics / all kind of things that are made to manipulate and agitate the masses to create inner conflicts
I'm not a huge fan of memes
I made a decision to almost completely cut myself off from daily news as I found it unproductive, time consuming and often giving me negative emotions
I used to be listening mainly metal music, but recently I opened up for new genres, mainly electronics; psybient ( Suduaya <3) / psytrance / downtempo / drum'n'bass (DJ Turno <3) / synthwave, phonk, trance and more
I like to watch football, especially my national league
I'm very interested into games and I'd be willing to play some online ones with you on PC / Switch
I like to make some photos and videos of my daily life and would like to share it with you
I try to eat healthy
I'm interested into alternative medicine and natural supplements / herbs
I stay away from NS FW content
I want to come back to being fit - start exercising again and just feel better physically
I don't have any pet myself, but I like to watch different pet videos from all around the world
I'm a person that is willing to listen, support and give honest opinions on different matters
I'm very interested into space, ancient civilizations and the origins of mankind, trying to raise my consciousness each day and be at peace with my mind
Lately I got inspired with the philosophy of stoicism and take some principals of Buddhism as well. Overall looking for Eastern traditions and ancient wisdom
I'm an absolute lover of the Sun and whenever it shines during dark and cold Eastern European winters I go outside, sometimes even spread my arms toward it and let it shine on my face
I'm extremely interested into topics of consciousness, artificial intelligence, alien civilisations, panpsychism and theories about the meaning of life, beginning of existence, future of humanity etc.
Recently I got into watching National Geographic documentaries on Disney +
Lately I got myself a VR headset to explore this technology
I like to watch IRL streams from all around the world
Soon I'm moving out from my parents to a newly build apartment
What impressions do you have on me after reading that small bio? Do you think we could get to know each other better? Hit me up with a DM or via chat and let's find out, shall we? :)

I’ve seen a ton of posts and memes hating on this concept recently, and maybe it’s just my corner of the internet, but I really don’t get it? I get that it’s kind of a retcon, but it honestly makes sense to me. Obviously not every clone group was going to be successful in eliminating their Jedi, and not all of them would have been with clones or at the temple.
The Jedi Order was a pretty large organization at the time. We never get an exact count but it’s stated that there were 10,000 Jedi Knights in the galaxy at the end of the war, and while I’m inclined to believe Masters and Jedi of higher rank were included in that, I don’t think that probably includes padawans, younglings, and people like Temple Guards who weren’t really Jedi Knights.
Jedi were exceptional combatants armed with lightsabers and the force, and by the end of the war had plenty of experience in fights against blaster wielding opponents. I’d give most individual Jedi Knights a pretty good chance against a small number of clones, and Masters a good chance against larger groups as well.
Also, not every Jedi would probably be cut down immediately. Some, like we see in ROTS would have been taken by surprise, but not every Jedi would go down so easily. Obi-Wan manages to survive the initial attempt to kill him and evade clones to escape off world, and I don’t see why other Jedi couldn’t do similar.
And not every Jedi would have been near clones at the time. As of Obi-Wan, Rahm Kota is canon again, and I can’t see him being the only Jedi to not work with clones. And it’s not like we don’t see Anakin, Ahsoka, and Obi-Wan without their clones during the war, they had plenty of missions with no clones at all. In fact, it doesn’t really make much sense that the initial clone purge and assault on the Jedi Temple was even 99% effective, at least to me. It just doesn’t seem logistically possible.
It’s not like just because the original trilogy doesn’t mention any other Jedi doesn’t mean it isn’t possible. Vader and the inquisitors had two decades to hunt down Jedi, and many who were still alive probably all but disappeared, never to resurface. Ten-thousand Jedi knights might be a lot to have killed all of during the purge, but it isn’t that many in the grand scheme of the galaxy, and I’d imagine there’s plenty of places to hide off the empire’s radar
And speaking of the inquisitors, they don’t really make sense narratively for the fifty some confirmed Jedi survivors. Some of the inquisitors reference having killed Jedi before, in the plural sense, and Vader’s obviously killed and broken far more than any of them. If it was only a small amount, I’d think he’d handle it himself.
So maybe it’s just me, but I don’t hate the idea of Jedi survivors? Obviously there’s be some, and it’s not like it isn’t a narratively interesting story concept to use. What do you guys think?