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During the pandemic California was in a state of emergency, therefore hospitals were hiring nursing aids with expired license. I had an expired license but wanted to give it a shot to apply because I wanted to help the small communities hospital. That was in Summer of 2020. Two weeks ago my manager asked for proof of license, told her it was expired. In that conversation she told me I would be taken off the schedule if it was not renewed. The next day While looking into more information about renewal I received a text from my manager saying I was officially off the schedule. I was sad but asked that if I managed to get my license would my position still be open. She said yes. I applied for unemployment and began to apply for the renewal program when I received a letter from EDD saying that I could possibly not be eligible for benefits. Yesterday I texted my boss pretty peeved about the situation, she didn't offer much clarity besides saying that I was not terminated. Yet she took me off the schedule in the matter of 48hrs & didn't elaborate on the situation. Today I spoke with a very pushy HR lady who wanted to accommodate my needs and deeply apologized for the lack of communication. She proceeded to tell me I was on a leave of absence. However I never submitted paperwork for a leave of absence. She made it clear that they purposely put me on LOA so I could not claim benefits from EDD. They said since I was going to be back eventually it wouldn't matter being gone for undetermined amount of time. I am a mother of two small children. Single mother. I am the head of household and need income. In order for me to finish this program I need EDD benefits. Otherwise I will be homeless & without a car. Can anyone offer me advice on what to do? Or if Labor Commissions can help at all? I am unable to sleep from all the anxiety I have from this impending doom. Thank you in advance

Hi Ladies! I’m a 29 pan woman who’s looking for a fwb. I’d like to meet someone around my age, older is fine tho! I’m femme presenting and on the thicker side. I’d like to get to know you for a little bit before meeting up.
I’m pretty kink friendly and open minded. I’m also not looking for just a hook up, a genuine friend would be lovely.
Some SFW things I’m into: Museums, gardening, road trips, music, thrifting/estate sales, dancing. What are some of yours?

I don't know how to feel. I love his mom a lot, and she considers me as her daughter. We have a mother-daughter bond, so it's no easy to break it off with her. She is a very sweet lady, and doesn't resent him or I for the situation.
She recently texted me, "Hey! How are you? I hope you are doing okay." I replied to her saying I am fine. She then asked if I talked to him, and I told her everything and how he told me he "didn't love me anymore" and he "lost his sense of loving someone" and all that nonsense. (Mind you he said this only a few days after a break up.) However, those words hurt. Like, really painfully strikingly hurtful. So I used his words as a motive to love myself and work on myself. She then told me to "give him some time" in which I responded that I will, however if he reaches out I will talk to him and see how things are, but I'm okay if he doesn't talk to me ever again because I understand. His attachment style is (I'm pretty sure) avoidant, mainly coming from the death of a parent at the age of 7.
His mom texting me being very friendly and loving was actually something I needed, to know that she still cares about me. But it also hurt me to tell her the things he said to me, it was very traumatic on my part. It's not his fault for saying so, since I think I was a big problem in the relationship and I let the traits of BPD sabotage it before I even knew I had BPD.
Anyway, life goes on.

2 years ago, my uncle passed away to suicide. we held a celebration of life for him a few months after his passing. during the celebration they had us dress casually and enjoy ourselves, because "that's what Tim would have wanted"(name changed). after everyone had arrived and settled in they gave people the opportunity to tell stories about him and anyone could go up, they just had to get to the podium first. during this whole time i was thinking, ill go up after this person. well, that never happened so here we are! it was May 11th, 2019. my family went to a nearby city about an hour away from our house. we went to see captain marvel in theaters and thought that was all we were going to do for my brother's birthday, but it turned out "no, we have a surprise for you". there was a shop nearby to the theaters, a little outdoor area, think like a farmers' market so we walked around until it got dark and then hopped in the car. "we're going to Uncle Tim's house! [insert band name] is in town and have a concert tonight!" so, we went to Uncle Tim's house. we went there in a minivan with 5 seats the people on the way to Uncle Tim's house all the seats were filled. when we got there, we changed, and got ready to go, before we left i think we all noticed that Uncle Tim had an absolute massive stash of Hi-chew. he asked our dad if we could have some, my dad as we were about to go to dinner said no. Uncle Tim gave us some anyway. On the way to the concert the van was absolutely filled, and there were not enough seats for Uncle Tim to join us. so, he grabbed a bucket sat on it, no seatbelt whatsoever! we were just chilling with the music as loud as loud can be, singing, talking and laughing! the band is the kind of band where you can be extremely friendly with the artists, such as chatting with them and even being on a first name basis. my family likes to help them set up and take down all their instruments, speakers and anything else that needs to be transported to their van. so, when we got there, they were all done setting up. we ordered food and the band started to play, we were huge dancers back then so Uncle Tim would be picking me up and dancing with me i even have a video from my mom recording, several actually. we did that until ~10:30 at night. afterwards we got autographs and some merchandise. and helped the band pack up their stuff. after all that about an hour had passed it was now 11:26 pm and we got a photo with everyone. that is unfortunately the only photo of my uncle Tim i have in my phone. thank you for reading all this, I didn't even know i could write all of this. I 100% cried a few times writing this.

Character Name	Description
Ace	Luffy's older brother and former commander of the Whitebeard Pirates' 2nd Division.
Akainu	Marine admiral and current Fleet Admiral.
Aokiji	Marine admiral and former member of the Navy HQ.
Bartolomeo	Captain of the Barto Club and a member of the Straw Hat Grand Fleet.
Boa Hancock	Captain of the Kuja Pirates and one of the Seven Warlords of the Sea.
Buggy	Former member of Gol D. Roger's crew and the leader of the Buggy Pirates.
Carrot	A rabbit mink and a member of the Straw Hat Pirates' temporary allies during the Whole Cake Island Arc.
Charlotte Linlin (Big Mom)	Captain of the Big Mom Pirates and one of the Four Emperors of the Sea.
Coby	Marine officer who was once Luffy's friend and rival.
Crocodile	Former president of the criminal organization Baroque Works and one of the Seven Warlords of the Sea.
Donquixote Doflamingo	Former king of Dressrosa and a former member of the Seven Warlords of the Sea.
Dracule Mihawk	A swordsman and one of the Seven Warlords of the Sea known as the "Greatest Swordsman in the World."
Edward Newgate (Whitebeard)	A legendary pirate and one of the Four Emperors of the Sea who was once the "strongest man in the world."
Eustass Kid	Captain of the Kid Pirates and a member of the Worst Generation.
Franky	Cyborg and shipwright of the Straw Hat Pirates who has a cola-powered body.
Fujitora	Marine admiral who has the power to control gravity.
Galdino (Mr. 3)	Former member of Baroque Works and user of the Wax-Wax Fruit.
Garp	Marine vice admiral and Luffy's grandfather.
Gol D. Roger	Former Pirate King who discovered the One Piece and started the Great Pirate Era.
Helmeppo	Marine officer and Coby's friend who was once a coward.
Jinbe	A fishman and a member of the Straw Hat Pirates.
Kaido	Captain of the Beasts Pirates and one of the Four Emperors of the Sea.
Kizaru	Marine admiral known as the "Yellow Monkey" who has the power to move at the speed of light.
Monkey D. Luffy	Captain of the Straw Hat Pirates and a rubber man with a dream to become the Pirate King.
Mr. 2 Bon Clay	Former member of Baroque Works and leader of the Okama Army.
Nami	Navigator of the Straw Hat Pirates who has the ability to forecast the weather.
Nico Robin	Archaeologist and member of the Straw Hat Pirates who has the ability to create limbs and eyes from any surface.
Portgas D. Rouge	Ace's mother and the wife of Gol D. Roger.
Roronoa Zoro	Skilled swordsman and Luffy's first mate.
Sanji	Cook of the Straw Hat Pirates who uses kicks in battle.
Sabo	Luffy's adopted older brother and chief of staff of the Revolutionary Army.
Sengoku	Marine admiral and former Fleet Admiral.
Shanks	Powerful pirate and former member of Gol D. Roger's crew who gave Luffy his signature straw hat.
Silvers Rayleigh	Former member of Gol D. Roger's crew and the Dark King.
Smoker	Marine captain and the wielder of the Logia-type Smoke-Smoke Fruit.
Tashigi	Marine officer and Zoro's frequent opponent.
Tony Tony Chopper	Reindeer who has eaten the Human-Human Fruit and can transform into a human/reindeer hybrid.
Trafalgar Law	Captain of the Heart Pirates and a member of the Worst Generation.
Usopp	Sniper of the Straw Hat Pirates and a compulsive liar.
Bepo	A bear mink and a member of the Heart Pirates.
Charlotte Katakuri	One of Big Mom's three sweet commanders and possessor of the Mochi-Mochi Fruit.
Diamante	A former executive of the Donquixote Pirates and user of the Flag-Flag Fruit.
Enel	The former "God" of Skypiea and user of the Goro-Goro no Mi.
Fisher Tiger	The founder and former captain of the Sun Pirates, a crew composed of fishmen and merfolk.
Gol D. Ace	A member of the Whitebeard Pirates and Luffy's older brother.
Hancock Sisters	Boa Hancock's younger sisters and members of the Kuja Pirates.
Inuarashi	A dog mink and one of the two rulers of the Mokomo Dukedom.
Jozu	A member of the Whitebeard Pirates and possessor of the Diamond-Diamond Fruit.
Kuma	A former Warlord of the Sea and one of the Revolutionary Army's commanders.
Arlong	A sawshark fishman and former captain of the Arlong Pirates.
Bartholomew Kuma	A former Warlord of the Sea and one of the Seven Warlords of the Sea who became a Pacifista cyborg.
Bellamy	A former pirate and a member of the Donquixote Pirates' Diamante Army.
Big Mom Pirates	A powerful pirate crew led by Charlotte Linlin (Big Mom) and composed of a variety of unique characters.
Brogy and Dorry	Two giant warriors and captains of the Giant Warrior Pirates.
Burgess	A member of the Blackbeard Pirates and captain of the First Ship.
Capone Bege	A member of the Worst Generation and captain of the Fire Tank Pirates.
Caesar Clown	A mad scientist and former subordinate of the Big Mom Pirates.
Cavendish	A member of the Beautiful Pirates and possessor of the Superhuman-Human Fruit.
Corazon (Donquixote Rocinante)	The younger brother of Donquixote Doflamingo and former member of the Donquixote Pirates.
Crocus	A doctor and caretaker of the Twin Cape's lighthouse.
Dalton	A former king of the Sakura Kingdom and a bison mink.
Denjiro	A member of the Nine Red Scabbards and former retainer of the Kozuki Family.
Doflamingo Family	A powerful criminal organization led by Donquixote Doflamingo and composed of several officers with unique abilities.
Edward Weevil	A self-proclaimed son of Whitebeard and one of the Seven Warlords of the Sea.
Fukuro	A member of CP9 and user of the Rankyaku technique.
Gaimon	A pirate who was trapped inside a treasure chest on an island for 20 years.
Gin	A former member of the Baratie staff and captain of the Krieg Pirates.
Hannyabal	The vice warden of Impel Down and user of the Devil's Cane-Cane Fruit.
Hawkins	A member of the Worst Generation and captain of the Hawkins Pirates.
Ivankov	The "Queen" of the Kamabakka Kingdom and commander of the Revolutionary Army's Newkama Land forces.
Kaido's Calamities	Three of Kaido's most powerful and feared subordinates: Jack, Queen, and King.
Kin'emon	A samurai from Wano Country and a member of the Nine Red Scabbards.
Koby's Marines	A group of marines led by Coby, consisting of several individuals who have trained under Garp.
Kokoro	A mermaid and conductor of the Puffing Tom.
Krieg	The captain of the Krieg Pirates and an infamous pirate who used underhanded tactics to win battles.
Kuina	Zoro's childhood friend and a skilled swordsman who dreamt of becoming the world's strongest swordsman.
Marco	A member of the Whitebeard Pirates and possessor of the Phoenix-Phoenix Fruit.
Momonosuke	The son of Kozuki Oden and a member of the Kozuki Family.
Monet	A former officer of the Donquixote Pirates and user of the Snow-Snow Fruit.
Mr. 4 and Miss Merry Christmas	A pair of Baroque Works agents who are skilled in explosives and wrestling, respectively.
Nekomamushi	A cat mink and one of the two rulers of the Minks.
Oars Jr.	An enormous giant and former member of the Thriller Bark Pirates.
Pell	A member of the Royal Guards of the Alabasta Kingdom and possessor of the Falcon-Falcon Fruit.
Pica	An executive of the Donquixote Pirates and possessor of the Stone-Stone Fruit.
Pudding	A member of the Big Mom Pirates and one of Big Mom's daughters, who has the ability to manipulate memories.
Rayleigh	A former member of Gol D. Roger's crew and the Dark King.
Rebecca	The gladiator champion of the Corrida Colosseum and a member of the Riku Family.
Rockstar	A member of the Red Hair Pirates and possessor of the Float-Float Fruit.
Ryuuma	A legendary swordsman from Wano Country and possessor of the Shusui sword.
Saboady Archipelago Supernovas	A group of rookie pirates known as the Worst Generation, consisting of Eustass Kid, Scratchmen Apoo, Capone Bege, Basil Hawkins, and Urouge.
Saint Charlos	A World Noble who was responsible for the enslavement of the Fishman Island.
Sabo's Revolutionary Army	A group of revolutionaries led by Sabo, consisting of several individuals who oppose the World Government.
Sabo's Family	The family members of Sabo, including his adopted father and brother.
Scratchmen Apoo	A member of the Worst Generation and captain of the On Air Pirates.
Senor Pink	An officer of the Donquixote Pirates and user of the Nui-Nui Fruit.
Shakky	A former pirate and current owner of Shakky's Rip-off Bar.
Shiki	A former member of the Roger Pirates and the captain of the Golden Lion Pirates.
Silvers Rayleigh's Crew	The crew that accompanied Rayleigh during his time as a pirate, including Zephyr.
Spandam	A former member of CP9 and director of the Cipher Pol organization.
Stelly	The current king of the Goa Kingdom and Sabo's adopted younger brother.
Straw Hat Grand Fleet	A fleet of ships and pirate crews who allied themselves with the Straw Hat Pirates, consisting of the Barto Club, Happo Navy, Ideo Pirates, Tonta Corps, Yonta Maria Grand Fleet, and Beautiful Pirates.
T-Bone	A Marine commodore and commander of the 77th Marine Branch.
Tom	The shipwright who built the Oro Jackson, Gol D. Roger's ship.
Tsuru	A Marine vice admiral and commander of the Navy's Marine Headquarters.
Urouge	A member of the Worst Generation and captain of the Fallen Monk Pirates.
Vergo	A high-ranking officer of the Donquixote Pirates and undercover agent in the Marines.
Wapol	A former king of the Drum Island and user of the Baku-Baku Fruit.
Wapol's Family	The family members of Wapol, including his father and brother.
X Drake's Marine Fleet	A fleet of ships led by X Drake, who defected from the Navy and joined the Beast Pirates.
Yonko	The four most powerful pirate captains in the world: Shanks, Big Mom, Kaido, and Blackbeard.
Zephyr	A former Marine admiral and leader of the Neo Marines.
Alvida	A pirate captain and the first person Luffy defeated after setting sail.
Baby 5	An officer of the Donquixote Pirates and user of the Buki-Buki no Mi.
Basil Hawkins' Crew	The crew that accompanies Basil Hawkins, consisting of several individuals with unique abilities.
Bellemere	The adoptive mother of Nami and a former Marine.
Blackbeard Pirates	A powerful pirate crew led by Blackbeard, consisting of several officers with unique abilities.
Bonney	A member of the Worst Generation and captain of the Bonney Pirates.
Buggy's Delivery	A delivery service run by Buggy, who employs former members of the Baroque Works.
Carrot	A rabbit mink and a member of the Mokomo Dukedom.
Chaka	A member of the Royal Guards of the Alabasta Kingdom and possessor of the Inu-Inu no Mi, Model: Jackal.
Charlotte Amande	One of Big Mom's daughters and a member of the Big Mom Pirates.
Charlotte Brûlée	One of Big Mom's daughters and a member of the Big Mom Pirates, who has the ability to create and manipulate mirrors.
Charlotte Compote	One of Big Mom's daughters and a member of the Big Mom Pirates.
Coby's Mentor	A Marine vice admiral who served as Coby's mentor during his time at the Marine Academy.
Dadan	The leader of the mountain bandits on Mt. Colubo and the adoptive mother of Ace and Luffy.
Daz Bones	A former officer of Baroque Works and user of the Supa-Supa no Mi.
Doberman	A Marine vice admiral and commander of the G-1 Marine Base.
Drake	A former Marine admiral and captain of the Drake Pirates.
Edward Newgate (Whitebeard)	The captain of the Whitebeard Pirates and one of the Four Emperors of the Sea.
Foxy	The captain of the Foxy Pirates and user of the Noro-Noro no Mi.
Fukaboshi	A prince of the Ryugu Kingdom and a shark merman.
Gaimon's Friend	A friend of Gaimon who was stuck inside a treasure chest on an island.
Gatz	The host of the Corrida Colosseum and a member of Dressrosa's ruling family.
Gedatsu	A member of the Shandia tribe and former priest of the Skypieans.
Gladius	An executive of the Donquixote Pirates and user of the Pamu-Pamu no Mi.
Gloriosa	The former queen of the Alabasta Kingdom and Nefertari Cobra's predecessor.
Hajrudin	A giant warrior and captain of the New Giant Warrior Pirates.
Hina	A Marine captain and user of the Ori-Ori no Mi.
Hyogoro	A former yakuza boss and member of the yakuza alliance led by the Kozuki Family.
Ikaros Much	A member of CP9 and user of the Mogu-Mogu no Mi.
Jaguar D. Saul	A giant warrior and former Marine vice admiral who befriended Robin.
Jinbe	A former member of the Shichibukai and captain of the Sun Pirates.
Kabuto	A member of the Revolutionary Army and a former Revolutionary Army commander.
Kaido's Army	The army of subordinates who follow Kaido, consisting of a variety of powerful and unique characters.

Kaid

I am 39f married to 45m narcissist. We have been together since April of 2020. We married a few months after we met. Those were the best days. In the beginning, I had never met a man so respectful and such a charismatic gentleman. He would always play talk saying he was just getting in good. I should have believed that. I have a daughter 9, from a previous marriage. It was an abusive relationship that lasted 27 years. How I managed to get out of it was pure work. Years of practicing positive thoughts. I have PTSD, bipolar 1, manic anxiety, and OCD. I see a doctor regularly and I go to any and every chance to learn and grow more to not show any symptoms. Fake it till ya make it. Now my husband has some me tal issues. He definitely is ADHD that's known. But there are others, anxiety being the absolute worst you can imagine, others that are undiagnosed. I was not aware of narcissism at all. 3 years prior to our meeting, he was in a tragic car accident and resulted in traumatic brain injury. Also after that, while taking a walk a car ran him over and left him for dead. His left leg is titanium from knee to ankle. Not only, all his previous relationships were toxic for him actually. Every time the woman left him for another man they cheated with. So along with the childhood trauma that no one wants to admit, he is drinker, previous drug problems from the past, pill problem from the past also, been to jail a couple times. He did got AA to quit drinking and a rehab with a 12 step program. So he still drinks only from time to time, but has been off drugs as pills without wanting to return to that. Now, back to the present day. He has Chronic pain from his leg injury and as of 9 mths ago, hurt his right foot somehow pedaling a bike to rush to see me at the hospital because I had our daughter. That was not planned nor we we're not aware I was pregnant. No baby bump. She is fully developed with absolutely no problems at all. Healthy. So I have a daughter 9 that doesn't live with me but comes for visits, and now another daughter, his only biological daughter that is his exact mini. He loves her and is very protective of her. He doesn't do much as of diapers or feeding with solids, he has done it but cannot stomach the mess of baby food. He does spend time with her and is so doting. He gets depressed and down off and on. He has not worked in a year or so because of the pain and problems worsening physically. Trying for disability. So I take care of him and whatever he needs. He is spoiled yes. But he is built to work that all he knew before so he does help around the house and projects if his liking. He is an angry and bitter man about his past. Holds anyone for anything they done wrong and when they cross his mind he is livid. There was no anger towards me until he lost his last job. He physically was unable to keep on so they let him go. It changed him for the worse. After that happened he went into a very deep depression and started taking his pain and anxiety and anger or anything that bothered him out on me. This was very new to me and very hurtful. I didn't what to think or how to feel because after a short time or a nap he would be normal and loving again. It was odd and confusing. Very hurtful and I started getting worse each time and then more and more. I eventually started fighting him back. Defending myself to his claims. I would get loud and yell because he just wouldn't stop going off. All of it was bs. He never told anyone else about it, just hurt me. Eventually it got so bad that I would physically hurt him then take the baby and leave for a while. One time I slept in my car just to be away from him. No cops ever involved. But he would go through the cycle and apologize and tell me all the good things he used to. He would tell me that the hurtful things were not true, he never felt that way, he would just do that to hurt me. At those times he would admit to the abuse and that he was wrong and hated that he would ever do that. But it would keep happening in cycles. I eventually stopped fighting and just would walk off away and cry. He always said something I did or said would just trigger his anger. So I naturally thought it was all me messing us up. Even went into a hospital for mental health for a week. It isn't me. His mom who I am so close to, told me in passing one day he was a narcissist. I didn't think about it enough or anything to change my mind that it wasn't stemming from his past. Well as of lately she brought it to my attention several times. So I finally saw something on narcissism on TikTok. Which I saw that, I immediately started researching everything I could find about it. I am an empath and he does go through the same motions as every other one. I mean I have read countless articles where the situation was so similar it could have been myself. Through this research I have also learned that it's very possible that he could never get better and in fact as he ages, it will worsen. Now it's been 3 very hard years for us. It has not been all bad. And I have reacted horribly to his outbursts. Now I have decided to try to stay the course. I love him and he does show me love too. I know how to play the game and am willing to play until he leaves himself on his own decision. He has never shut me out or left me at All even at his maddest times. No matter what I did. So I'm not convinced that he will leave. I do think that he has to rely on me so much that it is easier for him not to go. And when he is normal self I am above and beyond happy to help and do for him. When the darkness comes out, I notice it immediately because his tone always changes. He will start the devaluing and I will either agree with him in a nonchalant way or just completely play it off like I truly don't care. So I don't really take what he says in those moments to heart. Truly what he is saying to me is what he is and is doing to me himself. I know to not react to it at all so I don't or I react in a very positive loving way and manner he stops and changes his words back to sometimes even saying that I was right. So I will just play his game with him. When it's good times, it's better than I imagined heaven. When its bad, the hurt has been replaced with what's the sweetest and most positive way to end it quickly. We don't get physical or no raised voices. He says his hurtful things and I might even agree and apologize or walk away and start a complete different subject and that throws him off. Remember he's ADHD, I find a pleasant way to distract him from the madness. It's become just an inconvenience for me and I have struggled to keep my composure, but it's a work in progress. As it took about 10 years to be an automatic positive thinker and person in general, this will take time and practice too. But I think it will be second nature in no time. I have faith! #strong #boss

TLDR: My son thinks the daycare teacher is his mom and I’m hurt.
Without going into too much detail, I had a rough childhood and was not protected by my mother. I have resentment for her absence in my upbringing and vowed to be present in my children’s lives.
When my son was born I took a year off work to stay home with him. For mental and financial reasons I needed to go back to work. It was hard transitioning him to daycare because we had such a bond. I am very fortunate that the daycare he is in loves him and he loves them. I try very hard to make the times he is home special, I cook dinner every night, no tv, play a board game(age appropriate)or dance party, bath, books, songs, bed.
When I picked him up the other day he called out momma and ran to me. I picked him up kissed him and put him down and then he ran to the daycare teacher let’s call her Beth and said bye momma and gave her a hug. I thought he was being silly and so I called him a goose and said I’m your momma. Today my husband told me that he calls her momma all the time and when my husband told him that wasn’t his momma he said yes she’s my momma too. We explained that he only has one momma. He said okay momma beth.
I am glad he is loved and he loves his teacher but my heart broke. The truth is he spends most of his time with them M-F 8-6 I understand why he would think of her as a mom. I feel so guilty and hurt. I don’t know how to do more.

I keep seeing 513 which is who I think is my twin flames bday. It’s crazy. I saw it on the way taking my daughter to dance class and said I need to looking this up and ask if it’s some twin flame shit then 30 mins later during her class I hear a lady say a lot her baby “His bday is May 13th!” 🤦🏼‍♀️ I know we won’t be together in this lifetime but Jesus can you stop taunting me???! He keeps visiting me in my dreams too even though he’s the runner.
He finally pushed me away with his running but somehow won’t leave me alone when I’ve moved on with my life and accepted that it’s the next lifetime for us.
So can I safely say this is my twin flame? Lol thanks everyone

Working in a pawn shop, we get all kinds of weird shit. But there’s one thing they all have in common: their condition. Dresses are stained, handbags are ripped, even jewelry is wonky and bent.
That's what made the matryoshka doll so special: she was in perfect condition.
I found her while sorting through Wednesday’s sales. As soon as I saw her, I gasped. Almond-colored wood, finely carved into a peanut shape. A beautiful face, painted more photorealistically than other matryoshka dolls I’d seen. Sparkling blue eyes and rosy cheeks, with a colorful scarf tying up her black hair.
I set her on the table, with the other goods destined for the back of the shop. But then, my curiosity got the better of me. I picked her back up and—pop!—twisted her open.
An identical doll stared back up at me, just a little bit smaller. Rosy cheeks, pretty blue eyes, pink and white flowers painted on her dress. I took her out of the bottom shell and—
Pop!
Inside, another doll stared back up at me.
Except this one wasn't identical.
It was nearly identical. But the woman's mouth was open this time, in a little O. Her hands were unclasped, as well, and hanging at her sides.
Huh. I thought they were all supposed to look the same. I'd seen some matryoshka dolls that made changes to the woman's dress—different flowers or patterns—with each iteration. But the woman’s face usually appeared identical.
I twisted her open again. Pop.
The woman's mouth was open wider. Her eyes were wider too—the black strokes of her eyelids bulging out from the previous almond shape. Her elbows were bent and her hands were moving up, towards her face.
I paused, glancing from this doll to the other three.
Pop.
I froze.
The fifth doll's mouth was open wide. As if she were screaming. Her eyes were so wide they were nearly perfect circles.
And her hands were held out in front of her body... as if she were trying to defend herself.
I sat there for a long time, staring at that painted face. This was starting to feel like some sort of joke. Someone trying to scare me. Come to think of it, the matryoshka doll didn't look that different from me. Black hair, blue eyes.
Is this supposed to be some sort of threat?
I shook my head. Sighing, I twisted the doll open again—
And it clattered to the floor.
The woman's face was covered in blood. Dark red painted in meticulous lines down the side of her face. It dripped off of her face and onto her dress, staining the pink flowers red.
When I picked it up, I felt a deep scratch in the wood—on the back of her head.
I felt sick. I set the doll down on the table and took a deep breath. I'll get here early, finish inventory in the morning. It was almost ten o'clock and there was no way I was going to stay here another second with this creepy-ass doll.
But as I began to stand, my curiosity again got the better of me. I snatched the doll off the table and pulled her apart again.
Pop.
My blood ran cold.
The doll looked similar to the previous one. Blood dripping down her face, onto her dress. Mouth hanging open in a silent scream.
Except, in this one, her eyes were closed.
And her skin was so pale it was almost blue.
My heart pounded in my ears. Hands shaking, I pulled at the ends of the doll. My hands slipped against the wood. But on the third try, I finally got the doll open.
There wasn’t a doll inside.
Instead, there was a folded piece of paper.
I was shaking like a leaf. But I pulled the paper out of the doll and unfolded it, little black dots dancing at the edge of my vision.
Four little words, written in sloppy scrawl.
I’ll see you soon.
I ran out of the pawn shop. I thought I heard the distinctive thump of footsteps behind me—but I dove into my car without looking back. When I got to my apartment I drew the deadbolt and collapsed onto the floor, sobbing.
The police haven’t been able to find who did this. My boss remembers the man who sold it to us, but his description matches nearly every white, brown-haired guy in America. The name he used was fake, and we don’t have security cameras.
He’s untraceable.
I quit my job and moved to a new apartment. But other than that, I don’t know what to do. Part of me thinks that, since nothing has happened in months, he’s moved on.
But then I have the nightmares.
Nightmares of being crammed into a life-sized matryoshka doll. The wood closing in like a coffin, the sliver of light at my waist getting narrower by the second. Then—pop!—the wooden ends meet and I’m scratching at the wood, screaming for help, my mouth open in an O like the painted face of the doll.
But nobody can hear me.

Working in a pawn shop, we get all kinds of weird shit. But there’s one thing they all have in common: their condition. Dresses are stained, handbags are ripped, even jewelry is wonky and bent.
That's what made the matryoshka doll so special: she was in perfect condition.
I found her while sorting through Wednesday’s sales. As soon as I saw her, I gasped. Almond-colored wood, finely carved into a peanut shape. A beautiful face, painted more photorealistically than other matryoshka dolls I’d seen. Sparkling blue eyes and rosy cheeks, with a colorful scarf tying up her black hair.
I set her on the table, with the other goods destined for the back of the shop. But then, my curiosity got the better of me. I picked her back up and—pop!—twisted her open.
An identical doll stared back up at me, just a little bit smaller. Rosy cheeks, pretty blue eyes, pink and white flowers painted on her dress. I took her out of the bottom shell and—
Pop!
Inside, another doll stared back up at me.
Except this one wasn't identical.
It was nearly identical. But the woman's mouth was open this time, in a little O. Her hands were unclasped, as well, and hanging at her sides.
Huh. I thought they were all supposed to look the same. I'd seen some matryoshka dolls that made changes to the woman's dress—different flowers or patterns—with each iteration. But the woman’s face usually appeared identical.
I twisted her open again. Pop.
The woman's mouth was open wider. Her eyes were wider too—the black strokes of her eyelids bulging out from the previous almond shape. Her elbows were bent and her hands were moving up, towards her face.
I paused, glancing from this doll to the other three.
Pop.
I froze.
The fifth doll's mouth was open wide. As if she were screaming. Her eyes were so wide they were nearly perfect circles.
And her hands were held out in front of her body... as if she were trying to defend herself.
I sat there for a long time, staring at that painted face. This was starting to feel like some sort of joke. Someone trying to scare me. Come to think of it, the matryoshka doll didn't look that different from me. Black hair, blue eyes.
Is this supposed to be some sort of threat?
I shook my head. Sighing, I twisted the doll open again—
And it clattered to the floor.
The woman's face was covered in blood. Dark red painted in meticulous lines down the side of her face. It dripped off of her face and onto her dress, staining the pink flowers red.
When I picked it up, I felt a deep scratch in the wood—on the back of her head.
I felt sick. I set the doll down on the table and took a deep breath. I'll get here early, finish inventory in the morning. It was almost ten o'clock and there was no way I was going to stay here another second with this creepy-ass doll.
But as I began to stand, my curiosity again got the better of me. I snatched the doll off the table and pulled her apart again.
Pop.
My blood ran cold.
The doll looked similar to the previous one. Blood dripping down her face, onto her dress. Mouth hanging open in a silent scream.
Except, in this one, her eyes were closed.
And her skin was so pale it was almost blue.
My heart pounded in my ears. Hands shaking, I pulled at the ends of the doll. My hands slipped against the wood. But on the third try, I finally got the doll open.
There wasn’t a doll inside.
Instead, there was a folded piece of paper.
I was shaking like a leaf. But I pulled the paper out of the doll and unfolded it, little black dots dancing at the edge of my vision.
Four little words, written in sloppy scrawl.
I’ll see you soon.
I ran out of the pawn shop. I thought I heard the distinctive thump of footsteps behind me—but I dove into my car without looking back. When I got to my apartment I drew the deadbolt and collapsed onto the floor, sobbing.
The police haven’t been able to find who did this. My boss remembers the man who sold it to us, but his description matches nearly every white, brown-haired guy in America. The name he used was fake, and we don’t have security cameras.
He’s untraceable.
I quit my job and moved to a new apartment. But other than that, I don’t know what to do. Part of me thinks that, since nothing has happened in months, he’s moved on.
But then I have the nightmares.
Nightmares of being crammed into a life-sized matryoshka doll. The wood closing in like a coffin, the sliver of light at my waist getting narrower by the second. Then—pop!—the wooden ends meet and I’m scratching at the wood, screaming for help, my mouth open in an O like the painted face of the doll.
But nobody can hear me.

I don't agree with this bill because my family is full of tall women. I'm 6'0 and my mom is 6'4. If I'm stopped because someone thinks I'm trans based on my height, what do I do? I don't agree with treating trans people this way and I'm also concerned for my other tall cis ladies in Iowa. I feel like this isn't right at all.

Hello! I am back with more astrology birth chart analysis. For this post, I wanted to highlight the trainees that showcase the phrase “there’s more than meets the eye” -- meaning, trainees that might be very different from the first impressions they give off.
❗DISCLAIMER: I think astrology is a fun way to interpret people but it's not always 100% accurate! I do not think any of us will ever fully know any of the trainees (or anyone else aside from ourselves for that matter). ALSO, “first impressions” are IMMENSELY influenced by one’s rising sign, but since we do not know the exact time of birth for any of the trainees, it is hard to fully analyze. Please take everything with a grain of salt and remember this is JUST FOR FUN! & if you're new to astrology, feel free to ask questions~
🔮 BACKGROUND & TRAINEES OF FOCUS:
When I first thought about the phrase “first impressions don’t mean anything” my mind immediately went to Kim Jiwoong. His “mysterious hot cool guy” vibe is what reality TV dreams of. However, it’s already been (relatively) shown that he is also super dorky and has a “cute” side. Similarly, Park Gunwook had his “overconfident intimidating cool guy” vibe, but again it has been shown that Gunwook is a “giant baby” who gets doted on by the older trainees. [I have analyzed their charts on my twt so pls scroll down if you want links to read their individual analyses!]
I then asked myself, who else seems like there’s “more than meets the eye”? Who definitely “acts” one way (or are “portrayed/shown” one way by Mnet) but it definitely feels like there is more to who they are that hasn’t been shown?
The first four trainees that came to mind are: Keita, Kim Taerae, Haruto & Park Hanbin
Completely unintentionally, all of them are water signs. Which I suppose makes sense since water signs are typically more in tune with emotions and aren’t as “outgoing” as fire or air signs. (Though I was very shocked to learn Haruto is a water sign lol).
⭐ KEITA
My 1st thought: he’s a composer, producer, choreographer, singer, rapper, generally well liked, AND a cancer? AIN’T NO WAY. Then I saw he has 3 sagittarius, 3 gemini, and 3 aquarius in his chart and proceeded to scream into the void.
Starting w/ the 4 first signs, Keita became Avatar the Last Airbender with his signs here -- his sun (main/core sign) is in cancer [water], his moon (emotions/internal processing) is in sagittarius [fire], his mercury (communication) is in gemini [air], and his venus (perceptions of love) is in taurus [earth]. At first glance, this seemingly helps keep Keita very balanced keeping his actions, thoughts, words, and emotions all in check. However, this could also cause a lot of back and forth internally.
Cancers are known to either cry very often or bottle up every emotion until it comes out uncontrollably. This paired with the sagittarius moon and mars (ruler of intense emotions) makes me assume Keita is the second since sagittarius also tend to bottle up their emotions and only express themselves in situations they deem to be appropriate. This is unsurprising as he was shown crying during the Limousine performance as he resonated with the lyrics’ message.
Geminis are social butterflies that mold well to different situations. This being Keita’s mercury might make others feel more at ease as Keita might have a good sense of humor and/or know what to say to keep morale up. Taurus are typically very patient. Keita showed both mercury gemini and venus taurus traits when he helped Jay during the star level test & when he reassured Hyunbeen about his center position in zoom.
Stelliums occur when 3 or more planets are in the same sign. Keita has his mercury, jupiter, and saturn in gemini. Sometimes the traits of the stellium overpower the core sun sign. In this case, I think it’s a benefit to Keita. Jupiter represents expansion and saturn represents effort. Since geminis are social butterflies that are always seeking fun, these traits can help balance out the emotional cancer sun sign and give Keita the ability to let loose and not take things seriously all of the time.
Neptune represents the parts one tries to hide. Uranus represents individuality/quirkiness. Lilith represents buried traits. Keita has all of these in aquarius. Keita is probably just as standout as some of the really outgoing trainees, but refrains from doing so because of his self-image. This is shown during the dance battle with Woongki where Keita starts to drop into similar “girlypop” moves but then reverts to more a “street” style.
There is definitely more than meets the eye with Keita! I’m sure he has gone through a lot of hardships and a lot of triumphs, none of which have been particularly documented by Mnet. His image of an “all rounder” is positive but Mnet doesn’t seem to leave room for interpretation. I hope Keita is able to showcase more of himself (especially as a singer, composer, producer, and maybe some other surprise titles?) in ways he wants to and not because he thinks he has to ascribe to a specific persona.
🌙 KIM TAERAE
When I saw Taerae’s smile and heard his angelic voice, I thought he HAS to have some type of evil alter ego. Instead I’m faced with a wholesome chart that makes it hard to believe someone like this exists let alone someone who is willingly putting himself into the spotlight of fame and stardom???
Cancers (as the cardinal water sign) are notorious for being the “most sensitive/emotional” sign. Taerae’s sun (core), mercury (communication), and jupiter (expansion) are all in cancer. This most likely means he speaks and carries himself with a lot of compassion for others. This can be seen throughout the “MIL” clips as he is helping out others & continuously raving about how good his members did. Also his genuine reaction when seeing Hyunbeen was selected as the “Zoom” center. The signs indicate nothing he said was exaggerated and he genuinely believes in uplifting even the smallest wins of others.
The moon sign represents emotions and self-image and venus represents perceptions of love. Taerae has both of these in virgo. Virgos tend to appreciate routine and are detail-oriented. The combination of the moon and venus sharing the virgo sign might mean Taerae often appreciates the little things in life and doesn’t take them for granted. This can be seen during the behind the scenes of the studio choom shooting, Taerae says, “[Seeing] the lights already touches my heart.”
Taerae’s mars (intense emotions when under pressure) in leo gives him drive. Leos are known to be very “goal-oriented” and always seeking a greater purpose. I’m assuming this sign is what helps Taerae manage when he does feel pressured and drives him to become an idol.
Neptune represents parts one might try to hide and Uranus represents individuality/quirkiness. Taerae has both in aquarius, meaning he might suppress some traits that make him different from others; however, many trainees this season also have these placements on top of more air and/or fire signs in their charts which might make Taerae seem “not as marketable” as others in front of the camera. (But if you have seen him in any of the “scare pranking trainees” clips then you already know he’s weird forreal because not him being more scared of the pupa than the ghost??).
I’m hopeful that the balance of water and earth continues to ground Taerae with his emotions and processing “fame”. Also the sprinkling of air signs should help keep things light hearted as well. I hope he continues to find support within himself and with others. Mnet is forreal shaking in their boots cause they had absolutely 0 content that could be manipulated and/or evil edited from Taerae. His chart explains why he might not have had much screen time because all his interactions were probably very WHOLESOME!!!
⭐ HARUTO
Alright girlypops buckle in for the wild ride that is Maeda Haruto. Behind every “don’t worry I’m FINE” Scorpio is the desire to cry and be reminded everything will be okay.
For starters, scorpios are usually stereotyped as broody, sassy, unlikely to share about themselves, and full of that “it’s not a phase, mom!” energy. One does not want to get on a scorpios “bad list” because scorpios will hold onto a grudge until they die (and possibly pass it on for generations to come). The fact that Haruto’s sun (core) and mars (intense emotions expressed under pressure) are both in Scorpio means he is probably able to channel his intense energy and turn it into sheer willpower even in high stress situations. This makes sense considering Haruto willingly moved to South Korea on his own, has survived multiple audition programs, and still currently perseveres.
However, the combination can also prove to be harmful. Scorpios have the potential to become upset if things do not go as planned often through passive aggressive remarks or sarcasm. I’m assuming Haruto’s “sassiness” has been marketable to Mnet, otherwise they probably could have easily “evil edited” him for extra drama clips.
Capricorns are known to keep cool, calm, and collected outer demeanor. Haruto having his moon (emotions/self-image) in capricorn brings balance to the intense scorpio sun. He probably stays level headed and has an ordered step-by-step self-care routine. This is unsurprising considering all the trainees have noted Haruto goes to sleep by 10PM every time.
Sagittarius are the mutable fire sign meaning they are not usually as outgoing compared to Leo or Aries. However, Haruto’s mercury (communication) in sag is probably amplified by his scorpio sun. His one-liners (“You’re a BIRD!!!” & “Matthew hyung, sorry~~”) are the epitome of this combination. He comes across as outgoing, a bit “tongue-and-cheek”, and memorable.
Libras always seek balance. Haruto having his venus (perception of love) in libra probably means he looks for reciprocity in all his relationships - he probably won’t go out of his way for someone unless they go out of their way for him. During the show, this has probably helped him preserve his time and energy to focus on honing in on his skills as an idol.
Uranus represents individuality/quirkiness. Saturn represents effort. Unlike many of the other trainees, Haruto has both of these planets in water signs (often more in tune with emotions). His saturn in cancer might make him feel intimidated by critique and/or judgment + his uranus in pisces probably means he has the tendency to be a team player rather than a leader. This can be seen when he was in the first training lesson with Solji (and also when he was on LOUD and started crying with JYP).
Note: Haruto definitely has different vibes from his first impressions compared to his chart. I’m under the impression his rising sign (and subsequent other signs) might be drastically different, influencing his personality in ways we can’t analyze unless his birth time is known.
Although Haruto is perfectly capable of being a bad boss-ass b*tch (positive) and keeping afloat, I think it would benefit him to be around others who are capable of expressing their inner thoughts and feelings more often (especially seeing his comments Mnet posts on his fancams). I hope Haruto is able to let others in and also be reminded that it’s okay to trust others and ask for help!
🌙 PARK HANBIN
At first glance, I thought PHanbin would have traits typical of a fire or earth sign leader full of righteousness and outgoing demeanor. However, PHanbin might be one of the secret crybabies on Boys Planet. He is definitely an atypical leader as his chart is full of water and air signs, including an aquarius stellium.
Pisces (as the mutable water sign) are the epitome of self-sacrifice and sometimes are seen as doormats who will get repeatedly stepped on over and over again. PHanbin’s sun (core) and venus (perceptions of love) are both in pisces. Pisces are the ruler of venus and those with this particular placement are thought to be among the most empathetic. This most likely means he will put others before himself. Pisces are very inclusive of all and most pisces leaders will not move forward with decisions without getting the input of everyone on their team. Their water-like fluidity will let them fit into almost any role. This can be seen with PHanbin’s past leader roles both in “Hot Sauce” and in “Law” as he prioritizes the strengths of his team members to create a harmonious picture.
The moon sign represents emotions and so the Libra (air) placement indicates PHanbin might recharge by being around others; this might contradict with his pisces sun and venus as pisces tend to be more introverted and enjoy recharging in solitude. At the same time, the amount of trainees PHanbin has seemingly befriended (and how different they all are from one another) indicates this libra moon combined with the pisces sun invites others in and his presence makes others feel safe.
The mars sign represents emotions under intense stress and/or situations. Aries is the ruler of this sign. The fact that PHanbin’s mars is in aries makes a lot of sense and is probably what gives him more “typical” leadership qualities. Mars aries are very righteous and believe in order and hard work to achieve good results. This is shown when the “Law” trainees mention PHanbin had rumors spread among the trainees for creating a “hard/strict” training regime from his former teams; this is also seen as PHanbin actively makes the “Law” trainees repeat key moves over and over again. However, I’m assuming the water signs in the chart balance out this authoritative stance because the trainees are willing to still follow along and feel grateful for PHanbin’s leadership.
PHanbin’s mercury is also in aquarius which might mean the way he communicates is a little more lighthearted than how he actually carries himself. Since the water sign pisces can be a little emotional, the air sign of aquarius (and especially because PHanbin is an aquarius stellium) can balance that out. Like many other trainees, PHanbin’s uranus and neptune are both in aquarius meaning he might try to conceal the weird and/or different parts of himself -- but at this point EVERYONE in Boys Planet is a lil weird, a lil fruity, and/or some mix of the two.
Overall, PHanbin’s chart honestly leaves me with a lot more questions than it does answers. Like Haruto, PHanbin definitely has different vibes from his first impressions compared to his chart. I’m under the impression his rising sign (and subsequent other signs) might be drastically different. The way Mnet has portrayed him is definitely different from what his chart indicates (or maybe it’s just the lack of screentime) so I hope he is able to showcase more of himself in future episodes!
🌟 COMPLETED SUN SIGN DATA SPREADSHEET (TOP 52):
You can click here to see my entire spreadsheet of all 52 members in TAB 1 & with visual charts in TAB 2.
💫 WHERE TO FIND ME & MORE ASTROLOGY ANALYSIS:
I post on Twitter mostly but will also cross-post on IG / TikTok when I have the time! Here are the individuals I have done analyses for thus far:

• Keita - link here
• Kim Taerae - link here
• Haruto - coming soon (after I edit what I wrote above)
• Park Hanbin - coming soon (after I edit what I wrote above)
• Seo Won - link here
• Sung Hanbin - link here
• Park Gunwook - link here
• Kim Jiwoong - link here

I hope to continue posting more natal / birth chart analysis to my twitter in the near future. I really enjoy doing these and I’m so glad others have enjoyed reading them~
If you made it to the end of this post, thank you for sticking around! If you're also interested in astrology, I'd love to hear your thoughts on the Boys Planet members!

So my parents finally had a divorce in 2020. I say "finally" because I saw it coming and honestly wanted them to. They have been fighting for years and other problems made me just want them to get a divorce because the tension was horrible.
They got a divorce because my dad fucked up, but my mom was the one to move out. For years now my mom has told me that if they ever got a divorce she would take me and my brother and we would live happily alone. But because she already found a new partner while the divorce was still in motion, me and my brother did not want to go live with her because she promised it would only be the three of us. It's childish, I know, but me and my brother have been through a lot.
So me and my brother live with my dad now and it's fucking awful. Even though my dad messed everything up he pretends to be the victim. He acts like we have to pity him. He has always had an alcohol problem but ever since the divorce it got worse. He would always say "your mother did this to me". My dad stopped receiving a bonus at work because he's been slacking off and we spiraled down a financial disaster. He actually quit his job a month ago, making me even more worried about our financial situation.
My mom has always done the cooking and cleaning around the house so when she left I had to take over. I taught myself how to do the laundry and I had experience doing the dishes but never liked doing it because it's gross. My cooking was sometimes good but ive never made something disgusting. I always made sure my brother had clean clothes to wear to school and I would even spend the little money I had to buy something if we really needed it. Where I always spent my money for pleasure I now have to use it like an adult.
So, about my dad... Yeah he's acting like the victim but he also acts in charge, and I mean he felt like he was the boss of EVERYTHING. We had to ask permission for things that didn't need permission. We weren't allowed to do the dishes. He would tell us to leave the dishes because he said he would do it. And because we were scared of him, we listened. The dishes would just pile up for days and when I decide I'd had enough I would do the dishes, only to get yelled at afterwards. Other chores and activities would have the same outcome.
We weren't allowed to be sad. If we had a bad day at school and just wanted to stay in our room and be upset, he would for some reason always accuse my mom for being the reason for all sadness. If we had a disagreement about something he would always say "Why don't you go live with your mother!" "Why am I the bad guy?" It's exhausting.
My dad obviously has a smoking and drinking problem. My mom was strict about the smell of smoke in the house but after she left, my dad didn't care and would smoke indoors and his room was full of askes. A teacher even asked me one day if I was smoking because I came to school smelling like smoke. My dad could easily drink 1.5 litres of alcohol everyday. He would start drinking early in the morning untill he went to sleep so he's never sober. It made me and my brother not want to hang out with him, which made my dad mad.
My dad was emotionally abusive. He never physically hurt us, but his words has a huge impact on us. My dad is the cause of our trust issues, our paranoia, and our insecurities.
We are not allowed to make jokes. We are not allowed to have friends over. We are not allowed to go out with friends. We are not allowed to take part in school activities. We are not allowed to be children. We are not allowed to talk seriously with him. We are not allowed to have problems.
I hate my dad, and I'm sure he hates us as well.
I just finished highschool, so you might think I can finally start my own life, but no, I'm not allowed to leave. I'm not allowed to go to uni. I'm not allowed to get a driver's license.
I'm stuck here