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2021.12.28 04:23 SupremoZanne Suzanne Marie tourism subreddit, a sub for the Sault Ste. Marie area
This here is a subreddit for Sault Ste. Marie, which is sometimes nicknamed *Suzanne Marie* since it's short form Sue is pronounced the same as Sault, sometimes called "The Soo".
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2023.03.30 07:17 Loftybalddude Advice please . I am not depressed but I just can’t sleep . Would mirtazapine at 3.5mg or 7.5mg help me sleep but not effect my mental health . ?
Are there similar meds available? I was on mirtazapine 30mg for depression , which was good and helped me through a tough time , I stopped in January, I’m in a really good headspace , so really I want to stay natural and off the meds , but my god I can’t sleep , 2-4 hours max a night . Struggling to function at work and as a parent . Could low dose mirtazapine help with this? Can it be taken as and when without effecting my mental health ? I’ve have a short term prescription of zoplicone , but I’m wary of taking them as they’re addictive and the rebound insomnia associated with it .
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2023.03.30 07:17 sugar-soad I refused to move seats on a plane to help out a pregnant woman, and it may have been one of the worst decisions in my life
I arrived at the gate a few minutes late and was relieved to see that it was still open. The gate agent ushered me through, and I hurried onto the plane.
I quickly made my way to my booked seat. I knew it was going to be a long flight, so I had booked an aisle seat with plenty of leg room.
There was a woman sitting in the window seat who barely even registered my presence as I sat down and stretched out my aching body.
I placed my earphones in and ignored the stewardesses give their emergency instructions as I had seen it numerous times in the past.
The plane had barely been in the air five minutes when I felt someone top me on the shoulder. I turned to face the woman sitting beside me, who was glaring at me.
She demanded that I switch seats with her husband so they could sit together. She pointed at a man who was sitting in a middle seat surrounded by two obese men.
I politely declined as I liked my seat and didn't want to be stuck between two people for the next seven hours. She began yelling at me that she was pregnant and needed her husband beside her to help keep her calm.
It was pretty obvious that she was lying as her stomach was flat as a pancake. I told her that I booked my seat, and her lack of forward planning wasn't my responsibility.
I placed my earphones in to drown out her complaining and actually managed to doze off.
I was awoken a short time later by an elbow to the side. I turned to confront her, and my mouth widened in shock.
Her belly had swelled up, and I could see something moving around inside. She gave me a pleading look before collapsing onto the floor.
One of the stewardesses rushed forward to help her as I sat there in disbelief. I heard a scream behind me, and I looked back to see her husband had ripped out his own throat. He sat bolt upright in his chair with a huge smile on his face. His two seat mates were trying to open their seat belts to get away from him.
My attention was drawn back to the pregnant woman who began yelling that her babies were coming. She opened her mouth, and a deluge of black water began spraying out and instantly drenched the stewardess who was trying to help her. The water petered out, leaving the plane utterly silent as everyone was too shocked to react.
I jumped from my seat as hundreds of white worms about the size of your finger began crawling out of the woman's mouth and onto the floor.
The stewardess was sitting on the floor, and the worms converged on her. She barely had time to react before they began climbing into all of her orifices.
She began writhing on the floor for a few seconds before standing up and smiling at all of us. I began backing away from her as something about her smile gave me the creeps.
Her smile widened, and I watched transfixed as she approached a nearby man and planted a kiss on his mouth. I initially thought she was slipping him the tongue before realising to my revulsion that the worms were slithering from one person to the next.
The man shook for a few moments before starting to smile. Chaos ensued as the other passengers tried to flee. I saw a number of people unintentionally get too close and be given the kiss of death.
I moved to the far end of the plane and watched from behind a curtain as the infected began hunting down the others.
I had to turn away in disgust as one of the infected located a baby that had been forgotten about by its parents.
I began hammering away at the cockpit door and begging them to let me in. The door was flung open, and I backed away as a gun was shoved into my face.
One of the crew started lecturing me about having me arrested when we arrived. His words slowly ebbed as he looked past me at what was unfolding with the other passengers.
I pushed past him into the safety of the cockpit. He was about to follow when he was dragged away screaming.
I slammed the door shut with my heart pounding in my chest. I almost peed myself when a hand wrenched me around, and I stared into the eyes of the terrified captain.
I carefully explained what was going on as the other passengers tried to force their way inside. We both sat there silently afterwards, trying to come to terms with what was happening.
I took the co-pilot's seat as we continued our flight. Exhaustion overcame me, and I once again drifted off to sleep.
I awoke with a shriek as a nightmare that I could no longer remember jolted me awake. I turned to the pilot to ask him how much longer until we landed.
I shrunk away from him as he turned to me with a wide smile, as I could see the worms moving between his teeth.
I hopped up and saw a small hole at the bottom of the door with worms still swarming inside. They began moving towards me, and I smashed my foot down, crushing them beneath my weight.
The pilot began letting out a wail that forced me to cover my ears. He raised his arm and pointed at me as I backed away until my shoulders hit the door.
I wrenched it open and slammed it in his face as he advanced towards me. His wailing was partly muffled by the door as I stood there trying not to panic.
I heard footsteps behind me, and I turned to face the person with a giant smile on my face. A girl no older than ten walked by me with worms moving around inside her eyeballs.
She barely registered my presence as she swayed from side to side.
I once peeked out around the curtains to see most of the other passengers had retaken their seats.
A sea of smiling faces were looking towards me, and it took every fibre of my being to keep smiling back at them.
I took a couple of deep breaths before walking down the aisle. Every head followed my movements as I tried to decide what to do.
I spotted the bathroom ahead and began pacing towards it. I felt something squishy beneath my feet and looked down to see the body of the baby from earlier.
His stomach looked like something had crawled out of it as his ribs were pushed upwards. I let out an involuntary sob and heard the unmistakable sounds of every head spinning in my direction.
I lunged towards the bathroom as hands shot out to grab onto me. I managed to shake them off before rushing inside and sealing the door behind me.
I started wetting the toilet paper and lining the sides of the door to keep out the worms. I know it might not be enough to keep them out, but it is all I can think of.
I hear a noise above me and almost start laughing as the pilot has hit the fasten seat belt sign. I now sit here trapped in the toilet and wondering what will happen if and when we land.
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I quickly made my way to my booked seat. I knew it was going to be a long flight, so I had booked an aisle seat with plenty of leg room.
There was a woman sitting in the window seat who barely even registered my presence as I sat down and stretched out my aching body.
I placed my earphones in and ignored the stewardesses give their emergency instructions as I had seen it numerous times in the past.
The plane had barely been in the air five minutes when I felt someone top me on the shoulder. I turned to face the woman sitting beside me, who was glaring at me.
She demanded that I switch seats with her husband so they could sit together. She pointed at a man who was sitting in a middle seat surrounded by two obese men.
I politely declined as I liked my seat and didn't want to be stuck between two people for the next seven hours. She began yelling at me that she was pregnant and needed her husband beside her to help keep her calm.
It was pretty obvious that she was lying as her stomach was flat as a pancake. I told her that I booked my seat, and her lack of forward planning wasn't my responsibility.
I placed my earphones in to drown out her complaining and actually managed to doze off.
I was awoken a short time later by an elbow to the side. I turned to confront her, and my mouth widened in shock.
Her belly had swelled up, and I could see something moving around inside. She gave me a pleading look before collapsing onto the floor.
One of the stewardesses rushed forward to help her as I sat there in disbelief. I heard a scream behind me, and I looked back to see her husband had ripped out his own throat. He sat bolt upright in his chair with a huge smile on his face. His two seat mates were trying to open their seat belts to get away from him.
My attention was drawn back to the pregnant woman who began yelling that her babies were coming. She opened her mouth, and a deluge of black water began spraying out and instantly drenched the stewardess who was trying to help her. The water petered out, leaving the plane utterly silent as everyone was too shocked to react.
I jumped from my seat as hundreds of white worms about the size of your finger began crawling out of the woman's mouth and onto the floor.
The stewardess was sitting on the floor, and the worms converged on her. She barely had time to react before they began climbing into all of her orifices.
She began writhing on the floor for a few seconds before standing up and smiling at all of us. I began backing away from her as something about her smile gave me the creeps.
Her smile widened, and I watched transfixed as she approached a nearby man and planted a kiss on his mouth. I initially thought she was slipping him the tongue before realising to my revulsion that the worms were slithering from one person to the next.
The man shook for a few moments before starting to smile. Chaos ensued as the other passengers tried to flee. I saw a number of people unintentionally get too close and be given the kiss of death.
I moved to the far end of the plane and watched from behind a curtain as the infected began hunting down the others.
I had to turn away in disgust as one of the infected located a baby that had been forgotten about by its parents.
I began hammering away at the cockpit door and begging them to let me in. The door was flung open, and I backed away as a gun was shoved into my face.
One of the crew started lecturing me about having me arrested when we arrived. His words slowly ebbed as he looked past me at what was unfolding with the other passengers.
I pushed past him into the safety of the cockpit. He was about to follow when he was dragged away screaming.
I slammed the door shut with my heart pounding in my chest. I almost peed myself when a hand wrenched me around, and I stared into the eyes of the terrified captain.
I carefully explained what was going on as the other passengers tried to force their way inside. We both sat there silently afterwards, trying to come to terms with what was happening.
I took the co-pilot's seat as we continued our flight. Exhaustion overcame me, and I once again drifted off to sleep.
I awoke with a shriek as a nightmare that I could no longer remember jolted me awake. I turned to the pilot to ask him how much longer until we landed.
I shrunk away from him as he turned to me with a wide smile, as I could see the worms moving between his teeth.
I hopped up and saw a small hole at the bottom of the door with worms still swarming inside. They began moving towards me, and I smashed my foot down, crushing them beneath my weight.
The pilot began letting out a wail that forced me to cover my ears. He raised his arm and pointed at me as I backed away until my shoulders hit the door.
I wrenched it open and slammed it in his face as he advanced towards me. His wailing was partly muffled by the door as I stood there trying not to panic.
I heard footsteps behind me, and I turned to face the person with a giant smile on my face. A girl no older than ten walked by me with worms moving around inside her eyeballs.
She barely registered my presence as she swayed from side to side.
I once peeked out around the curtains to see most of the other passengers had retaken their seats.
A sea of smiling faces were looking towards me, and it took every fibre of my being to keep smiling back at them.
I took a couple of deep breaths before walking down the aisle. Every head followed my movements as I tried to decide what to do.
I spotted the bathroom ahead and began pacing towards it. I felt something squishy beneath my feet and looked down to see the body of the baby from earlier.
His stomach looked like something had crawled out of it as his ribs were pushed upwards. I let out an involuntary sob and heard the unmistakable sounds of every head spinning in my direction.
I lunged towards the bathroom as hands shot out to grab onto me. I managed to shake them off before rushing inside and sealing the door behind me.
I started wetting the toilet paper and lining the sides of the door to keep out the worms. I know it might not be enough to keep them out, but it is all I can think of.
I hear a noise above me and almost start laughing as the pilot has hit the fasten seat belt sign. I now sit here trapped in the toilet and wondering what will happen if and when we land.
2023.03.30 07:16 blurrypies I don't know if this was SA or not
I've had a lot of trouble trying to figure out if this was SA or not.
So when I was 14, these two boys a year older than me that I knew took me to a secluded place at night where no one was around and got me to give them both head. At first they started kissing me which I was surprised at but I didn't stop them. I didn't know that they were going to ask me to give them head before I agreed to hang out with them. I don't remember a lot of the fine details but I know I agreed to do it when they asked me but looking back, I wasn't old enough or knew enough about consent; they also had sexual experience but I did not and I felt pressured to do what they wanted because there were two of them. At that age, I often just did what people told me to do because I had very low self esteem and wanted people to like me. I remember I had a lot of trouble doing it because I was not used to it. Then afterwards, one of them asked if they could put their penis inside me and I said "ok" even though I was feeling increasingly more uncomfortable and was most likely visibly uncomfortable as well and before he tried to do it, I asked him if he had a condom and he said that it was fine and that he didn't need one and went to do it without making sure I was fully fine with that. But is it my fault for not being clearer? I also definitely remember my pants being off at a certain point and the other one fingering me without any consent.
Please help me, were these instances sexual assault?
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So when I was 14, these two boys a year older than me that I knew took me to a secluded place at night where no one was around and got me to give them both head. At first they started kissing me which I was surprised at but I didn't stop them. I didn't know that they were going to ask me to give them head before I agreed to hang out with them. I don't remember a lot of the fine details but I know I agreed to do it when they asked me but looking back, I wasn't old enough or knew enough about consent; they also had sexual experience but I did not and I felt pressured to do what they wanted because there were two of them. At that age, I often just did what people told me to do because I had very low self esteem and wanted people to like me. I remember I had a lot of trouble doing it because I was not used to it. Then afterwards, one of them asked if they could put their penis inside me and I said "ok" even though I was feeling increasingly more uncomfortable and was most likely visibly uncomfortable as well and before he tried to do it, I asked him if he had a condom and he said that it was fine and that he didn't need one and went to do it without making sure I was fully fine with that. But is it my fault for not being clearer? I also definitely remember my pants being off at a certain point and the other one fingering me without any consent.
Please help me, were these instances sexual assault?
2023.03.30 07:16 ZCumpston Gerber Armbar w/ locking driver??
Does anyone know of something nearly identical to the Gerber Armbar but with a LOCKING screwdriver?! I seriously love everything about the Armbar….but that’s a deal (and knuckle) breaker for me. Ideas?
Or also any hacks on how to DIY this idea
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2023.03.30 07:16 mjayultra Stranger keeps trying to befriend my very not interested puppy
Last week, during one of our morning walks, I saw a woman in the distance and a minute later, I hear a voice behind me: “What’s your dog’s name?” It’s her and I don’t know where she came from. Whatever; I answer and she coos at Warren. He immediately starts growling (not abnormal- he does this often, especially around men). I quickly explain that he’s wary around strangers and move to walk away. She was not happy about this and begins sort of following us. Dog begins barking like crazy. She’s protesting and trying to convince him to…I don’t know…love her? She says, “I would never hurt you, Warren” in this creepy way that immediately made me think of the witch from Hansel and Gretel. We walk away and that’s that. But the same thing happens the next morning, barking and all. Yesterday, in a completely different section of the neighborhood, she spots us and crosses the street. Warren, at this point, wants to tear this lady apart, but she can’t stop walking toward us with her stupid baby voice, even though he looks and sounds like a freaking hellhound. (Side note: He usually does not go this nuts. He might growl, but I’ll distract him, and we can get moving again very quickly.) Now, I know he’s cute. But he’s also really strong (and I’m recovering from a thrown-out back) and it’s probably pretty obvious that I’m not having a ton of fun wrestling him away. I know I don’t owe her anything, but she has me a little stumped (and creeped out? Am I being dramatic?) How do I politely tell her to fuck off? P.S. Feel free to use this thread to vent about your own strangedog experiences!
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2023.03.30 07:16 Loftybalddude Advice please I am not depressed but I just can’t sleep . Would mirtazapine at 3.5mg or 7.5mg help me sleep but not effect my mental health . ? Are there similar meds available?
I was on mirtazapine 30mg for depression , which was good and helped me through a tough time , I stopped in January, I’m actually in a really good headspace , so really I want to stay natural and off the meds , but my god I can’t sleep , 3/4 hours max a night . Could low dose mirtazapine helping this? Can it be taken as and when without effecting my mental health ?
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2023.03.30 07:16 _Tripzy_ I think I fucked up guys
Imma keep it real boys I didn’t realize my truck was low on transmission fluid, the gears were slipping bad and the acceleration was horrible. (I have a 94 ranger with around 76,000 miles on it, automatic)I stopped at a buddy’s and stayed the night, filled up on gas and tried to make it home the next day but failed halfway through as I slowed from 55mph to about 15mph. I probably made it about 15ish miles too before I pulled over and got a tow. I know I’m stupid. Is my transmission permanently fried or do I still have a chance? My brother checked it the next day and didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary however still waiting on the new fluid.
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2023.03.30 07:15 richardhater I don't like penises that much but I like men, what do I do?
I am bi and I have been with four men. I definitely prefer girls, as I got with one once and it was probably one of my best experiences and the most turned on I've been. Out of the men, I was most attracted to two of them (A and B). I would've done nearly anything sexually for them.
I was so turned on by them and I would enthusiastically suck A's dick as foreplay nearly every time we had sex (which was super frequent). I was so excited about his body and dick. I thought he had a fantastic dick, even though it was really nothing special. I was also madly in love with him, more than I've ever loved anyone.
B was just once (the relationship ended abruptly). I wasn't turned on by his dick's appearance but I can just tell I would've probably gotten REALLY into the sexual aspect of our relationship if it hadn't ended quite suddenly. Emotionally, it was very intense and I saw myself falling in love with him quickly.
There's nothing wrong with the other two (C and D). I'm extremely attracted to D but I never was very attracted to C, which I'm sure contributed. I hated even looking at C's penis and eventually I usually refused to touch it. It would literally make me feel sick and gag.
I'm just not enthusiastic about D's penis. I don't know why. Nothing is wrong with it. It's actually really nice-looking, for a penis. I'm particular about giving him head, even though I never had this issue with A.
Will my attraction to his dick increase with time? I had known A and B for years before we had taken things to the next level. And they were both close friends of mine. We also easily clicked on intellectual levels and our bodies worked very well together. I think all of those aspects made me really enthusiastic about intimacy with them.
I guess I'm probably demisexual, though I get very turned on until D's penis comes into the picture. What can I do to become more sexually attracted to D? Just spend more time with him? Create more unique experiences with him?
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I was so turned on by them and I would enthusiastically suck A's dick as foreplay nearly every time we had sex (which was super frequent). I was so excited about his body and dick. I thought he had a fantastic dick, even though it was really nothing special. I was also madly in love with him, more than I've ever loved anyone.
B was just once (the relationship ended abruptly). I wasn't turned on by his dick's appearance but I can just tell I would've probably gotten REALLY into the sexual aspect of our relationship if it hadn't ended quite suddenly. Emotionally, it was very intense and I saw myself falling in love with him quickly.
There's nothing wrong with the other two (C and D). I'm extremely attracted to D but I never was very attracted to C, which I'm sure contributed. I hated even looking at C's penis and eventually I usually refused to touch it. It would literally make me feel sick and gag.
I'm just not enthusiastic about D's penis. I don't know why. Nothing is wrong with it. It's actually really nice-looking, for a penis. I'm particular about giving him head, even though I never had this issue with A.
Will my attraction to his dick increase with time? I had known A and B for years before we had taken things to the next level. And they were both close friends of mine. We also easily clicked on intellectual levels and our bodies worked very well together. I think all of those aspects made me really enthusiastic about intimacy with them.
I guess I'm probably demisexual, though I get very turned on until D's penis comes into the picture. What can I do to become more sexually attracted to D? Just spend more time with him? Create more unique experiences with him?
2023.03.30 07:15 mgmg39 The flight I’ve been dreading for months is coming up… and no logic will help me
TW: I LIST SPECIFIC FEARS BELOW
My fear is completely illogical. I know that, but the part of my brain that refuses to accept it, is so much louder. I used to not think twice about flying until a bad flight last year. In the last few months my fear has only gotten worse. As encouraging as this group can be, I fear nothing anyone can say will help me. I’m afraid of EVERYTHING that has to do with flying. -How quiet the cabin is -The noises the plane makes -I am particularly TERRIFIED of turbulence, because even if it’s not dangerous it still feels like we’re falling out of the sky, and generally people panic which makes me panic even more. Also, the 2 recent turbulence incidents “prove” to my brain that I do have something to be afraid of. -Human error -A freak unexpected thing -A mentally unstable pilot -Crazy people being on my flight -Being stuck on a plane 30-thousand feet in the air with no escape and no control.
I’ve seen logical answers to all of this and nothing has helped. Basically even if there is a .00001% chance of it happening, that is enough for my brain to tell me “it can happen to anyone, it can happen to you.”
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My fear is completely illogical. I know that, but the part of my brain that refuses to accept it, is so much louder. I used to not think twice about flying until a bad flight last year. In the last few months my fear has only gotten worse. As encouraging as this group can be, I fear nothing anyone can say will help me. I’m afraid of EVERYTHING that has to do with flying. -How quiet the cabin is -The noises the plane makes -I am particularly TERRIFIED of turbulence, because even if it’s not dangerous it still feels like we’re falling out of the sky, and generally people panic which makes me panic even more. Also, the 2 recent turbulence incidents “prove” to my brain that I do have something to be afraid of. -Human error -A freak unexpected thing -A mentally unstable pilot -Crazy people being on my flight -Being stuck on a plane 30-thousand feet in the air with no escape and no control.
I’ve seen logical answers to all of this and nothing has helped. Basically even if there is a .00001% chance of it happening, that is enough for my brain to tell me “it can happen to anyone, it can happen to you.”
2023.03.30 07:15 deadonarrival333 I have to get this off my chest.
I have never told anyone about my SA, and I really need to get it off my chest. As soon as I found this, I immediately made a new account so I can tell anonymously.
TW- Attempted Suicide, Self harm
I am 21 F and I was 13 -15 when it all was happening. My brother was 17 when he started to get weird. He started to try to hug me, compliment me, ETC. My whole family never ever acted like that towards me, they always yelled and hit me, so I was very weirded out. This went on for around a week, until he came into my room in the middle of the night. I woke up to him, shirtless and touching my chest under my shirt. As soon as he noticed I woke up, he covered my mouth and told me not to say a word or he'd kill me. I was absolutely terrified. This started to happen every night, but every time it was worse. Maybe a month since it started, he raped me. It hurt so fucking bad, I was even bleeding. I hurt for a long time. I screamed and cried for him to stop but he just kept going. After he finished I asked him why he was doing this to me, and he just said "It's all you're good for." then walked out of my room. I believed him, and I started to hate myself, so I started to self harm. He didn't care whatsoever, he kept doing it every single night. When I turned 14, I finally worked up the courage to tell my dad, but he didn't believe me, he just said I'm just sensitive, and that I'm trying to get my brother in trouble, and that he is just 'teasing' me. My self harm got worse, but SH wasn't enough, so I tried to kill myself. It obviously didn't work, and I was hospitalized for a few days. They wanted me to start therapy, but my dad couldn't afford it, which absolutely sucked, everything went back to how it was, I wanted to try to kms again but I had no way to. The rape just continued, until I was 15, and I hit puberty. He just stopped, I'm guessing either he didn't like how I looked, or he didn't want me to get pregnant.
As soon as I turned 18 I moved as far away as I could, with no contact with any of my family, and I haven't seen them since, and I am so glad. My life has been so much better, I have an amazing job that I love, amazing house, amazing friends, and a cat. I do wish I could have had a better time as a teen, but oh well.
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TW- Attempted Suicide, Self harm
I am 21 F and I was 13 -15 when it all was happening. My brother was 17 when he started to get weird. He started to try to hug me, compliment me, ETC. My whole family never ever acted like that towards me, they always yelled and hit me, so I was very weirded out. This went on for around a week, until he came into my room in the middle of the night. I woke up to him, shirtless and touching my chest under my shirt. As soon as he noticed I woke up, he covered my mouth and told me not to say a word or he'd kill me. I was absolutely terrified. This started to happen every night, but every time it was worse. Maybe a month since it started, he raped me. It hurt so fucking bad, I was even bleeding. I hurt for a long time. I screamed and cried for him to stop but he just kept going. After he finished I asked him why he was doing this to me, and he just said "It's all you're good for." then walked out of my room. I believed him, and I started to hate myself, so I started to self harm. He didn't care whatsoever, he kept doing it every single night. When I turned 14, I finally worked up the courage to tell my dad, but he didn't believe me, he just said I'm just sensitive, and that I'm trying to get my brother in trouble, and that he is just 'teasing' me. My self harm got worse, but SH wasn't enough, so I tried to kill myself. It obviously didn't work, and I was hospitalized for a few days. They wanted me to start therapy, but my dad couldn't afford it, which absolutely sucked, everything went back to how it was, I wanted to try to kms again but I had no way to. The rape just continued, until I was 15, and I hit puberty. He just stopped, I'm guessing either he didn't like how I looked, or he didn't want me to get pregnant.
As soon as I turned 18 I moved as far away as I could, with no contact with any of my family, and I haven't seen them since, and I am so glad. My life has been so much better, I have an amazing job that I love, amazing house, amazing friends, and a cat. I do wish I could have had a better time as a teen, but oh well.
2023.03.30 07:15 Ninth3Planet3 Dday was Valentine’s Day.
Dday was my birthday, which is also Valentine’s Day.
I’m going to apologize in advance if this is long winded and hard to follow.
So for reference my husband (39m) and I (39f) have been together since high school. We both experimented with other people with an on again off again type of relationship until we had our first child nearly 13 years ago. We were married shortly after and have for a better or worse have had somewhat of a trauma filled relationship with lots of ups and downs. A few years after our second child was born we opened up our marriage and both had a partner we were regularly seeing. Sex was amazing for us during that time and it really brought us so much closer. It was short lived however since boundaries were crossed and we made the decision to renew our vows and focus on a monogamous marriage.
Fast forward to becoming pregnant with our third child less than a year after closing our relationship. Yes, I admit that our sex life dwindled as I have very rough pregnancy’s. It was almost non existent after the baby was born as well because I was so self conscious about myself.
In 2020 I took the initive to get healthy again. I lost weight and was the smallest I had ever been in my adult life. Size 8 at 5’7 for reference My husband told me I had lost to much weight and that my hands looks frail. I was shocked, hurt as I had worked so hard to achieve this goal. We were not having sex at all during this time and he would leave and turn off his location frequently especially after an argument.
Well life happened, I gained most of the weight back and he commented that I was getting too big again. Sex was still very few and far between during the past couple years.
This January there was a spark however. He was affectionate and showing interest in me like he used to. I was taken aback by it since I was so used to just living with him at this point. In hindsight I probably should have been more affectionate back. He made plans for my birthday for a romantic dinner and really made the whole day special for me.
Then it happened. I don’t know what told me to look at his phone but I did. The first messages on his phone were from another woman and they were very flirtatious. With her saying that he is sexy and he said that he liked her in bed.
Things blew up. He told me it was because he was getting attention from her and not me. He told me he would end it. I believed him and we have been trying to reconsile alhough i was very guarded.
I thought things were going better. I was making an effort to be more intimate with him. 2 days ago we had some of the best sex we have had in years. I was feeling a real connection.
Something told me to look at his watch. I wish I didn't now because I found messages to another woman. They were sending pictures back and forth. Talking sexually. I am so beyond hurt.
He try’s to downplay everything. He won’t be truthful. He says he just liked the attention.
So I am trying to give him that attention. I text him sexy things the past couple days but get one worded reply’s or that he will talk to me in person. That never happens.
I just don’t know what to do to give him the attention that he craves. He won’t tell me what he needs. I brought up divorce or an open relationship again and he says he doesn’t want either. He just wants to be with me.
I just so confused. Any advice is welcome.
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I’m going to apologize in advance if this is long winded and hard to follow.
So for reference my husband (39m) and I (39f) have been together since high school. We both experimented with other people with an on again off again type of relationship until we had our first child nearly 13 years ago. We were married shortly after and have for a better or worse have had somewhat of a trauma filled relationship with lots of ups and downs. A few years after our second child was born we opened up our marriage and both had a partner we were regularly seeing. Sex was amazing for us during that time and it really brought us so much closer. It was short lived however since boundaries were crossed and we made the decision to renew our vows and focus on a monogamous marriage.
Fast forward to becoming pregnant with our third child less than a year after closing our relationship. Yes, I admit that our sex life dwindled as I have very rough pregnancy’s. It was almost non existent after the baby was born as well because I was so self conscious about myself.
In 2020 I took the initive to get healthy again. I lost weight and was the smallest I had ever been in my adult life. Size 8 at 5’7 for reference My husband told me I had lost to much weight and that my hands looks frail. I was shocked, hurt as I had worked so hard to achieve this goal. We were not having sex at all during this time and he would leave and turn off his location frequently especially after an argument.
Well life happened, I gained most of the weight back and he commented that I was getting too big again. Sex was still very few and far between during the past couple years.
This January there was a spark however. He was affectionate and showing interest in me like he used to. I was taken aback by it since I was so used to just living with him at this point. In hindsight I probably should have been more affectionate back. He made plans for my birthday for a romantic dinner and really made the whole day special for me.
Then it happened. I don’t know what told me to look at his phone but I did. The first messages on his phone were from another woman and they were very flirtatious. With her saying that he is sexy and he said that he liked her in bed.
Things blew up. He told me it was because he was getting attention from her and not me. He told me he would end it. I believed him and we have been trying to reconsile alhough i was very guarded.
I thought things were going better. I was making an effort to be more intimate with him. 2 days ago we had some of the best sex we have had in years. I was feeling a real connection.
Something told me to look at his watch. I wish I didn't now because I found messages to another woman. They were sending pictures back and forth. Talking sexually. I am so beyond hurt.
He try’s to downplay everything. He won’t be truthful. He says he just liked the attention.
So I am trying to give him that attention. I text him sexy things the past couple days but get one worded reply’s or that he will talk to me in person. That never happens.
I just don’t know what to do to give him the attention that he craves. He won’t tell me what he needs. I brought up divorce or an open relationship again and he says he doesn’t want either. He just wants to be with me.
I just so confused. Any advice is welcome.
2023.03.30 07:14 Cooooook I(22M) broke NC with my Ex (21F) and it went wrong
So, me and my Ex broke up about a month ago, she basically told me she wants to move on and hasn't felt love towards me for months, she's getting to know someone and wants to respect him as she did with me during our relationship. I haven't processed it well, I've tried to beg for her to come back till eventually I went NC for a week.
I was doing alright during NC since I was blocked in every social media, one day out of curiosity I checked FaceBook, and it turns out I wasn't blocked. I didn't think too much of it, then I saw her at the gym and I basically didn't look her way, later that day she posts a story of herself with a song talking about; breakups, It didn't work out, incase we see each other again.
I felt it was directly towards me and I reached out and basically told her I missed her and blah blah blah. She said she missed me as well and misses my family and that she thought I was mad at her because of the gym, then later during the conversation she mentions she's still talking with the guy. Then confusingly I asked her: "So all those hints and you saying you missed me as well wasn't true?" She said: "No, I only unblocked you incase you did something stupid, and I miss you but, not like that. I ask you to not text me anymore since I want to have something nice with the guy im talking to." Her whole attitude changed from the start of the convo to the end.
I'm very confused, I told her to block me everywhere because tbh im not capable of doing so, and so she did. I'm going back on NC, and plan on doing so for a long time. I feel she never really got time to process our breakup and found someone else within a week, even though she says she's been over me for a while even during our relationship.
Note: How do you guys maintain NC without thinking too much, am I tripping or is she playing games with me as well. I need advice I can't stop thinking of her every minute of the day.
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I was doing alright during NC since I was blocked in every social media, one day out of curiosity I checked FaceBook, and it turns out I wasn't blocked. I didn't think too much of it, then I saw her at the gym and I basically didn't look her way, later that day she posts a story of herself with a song talking about; breakups, It didn't work out, incase we see each other again.
I felt it was directly towards me and I reached out and basically told her I missed her and blah blah blah. She said she missed me as well and misses my family and that she thought I was mad at her because of the gym, then later during the conversation she mentions she's still talking with the guy. Then confusingly I asked her: "So all those hints and you saying you missed me as well wasn't true?" She said: "No, I only unblocked you incase you did something stupid, and I miss you but, not like that. I ask you to not text me anymore since I want to have something nice with the guy im talking to." Her whole attitude changed from the start of the convo to the end.
I'm very confused, I told her to block me everywhere because tbh im not capable of doing so, and so she did. I'm going back on NC, and plan on doing so for a long time. I feel she never really got time to process our breakup and found someone else within a week, even though she says she's been over me for a while even during our relationship.
Note: How do you guys maintain NC without thinking too much, am I tripping or is she playing games with me as well. I need advice I can't stop thinking of her every minute of the day.
2023.03.30 07:14 ReclusiveEagle Bing Co-pilot helped me create a JS script I don't know JS
I know nothing about JS. However I know a bit of HTML, CSS and how inspect element works.
After 3 hours of trying Bing-Copilot it was able to help me create this:
let links = [];
let elements = document.querySelectorAll('.downloadLinks a');
elements.forEach(function(element) {
let link = element.href;
let metadata = {};
let slot = element.closest('.slot');
let selects = slot.querySelectorAll('.imageAttrInput');
selects.forEach(function(select) {
let key = select.closest('.attribute').textContent.trim();
let value = select.selectedIndex >= 0 ? select.options[select.selectedIndex].text : '';
metadata[key] = value;
});
let lighting = document.querySelector('.header .lighting .selected').title;
metadata['Lighting'] = lighting;
links.push({link: link, metadata: metadata});
});
console.log(links);
What it does is take information from multiple dropdown boxes on a specific website. Each drop down box loads a different image. Using this code scrapes the download links from the Amazon Bucket and then adds the metadata from the multiple dropdown boxes and generates text.
Example:
It took a lot of trouble shooting, attempting to figure out how this website processes data etc. However, Bing Co-Pilot just enabled me to create something that would have been impossible for me to do without it. Unless I wanted to spend hundreds of hours learning basic JS and still need help for the next few years.
submitted by ReclusiveEagle to bing [link] [comments]
After 3 hours of trying Bing-Copilot it was able to help me create this:
let links = [];
let elements = document.querySelectorAll('.downloadLinks a');
elements.forEach(function(element) {
let link = element.href;
let metadata = {};
let slot = element.closest('.slot');
let selects = slot.querySelectorAll('.imageAttrInput');
selects.forEach(function(select) {
let key = select.closest('.attribute').textContent.trim();
let value = select.selectedIndex >= 0 ? select.options[select.selectedIndex].text : '';
metadata[key] = value;
});
let lighting = document.querySelector('.header .lighting .selected').title;
metadata['Lighting'] = lighting;
links.push({link: link, metadata: metadata});
});
console.log(links);
What it does is take information from multiple dropdown boxes on a specific website. Each drop down box loads a different image. Using this code scrapes the download links from the Amazon Bucket and then adds the metadata from the multiple dropdown boxes and generates text.
Example:
{ "link": "https://www.dpreview.com/reviews/image-comparison/download-image?s3Key=b8e02b41c24a4164834634b1a7c0ae58.acr.jpg", "metadata": { "Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ300", "JPEGRAW": "RAW", "ISO": "100", "Select a Multi-Shot mode": "", "StandardE-shutter": "Standard", "Select a Raw Size": "", "Lighting": "Low light" } }, I would have never been able to create this I have zero interest in learning JS right now Normally you'd go to stackoverflow, reddit, etc and ask people of various skill levels to help you with a specific part of your code and not the whole thing. And even then you might be waiting hours to days to months for a reply if at all. It took a lot of trouble shooting, attempting to figure out how this website processes data etc. However, Bing Co-Pilot just enabled me to create something that would have been impossible for me to do without it. Unless I wanted to spend hundreds of hours learning basic JS and still need help for the next few years.
2023.03.30 07:14 AnonGrow- Harassment/threatening property damage
I tried to help this lady out and change her alternator. She posted in a local Facebook group .The bolt stripped, took a couple days. Started the 22nd. The 25th it was freezing rain and snow, I told her at 9 am that I couldn’t come out that day(25th). She ignored it and told me that it was her girls birthday the 26th and she was trying to have it done by then. Then said “oh, I didn’t realize how much snow was out there” after a half hour of me not replying. Nevr once said it was a problem or that I had to be out there or finish it by the 26th.
I replied saying sorry I can’t make it out today around an hour after she sent the “oh” trxt. I said I’ll be out tomorrow(26th) morning. She ignored me all day until 9pm and then threatened to call the police and said it wasn’t going to be worked on tomorrow (26th, her girls birthday.) I replied at midnight when I got off work (phone was in the car being used as a hotspot) saying “I assume you filed a police report? I’m still willing to finish it tomorrow, I told you I’d be out there tomorrow”(26th).
She replied at noon the 26th saying fuck youu dumb fucks and went on another rant, saying it should’ve been done. I replied 20 minutes later saying I can come out an put everything together or finish cutting off the bolt. She ignored me until 6pm and blew up that we didn’t come out when she stated yesterday we couldn’t since it was her girls bday. She said “don’t think you’re coming here.” I replied stating I told you yesterday give me a time to come out or tell me to fuck off and file the report, I assume this is you telling me to fuck off, I won’t be back out there.
I got 10+ more messages and 10+ calls that I ignored since then telling me I need to be out there or the cops will be called, I need to find someone who can finish the job, I need to have it towed to a shop then she threatened to bust up my car on two separate occasions and threatened that she would find me.
She called my friends phone over twenty times a few nights ago from different numbers. He answered the first call and they were screaming at him. He hung up after threatening cps (I really don’t like this but I couldn’t stop him.) She used another account to message me AND MY GIRLFRIEND and I explained the situation like I just wrote out and told her I wouldn’t be back out. serve me the papers.
In my mind, I tried on multiple occasions to make it right. She told me she didn’t want me out there, I took that at face value. Then she constantly ranted about me needing to come fix it, bring someone who can, or tow it to a shop that can.
She now knows where I live. (Complex not the apt #) Tonight I got a call from her right as I got home and then after I went and walked around the parking lot looking at the cars to see if they were there. I got another call after I went inside. I’m going out every half an hour to make sure they aren’t fucking up my car.
I really don’t know what to do. She told me not to come out there, and I didn’t, and then she got pissed that I didn’t. I replied to her multiple times trying to make things right. She ignored me for hours, and then got pissed at me.
!!!! Now she’s saying we lost a bunch of bolts. She saying the bolt for the tie rod end or control arm is missing and it’s hanging off the wheel. We never touched that. She’s also saying we broke multiple parts. We didn’t break anything apart from stripping the nut on the pulley tensioner.
The 20th she posted in the same Facebook group asking for somebody to tow her car to a shop for her. The 22nd I went and picked her up from the motel and drove her to her car at the shop. We then drove with a jump pack underneath the hood to her motel. The shop should have records of what was wrong with the car no?
As soon as she threatened the cops, I knew no matter what I did if I went and touched that car again, she was going to blame me for every single problem down the line. That is why I told her to file a police report or take me to court , after she threatened the cops.
Any insight? She’s called me three times since midnight. Tuesday she messaged me on another account and message my girlfriend. I replied, explaining the situation again telling her I’m not coming back out there. You told me not to, take me to court and serve me papers I am not responding anymore.
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I replied saying sorry I can’t make it out today around an hour after she sent the “oh” trxt. I said I’ll be out tomorrow(26th) morning. She ignored me all day until 9pm and then threatened to call the police and said it wasn’t going to be worked on tomorrow (26th, her girls birthday.) I replied at midnight when I got off work (phone was in the car being used as a hotspot) saying “I assume you filed a police report? I’m still willing to finish it tomorrow, I told you I’d be out there tomorrow”(26th).
She replied at noon the 26th saying fuck youu dumb fucks and went on another rant, saying it should’ve been done. I replied 20 minutes later saying I can come out an put everything together or finish cutting off the bolt. She ignored me until 6pm and blew up that we didn’t come out when she stated yesterday we couldn’t since it was her girls bday. She said “don’t think you’re coming here.” I replied stating I told you yesterday give me a time to come out or tell me to fuck off and file the report, I assume this is you telling me to fuck off, I won’t be back out there.
I got 10+ more messages and 10+ calls that I ignored since then telling me I need to be out there or the cops will be called, I need to find someone who can finish the job, I need to have it towed to a shop then she threatened to bust up my car on two separate occasions and threatened that she would find me.
She called my friends phone over twenty times a few nights ago from different numbers. He answered the first call and they were screaming at him. He hung up after threatening cps (I really don’t like this but I couldn’t stop him.) She used another account to message me AND MY GIRLFRIEND and I explained the situation like I just wrote out and told her I wouldn’t be back out. serve me the papers.
In my mind, I tried on multiple occasions to make it right. She told me she didn’t want me out there, I took that at face value. Then she constantly ranted about me needing to come fix it, bring someone who can, or tow it to a shop that can.
She now knows where I live. (Complex not the apt #) Tonight I got a call from her right as I got home and then after I went and walked around the parking lot looking at the cars to see if they were there. I got another call after I went inside. I’m going out every half an hour to make sure they aren’t fucking up my car.
I really don’t know what to do. She told me not to come out there, and I didn’t, and then she got pissed that I didn’t. I replied to her multiple times trying to make things right. She ignored me for hours, and then got pissed at me.
!!!! Now she’s saying we lost a bunch of bolts. She saying the bolt for the tie rod end or control arm is missing and it’s hanging off the wheel. We never touched that. She’s also saying we broke multiple parts. We didn’t break anything apart from stripping the nut on the pulley tensioner.
The 20th she posted in the same Facebook group asking for somebody to tow her car to a shop for her. The 22nd I went and picked her up from the motel and drove her to her car at the shop. We then drove with a jump pack underneath the hood to her motel. The shop should have records of what was wrong with the car no?
As soon as she threatened the cops, I knew no matter what I did if I went and touched that car again, she was going to blame me for every single problem down the line. That is why I told her to file a police report or take me to court , after she threatened the cops.
Any insight? She’s called me three times since midnight. Tuesday she messaged me on another account and message my girlfriend. I replied, explaining the situation again telling her I’m not coming back out there. You told me not to, take me to court and serve me papers I am not responding anymore.
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2023.03.30 07:13 FaithinFuture Is Phil Labonte the most insufferable person in Metalcore?
I ask this question to the community after recently having the misfortune of being recommended his Twitter profile and now Twitter won't stop recommending me his ignorant as fuck takes. The dude is so passionate about being a bigot but won't take the time to vet his sources or engage in any conversation in good faith. At this point, I'm starting to just think he's just a masterful troll cause if not, he has got to be the most insufferable person in metalcore.
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2023.03.30 07:13 prettylikeadevill my mom goes to great lengths to make sure i stay socially isolated i hate it
she took away my phone my laptop my ipad. if i want to contact my friends i have to use her phone. im not allowed to use social media. im not allowed to hang out with them either. it was one my closest friends birthday last saturday. i begged her to let me go. her excuse? itll ruin your orientation towards studies like what the hell does that even mean. i didnt study for a week leading up to it. she doesnt have a problem with that but what she does have a problem is with seeing me happy. its suffocating . i barely go out anyways. i have almost no friends because i dont show up to things. its my last year of high school and i thought maybe she'd be more understanding. she told me ill only be allowed to go to my farewell. my school life is coming to an end and i have made basically no memories with these people. at some point they just stop inviting you to stuff because they know you wont show up. it hurt so much. and my mother has the audacity to ask me why im closed off. if it s a family event i have to be there but if its a friends thing im not allowed. im so done man im so fucking done. why do they do this
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2023.03.30 07:13 ReclusiveEagle Bing Co-pilotChatGPT is amazing helped me write JS
I know nothing about JS. However I know a bit of HTML, CSS and how inspect element works.
After 3 hours of trying Bing-Copilot it was able to help me create this:
let links = [];
let elements = document.querySelectorAll('.downloadLinks a');
elements.forEach(function(element) {
let link = element.href;
let metadata = {};
let slot = element.closest('.slot');
let selects = slot.querySelectorAll('.imageAttrInput');
selects.forEach(function(select) {
let key = select.closest('.attribute').textContent.trim();
let value = select.selectedIndex >= 0 ? select.options[select.selectedIndex].text : '';
metadata[key] = value;
});
let lighting = document.querySelector('.header .lighting .selected').title;
metadata['Lighting'] = lighting;
links.push({link: link, metadata: metadata});
});
console.log(links);
What it does is take information from multiple dropdown boxes on a specific website. Each drop down box loads a different image. Using this code scrapes the download links from the Amazon Bucket and then adds the metadata from the multiple dropdown boxes and generates text.
Example:
It took a lot of trouble shooting, attempting to figure out how this website processes data etc. However, Bing Co-Pilot just enabled me to create something that would have been impossible for me to do without it. Unless I wanted to spend hundreds of hours learning basic JS and still need help for the next few years.
submitted by ReclusiveEagle to ChatGPT [link] [comments]
After 3 hours of trying Bing-Copilot it was able to help me create this:
let links = [];
let elements = document.querySelectorAll('.downloadLinks a');
elements.forEach(function(element) {
let link = element.href;
let metadata = {};
let slot = element.closest('.slot');
let selects = slot.querySelectorAll('.imageAttrInput');
selects.forEach(function(select) {
let key = select.closest('.attribute').textContent.trim();
let value = select.selectedIndex >= 0 ? select.options[select.selectedIndex].text : '';
metadata[key] = value;
});
let lighting = document.querySelector('.header .lighting .selected').title;
metadata['Lighting'] = lighting;
links.push({link: link, metadata: metadata});
});
console.log(links);
What it does is take information from multiple dropdown boxes on a specific website. Each drop down box loads a different image. Using this code scrapes the download links from the Amazon Bucket and then adds the metadata from the multiple dropdown boxes and generates text.
Example:
{ "link": "https://www.dpreview.com/reviews/image-comparison/download-image?s3Key=b8e02b41c24a4164834634b1a7c0ae58.acr.jpg", "metadata": { "Panasonic Lumix DMC-FZ300", "JPEGRAW": "RAW", "ISO": "100", "Select a Multi-Shot mode": "", "StandardE-shutter": "Standard", "Select a Raw Size": "", "Lighting": "Low light" } }, I would have never been able to create this I have zero interest in learning JS right now Normally you'd go to stackoverflow, reddit, etc and ask people of various skill levels to help you with a specific part of your code and not the whole thing. And even then you might be waiting hours to days to months for a reply if at all. It took a lot of trouble shooting, attempting to figure out how this website processes data etc. However, Bing Co-Pilot just enabled me to create something that would have been impossible for me to do without it. Unless I wanted to spend hundreds of hours learning basic JS and still need help for the next few years.
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2023.03.30 07:13 Throw-account-752 I am depressed
I'm not sure if I need help. I probably do, but I don't know where to start.
My mum and pops are amazing individuals, but the life i had with them when they were still together was hell for me. My dad constantly cheated on my mom. Then, it reached a point where I would have to protect my baby sister from seeing and hearing the physical, verbal, and emotional abuse. Our house was a one bedroom household with thin walls and no door, so we constantly witnessed my mom getting beaten up by my dad. We told her to leave him many times, but her own childhood trauma wouldn't let her raise her children without a father. From witnessing my mom fight my dad's mistress, to my dad moving to another country to start a new life with his affair partner, to my little sister confising our uncle for her father, to witnessing my mom's cry for help, to my dad telling her he didn't love her and so many more things my mom stayed with my dad. She would beg my father to stay with her and to change for his family his response was always the same " A bitch like you will never change me." The abuse reached to a point where my family wouldn't even intervine when my dad was beating my mom because she didn't want to leave him so what where they suppose to do. I almost got stabbed by my dad's mistress in our house property, which is when my neighbors got involved because it affected me. My mom finally decided to leave my dad because he got hooked to drugs and alcohol. He tried to hit me after I tried to stop him from raping my mom. I remember that conversation vividly. I told him that I hated him and to stop hurting my mom. He didn't like it and told me he will show me how to respect him and he was taking his belt of to hit me but my mom tried to stop him and then my grandma burst open the door and threatened him to let us go. So he did, and that was the last day my mom tolerated his bullshit. She separated from him after that incident. But my dad continued harassing and he almost killed my mom, and if I hadn't woken up, he would have killed my mom. He told her that he was going g to kill my mom and me and my sister, and then he would kill himself so this family ends and no one has a happily after. He ended up moving out of the country and got married again.After he started dating his current wife, he left my mom alone. I have talked to my dad about a therapist, but he told me no. My dad is a changed man, and I'm proud of the huge life changes he had. Nevertheless, I feel he disqualifies my trauma and states that I need to leave the past behind and that he doesn't remember anything I tell him he put us through. I believe it's because of the drugs. But what infuriates me is the fact that he discredits my feelings. When I confront him about him not helping us financially, it's always the same result. His new family is always involved that they suffered with during covid when he lost his job and that they lived every day, not knowing when their next meal would be at. Also, when he got sick with his heart, they were there for him and that they were with him in his tough moments in life moments were weren't present.Thank God his heart is doing better. I really appreciate them for being by his side. But I don't think he understands that the reason we aren't there with him is because of him. I understand some people aren't meant to be together, but the reason why my mom decided to leave is because of his actions. His wife has a daughter from the previous marriage, and he treats her like his daughter. He sometimes treats her better than us, and I'm aware that this girl witnessed her biological father beat her mom up, and then she witnessed my dad beat her mom in their early stage of their relationship. I'm not discrediting what she went through, but what annoys me is the fact that he says that she suffered with him, yet he discredits my traumas and states that the past is in the past.
My present problems
After my mom left my dad, I had a habit of biting my nails and the skin around my fingernails; an uncontrollable leg shake; a habit of biting any object I had in my hand and I became a paranoid person. I'm aware that I constantly seek attention and that I'm a pathological liar when it comes to my life events. I constantly feel like my life has no meaning, and I don't have a lot of friends. I only have 3, and during my high school life, I never made friends. You would have to approach me for me to talk to you. Currently, I'm in university, and I'm still the quiet, shy, reserved girl. The person my 2 friends think I am is a complete fake persona. My mom thinks I'm the perfect daughter, and that's not even true. I had a guy who was truly into me, but I couldn't communicate my feelings, and I was afraid that my feelings for him were becoming strong that I broke up with him and he didn't give up on me. He still finds me, and I recently started chatting with him again. I don't know what to do with my life. I feel lost and hopeless. Honestly, I just want to end it and stop being a burden.
Sorry for the long post. I've never done this before.
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My mum and pops are amazing individuals, but the life i had with them when they were still together was hell for me. My dad constantly cheated on my mom. Then, it reached a point where I would have to protect my baby sister from seeing and hearing the physical, verbal, and emotional abuse. Our house was a one bedroom household with thin walls and no door, so we constantly witnessed my mom getting beaten up by my dad. We told her to leave him many times, but her own childhood trauma wouldn't let her raise her children without a father. From witnessing my mom fight my dad's mistress, to my dad moving to another country to start a new life with his affair partner, to my little sister confising our uncle for her father, to witnessing my mom's cry for help, to my dad telling her he didn't love her and so many more things my mom stayed with my dad. She would beg my father to stay with her and to change for his family his response was always the same " A bitch like you will never change me." The abuse reached to a point where my family wouldn't even intervine when my dad was beating my mom because she didn't want to leave him so what where they suppose to do. I almost got stabbed by my dad's mistress in our house property, which is when my neighbors got involved because it affected me. My mom finally decided to leave my dad because he got hooked to drugs and alcohol. He tried to hit me after I tried to stop him from raping my mom. I remember that conversation vividly. I told him that I hated him and to stop hurting my mom. He didn't like it and told me he will show me how to respect him and he was taking his belt of to hit me but my mom tried to stop him and then my grandma burst open the door and threatened him to let us go. So he did, and that was the last day my mom tolerated his bullshit. She separated from him after that incident. But my dad continued harassing and he almost killed my mom, and if I hadn't woken up, he would have killed my mom. He told her that he was going g to kill my mom and me and my sister, and then he would kill himself so this family ends and no one has a happily after. He ended up moving out of the country and got married again.After he started dating his current wife, he left my mom alone. I have talked to my dad about a therapist, but he told me no. My dad is a changed man, and I'm proud of the huge life changes he had. Nevertheless, I feel he disqualifies my trauma and states that I need to leave the past behind and that he doesn't remember anything I tell him he put us through. I believe it's because of the drugs. But what infuriates me is the fact that he discredits my feelings. When I confront him about him not helping us financially, it's always the same result. His new family is always involved that they suffered with during covid when he lost his job and that they lived every day, not knowing when their next meal would be at. Also, when he got sick with his heart, they were there for him and that they were with him in his tough moments in life moments were weren't present.Thank God his heart is doing better. I really appreciate them for being by his side. But I don't think he understands that the reason we aren't there with him is because of him. I understand some people aren't meant to be together, but the reason why my mom decided to leave is because of his actions. His wife has a daughter from the previous marriage, and he treats her like his daughter. He sometimes treats her better than us, and I'm aware that this girl witnessed her biological father beat her mom up, and then she witnessed my dad beat her mom in their early stage of their relationship. I'm not discrediting what she went through, but what annoys me is the fact that he says that she suffered with him, yet he discredits my traumas and states that the past is in the past.
My present problems
After my mom left my dad, I had a habit of biting my nails and the skin around my fingernails; an uncontrollable leg shake; a habit of biting any object I had in my hand and I became a paranoid person. I'm aware that I constantly seek attention and that I'm a pathological liar when it comes to my life events. I constantly feel like my life has no meaning, and I don't have a lot of friends. I only have 3, and during my high school life, I never made friends. You would have to approach me for me to talk to you. Currently, I'm in university, and I'm still the quiet, shy, reserved girl. The person my 2 friends think I am is a complete fake persona. My mom thinks I'm the perfect daughter, and that's not even true. I had a guy who was truly into me, but I couldn't communicate my feelings, and I was afraid that my feelings for him were becoming strong that I broke up with him and he didn't give up on me. He still finds me, and I recently started chatting with him again. I don't know what to do with my life. I feel lost and hopeless. Honestly, I just want to end it and stop being a burden.
Sorry for the long post. I've never done this before.